"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Both Apologize

I watched Azan echo, I woke up with both eyes still sleepy. After leaving Mas Eagle's room last night, I couldn't go straight to sleep. Just pensively thinking about our fight earlier.

I feel so wrong with Mas Elang's attitude. A moment angry because I accidentally mentioned the name of Mbak Mayang. And then she declared her love for me. So that I often think, maybe Mas Eagle has not completely forgotten his love for Mbak Mayang. And I'm jealous. I can only cry at last.

I immediately went down after performing the Fajr prayer. Arriving at the kitchen, Bi Narti and Bi Ijah greeted me.

"Non Nada, what do you want Aunt to do?" ask them to come to me.

"No need, Bi, I want to make milk only," I said while making pregnant milk and one cup of coffee.

"Non Nada wants coffee too?" Bi Narti asked in astonishment.

"No, Bi, this is for Mas Elang" I replied as I stirred up Mas Elang's favorite black coffee.

"Non, let me bring the coffee and milk up," Bi Narti offered help.

"No need, Bi, let me be alone" I refused while preparing milk and coffee in the tray.

I walked up the stairs and climbed slowly. Bi Ijah who was worried about me followed behind.

"Bi Ijah, go straight to Sya's room. Who knows, I'm awake" I said. Bi Ijah obeyed and turned his body to the room of Sya. While I went straight to our room to give Mas Elang's favorite coffee. As a form of my apology for the little fight last night.

Before entering the room, I stood up and pensively stood in front of the door. Thinking, what would I say first to Mas Eagle? Obviously, I'll apologize for last night's fight. Maybe here I should give up.

I tap for a moment and I open it. My feelings suddenly rumbled with a burning sense of doubt.

Inside the room, I saw a strange sight. Mas Eagle was busy preparing clothes and others into a suitcase, like going far away. I was astonished and approached him, not even Mas Eagle realized that I had entered the room.

Suddenly my feelings are very sad. I was thinking because of last night's fight Mas Eagle was leaving. I put a tray with one glass of milk and one cup of coffee on the table. I stood looking at the back of the man I loved so much.

"Mas, Nada brought coffee for Mas Elang," I offered with a sad feeling. Mas Eagle turned his head while frowning in wonder. Maybe I don't usually see me bringing drinks into the room.

"Lho, you? Why bring drinks to the room, usually not?" tanyanya. I sat on the bed staring at all the things that Mas Eagle was arranging.

"This ... as Nada's apology to Mas Elang," said I faltered while still bowed to the pile of clothes and others that were still not put in the suitcase.

"The Eagle's leaving?" I asked slowly and looked down sad. "Because of our fight last night?" I just want to get sadder.

"Tone, mas should go. This is sudden and has nothing to do with the debate last night," he said in a hurry while including items that were still not included.

"Where, Mas?"

"Honey, I don't have time to explain now. It was awaited. There are important things that must be taken care of outside the city," he replied unclearly.

"Okay, maybe a week."

"Sunday?" wonder I don't believe it.

"Mas does not know for sure how long, just pray the business is finished sooner. Mas, will miss you so much" he said, embracing me tightly, then slowly breaking the embrace. Mas Eagle looked at me deeply, trying to calm me down who looked agitated.

"Mas, Tipped Sya, and Mama. About Mama, you don't have to listen to anything if you say something hurtful."

Hearing Mas Eagle's words like that, it didn't feel like these tears were dripping. Untold sadness.

"See, he's a smart kid. You just tell me the truth. I know he doesn't want to be far from me. But, with you, I don't think he's going to be too sad" she said, looking at me deeply and kissing my forehead.

"Mas will miss you so much, too. I love you" he said again, kissing my lips at a glance. I am saddened to hear all of his words.

"To pick up Sya school, I have sent Mr. Udin. If you want to go out and go for a walk as well, just ask between Mr. Udin," he reminded.

Mas Eagle got up while embracing me, hugging me tightly, rubbing my back while speaking. "I'm sorry for last night, okay here, take care of your womb" he said.

"Tone's sorry, too, Mom," I said.

"Mas, it can't take long, honey. Mas hurriedly," he said as he kissed my lips deep with a fiery feeling. Of course with a detained desire.

"Ok, mas must say goodbye to Mama first," he said releasing his embrace and kiss. Before grabbing the suitcase, do not forget Mas Eagle grabbed the glass containing coffee made me earlier, then drank it.

"Come on!" take her while dragging a suitcase. I followed him from behind. We're down the stairs. When I step one by one on the stairs, my feelings of sadness are unstoppable. I cry in silence.

Mas Eagle turned towards Mom's room. Mom woke up and sat on the edge of the bed. There has been no sign of Mom improving her legs or arms. I'm so sad to see it. The eagle approached and hugged Mom.

"Ma, the Eagle goes first, yeah. Mama do not have many other thoughts besides focusing on your health" said Mas Elang reminded.

"Where are you, El? Don't leave Mama!" sad door.

"El, not for long. Just a job. Mama, fine here, yeah. All will take care of Mama, including Nada," concluded Mas Elang while kissing Mother's forehead and regretting it.

"El, not for long." Mother looked at Mas Eagle with an anxious face.

"Elang, not for long, Ma. Mama take it easy, all ART will take care of Mama," persuaded Mas Elang while kissing Mother's forehead back. "Remark, yes, Ma!"

Because he felt in pursuit of time, Mas Eagle immediately moved after saying goodbye to Mom.

In front of the door, Mas Eagle grabbed my hand and embraced. "I'm gonna miss you so much. Titip Sya, Mama, also your content. If you are bored, you can play to Marisa's house or go for a walk with Marisa, as long as you are invited to pick up Mr. Udin," he said. Then it grabbed my face, brought it closer to Mas Eagle's face, and then the kiss landed a long time ago.

"Ok, I'm leaving, yeah!" pamitnya while releasing her embrace and move. Mas Eagle started to enter his car and start the engine of the car. Mr. Nanang swiftly opened the gate, then Mas Eagle's car passed along with the sound of the car horn that sounded.

I escorted Mas Elang away with a sad look. Only prayer accompanies the departure of Mas Eagle. "May you be safe and smooth with your business, Mas" I whispered.

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