"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

WA of Mas Elanv

Night arrived, the atmosphere was quiet and Dina happened to go angkringan. Bi Nurmi has returned to her home. I reopened my HP which I had accidentally opened for the sake of avoiding Mas Eagle.

When I opened, WA messages popped up alternately. From Sister Marisa, Mas Eagle even from a person I did not expect, mother. Mother who rarely sends WA messages, suddenly her name appears as the sender of the message. I opened it first from Mas Elang, because I think WA from Mom was just about swearing against me.

"Darling... How are you? I always wait for your presence by my side. Your departure brings sadness to my heart, too. Today I am in a disaster. Now it's being handled by the doctor."

I was quite stunned by the WA message from Mas Elang. Got it calamitous? But why didn't Mas Eagle tell him that Sya was doomed? I was devastated when I was not there beside him. I really feel guilty. My tears broke again remembering Sya. "*Sya.. forgive Mother. Mother wrong* *have selfishly left Sya*." And now regrets are.

I read again the message of Mas Elang the other, the content is more or less the same as asking me where and when to go home.

Then the WA message from Mbak Marisa, whose contents are more or less the same as the contents of WA Mas Elang, asked me where I was and when I would go home.

Last time I read WA from my mom it was more or less like this.

"Tone... Where are you? Hurry back, the Eagle is always thinking of you and he's changed for me. Go home, return the Eagle's respect to me."

The contents of the mother's WA message are like an order, barren and ketus, there is no persuasion to take me home or suave to a daughter-in-law. I realized I wasn't his son-in-law. So that whatever I do is still considered bad.

Right now I want to feel like I'm contacting one of them, but I'm confused about how. But one of the things that caught my attention was calling Ms. Marisa. I tried to contact him, but not until I called suddenly the incoming WA message, apparently the WA message from Mbak Marisa.

[Assalamu'alaikum's chat... Tone... whatsabar? Coincidentally WA you're on. When are you back? Go home, I'm waiting for you. After having an accident due to forced transport by Mayang."]

"Mbak Mayang...? Wasn't Ma'am Mayang arrested by the police at the time? Why are you still hanging around?" The questions suddenly loiter in the head.

WA message from Mbak Marisa not immediately I reply, all I have in mind is to be able to catch up with Mas Eagle home and soon meet Sya to give him spirit. As soon as possible I booked my ticket online. Unfortunately, I got my flight hours at 9 a.m.

By morning, I was already preparing with a little bit of my luggage. Aunt Mirna and Om Zainal were astonished to see that I was ready with my backpack.

"Tone wants to go home Auntie after Mas Eagle. But... Nada please do not tell Mas Eagle that Nada will go home, let this be a surprise for Mas Eagle," said I ended a plea. Aunt Mirna looked at me deeply, looking for a solemnity.

"But you're alone, and the Eagle tells you that if you're going home you have to tell him."

"No need Auntie, let this be a surprise for Mas Eagle. So, Nada hope Aunty or Om do not tell Mas Eagle, Nada please!" i beg. Aunt Mirna and Om Zainal finally succumbed to my plea.

"Well, if that's your decision. How good it is to have breakfast first!" Take breakfast I did not waste, besides my departure time is still long. We also had breakfast together while occasionally interspersed with jokes.

"Pretty tones first yan Aunty, Om. Thank you very much for everything" I said while hugging Aunt Mirna. This is indeed a heartwarming moment for me that has always troubled Aunt Mirna's family.

"Let's take you to the airport...."

"No need, Nada has ordered grab really," as I prepared and without having to wait long, the grab I ordered came.

I immediately say goodbye to Aunt Mirna and Om Zainal because the grab to the airport has arrived.

"Be careful Nad, Aunt and all here especially the children will surely miss you a lot" said Aunt Mirna as she hugged me tightly and sobbed.mm

I left with the silent eyes of the two old men who had been doing good during my time here.

"Thank you Om, Auntie, Assalamualaikum!" Grabpun took me to Adisutjipto airport, Yogyakarta.