"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "
Want to be Spoiled
Return to POV 1 (Tone)
I woke up when the alarm clock showed me at 10am, I was wriggling my stiff muscles. I feel like my body is starting to get better and feel light. Nausea relief drugs given by Midwife Dina are indeed powerful. I don't feel nausea. I'm throwing up as much as I did yesterday.
My legs feel lazy to step into the bathroom, I finally lay down again and lazily back on the mattress. While feeling the stomach is still flat. Sometimes I can't believe I've grown a fetus in this belly. How happy I am to be pregnant, especially if I have a handsome husband and I love him.
When pregnant like this, I honestly want to be pampered by my husband or prioritized in any case, but it seems that I can't. For the Eagle now has a divided focus, giving equal attention to mother, work, and also to me. And now I want to be prioritized? It's impossible, let alone be a priority, to want to be pampered now is difficult. Was I demanding too much or selfishly asking for more attention from Mas Eagle while I was pregnant?
Unfortunately Mas Eagle is insensitive, and it is impossible for me to get, because Mas Eagle is not the type that is as soft as silk, Mas Eagle is a little hard disposition. He is romantic if he wants something, caring and loyal, but to pamper me with a lebay attitude is not his type.
All of a sudden I was crying out what was making me sad, I felt so sensitive, wanted to be hugged and wanted to be pampered, that was all in my mind. Mas Eagle I expected somewhere. I want it to feel like right now he is here hugging me and telling stories while spoiled.
Mas Eagle is not the type of lebay, since his first marriage failed he seemed traumatized to be excessive in treating a partner, the impact hit me. I was not treated as privileged as his first ex-wife, who was given exclusive facilities, entrusted with this endeavor.
Lucky I was not the type of girl matre, my mind was simple, the important thing is that men are loyal and hardworking and able to provide support. But it was not enough, apparently I needed attention and pampered.
I immediately got up from the bed, rushed me to the bathroom and cleared myself of the rest of my crying that was possible for Mas Eagle Lebay. I quickly finished the ritual in the bathroom and immediately dressed and polished my face with a touch of makeup. Feeling beautiful, I immediately rushed down the stairs and walked towards the kitchen. But before heading to the kitchen I turned to the right where Mother's room was, to just say hello and see the development of mother.
And apparently Mas Elang was in the mother's room, was chatting in a manned office clothes, like Mas Elang was directly to the restaurant after dropping off Sya, he said, we went to the restaurant for a while and now we are back home.
"Where's your wife, El?" I asked Mas Eagle.
"In the room, Ma. It was out of the clinic, Nada was very sleepy, maybe the effect of nausea reliever drugs so Nada fell asleep."
"That's your wife's habit ....!"
"Have ... do not Mama continue, later the edges say Nada," Eagle sergeant cut off Bu Sri's speech.
"From now on, remember the word Doctor, Mama don't think too much of a no-no, Mama must keep your emotions from exploding, otherwise your high blood is crumpled," the Eagle is serious.
I paused my intention to Mother's room, then went straight to the kitchen and immediately made the pregnant mother's milk that Midwife Dina gave me yesterday. I walked carrying a glass of pregnant mother's milk to the back garden, it seems that the atmosphere of the back garden can make my crybaby disappear.
When sitting in the back garden chair and looking at the flowers, it really can slightly eliminate my sense of cenngeng. I tiptoed then approached one of the maroon-colored Dahlia flowers.
"Superior ....!" as I kissed feelingfully. The flower that I wholeheartedly grow with lush and beautiful.
"You're here, honey. I looked for you upstairs but nothing" he said, sinking his head around my neck. Instantly the sense of happiness was present and I was glad that Mas Eagle had come.
"Maz ....!" I cried when Mas Elang took me to sit in the garden chair.
"Come, I'll accompany you to drink milk. And I drank coffee. Knowing you are here, Mas immediately came and brought biscuits and snacks for you," he said. This little attention instantly made me flower.
I dare not return the gaze of Mas Eagle who has been looking at me since. I don't know what he's thinking.
"Dear, are you dressed up? You deserve to be different, you're getting more beautiful" she said, sipping her coffee. My chest immediately rumbled with her praise. But that doesn't make me feel lulled. From now on, despite being young pregnant, I will try to fight my pampered and crybaby in front of Mas Eagle, because Mas Eagle does not like me who is spoiled.
"Why are you dressing up, is this inside the house?" I immediately frowned at my strange question, was praising now instead of asking. For a few minutes I was silent and did not answer.
"Want to dress up" I replied shortly. The eagle looked at me in wonder, I don't know what astonished him.
"Hey ... Why are you, honey? Down, sad and unhappy?" tanyanya. Why did the Eagle ask, which I did not know the answer to. The change in me lately is unpredictable. It was crybaby and sad, now also sad again just because of the trivial question Mas Eagle. Not really natural?
I don't care about Mas Eagle who is still curious about my attitude. I am busy filling my stomach with the snack that was brought by Mas Elang. Mas Eagle today is handsome, and usually I am always fascinated and withered by his charm. But today I was more fascinated with the cakes and snacks he brought.
"Are you hungry, honey?" again she looked at me curiously. I stopped putting the cake from the jar into my mouth, then immediately finished my milk straw until the toilet.
"Thank you Mas cake, Nada came in first," I tiptoed and stood up, and passed from before my husband who had a few moments ago asked a question that made me wonder and a little embarrassed. Could this be a sign that I am sensitive to the trivial question of Mas Eagle? I don't know, I don't know.
I walked into the kitchen and washed the used glass I was drinking, then intended to go back to the room. But I turned my feet towards my mother's room. At that time, my mother was in therapy.
"Mr .... !" I looked at the mother who seemed to be excited with her therapy today. The mother and the therapist looked at me.
"Tone?" greet mother.
"Mom, I hope you get well soon" I said with a smile. I went back and came out of my mother's room, near the mouth of Mas Elang's door stood there. Maybe I've been following me since.
"Honey .. later we take a walk with Sya." I turned around and smiled.
"Where is Mas?" I am excited and happy.
"As much as you want to go, the important thing is that the three of us can go for a walk in sorew."
"Lake Love, that's good. Tone has never been there," I said while looking at him. Mas Eagle was immediately moody to know what suddenly became his mind. I also do not know what Mas Eagle thought, which obviously I was happy to take an afternoon walk to Lake Love.
