"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Bickering

After finishing cleaning the wound on my temple, Bi Narti excuse me to leave the room. Then the Eagle approached. His steps are getting closer. I closed my eyes and did not want to open my eyes and meet the man. My anger at him has now reappeared. And the heartache caused by the mother is getting worse.

Mas Elang sat on the edge of the bed while rubbing my shoulders.

"I'm sorry for what happened today, all out of my plan. I didn't know Mama would talk like that." His words of apology seemed to be useless, my heart was already sick. Sick by the words of the mother is also heartbroken at the attitude of Mas Eagle who pretentious and want to reconcile when my heart is not yet relieved. And the proof is what, the mother who was considered to have changed and willing to accept me well, but behind us still harbored hatred and did not sincerely accept me.

I was still silent and reluctant to reply Mas Eagle who seemed to be persuading me.

"Wake up, let's have dinner first. If you still have a headache let Mas suck," he persuaded as he grabbed my shoulder lying behind him. I did not say, now my tears are falling. It is reflected back in the words of the mother in front of Bi Inah who talked about me as a "bed woman".

It does not feel appropriate for a mother-in-law to talk about the affairs of her daughter-in-law's bed to others, especially this on Bi Inah ART at the mother's house. It was as if our actions were a disgrace.

My shoulders shook slightly with the cry I was holding, and Mas Eagle noticed it. He tried to bring my body into his arms, but I held him back.

"Have dong baby, I've apologized to you for your treatment Mama. And I also don't like Mama scolding you in front of other people."

I clapped the hand of Mas Eagle who tried to pull my shoulder into his embrace, I got up and sat on the bed. My dewy gaze held back the tearful groove that was ready to descend.

"Go Mas, let Nada alone! Nada no longer needs a word of apology from Mas Eagle for the treatment of mother. Let Nada forever hurt because of mother's actions," I said in tears.

"I'm sorry, I told you I'm sorry. I don't know that Mama still hasn't sincerely accepted you and still doesn't like you. I was just trying, and I didn't think it would be like this."

"I know I'm wrong and I can't make Mama change and stop flouting you. But please forget about your attitude. Now there's me and you. I apologize to you and you are my wife who should understand me better as your husband. Here too I'm going awry, my mother is still my mother, and you're my wife. I can't choose one of them. Both are important to me, and I don't want to say rude to Mama even if Mama's wrong. Let this be a lesson for Mama, I better let Mama think with all her mistakes than to say rude," said Mas Elang at length and all his explanations really hurt my heart. She really didn't feel me, all she thought about was her service to mom by ignoring my feelings.

"Nada understands everything Mas Elang says. Being devoted to mother, Mas ignored Nada's feelings. How many times have you done that. Repeatedly Mas! And Mas Eagle time and time again forgave the mother on filial grounds and let the feeling of Nada crumble by humiliating the mother in front of his friends, and now in front of Bi Inah. Is Mas Eagle still willing to close his eyes and forget? Ohhhh. or Mas Eagle is happy if Nada is humiliated in front of people and reviled by mother. For the sake of filial piety, letting your mouth speak dirty words about your daughter-in-law in front of others." I paused my speech for a moment to catch my breath going up because of the overflowing emotions.

"If this continues, and there is no firmness of the Eagle to the attitude of the mother, then... Tone make sure Nada is tired Mas living a household with a man who is not assertive like this. Every time the mother scoffs, Mas Eagle never really makes the mother regret her actions. Nada did not want Mas Eagle to disobey the mother, but at least feel the feeling of Nada. The tone during this time was only told to understand and understand the treatment of the mother, but Mas Eagle did not make any effort to make the mother regret her actions," I said with a trembling tone.

Satisfied I have spilled all the junk that was in my chest all this time. The attitude of Mas Eagle who did not want to be firm about the treatment of his mother who always scorned me in front of his friends, made me tired of heart. Yes, Mas Eagle is good and considerate. However, she never once understood my feelings being hurt by my mother's attitude.

"So... all this time you're tired of living in the same household as me? And what's on this HP screen, that means right, you're tired of living with me?" said Mas Eagle while reaching for my HP and showing a sentence on my HP screen. I don't know the small note why it can be read by Mas Eagle, even though I just opened the main menu HP rarely see the small note on HP it. And since when did Mas Eagle tamper with my HP?

"Yes Mas, Nada is tired of living with a husband like Mas Eagle. Tone was tired with Mas Eagle's indecisive attitude, and Nada was tired with the mother's attitude. Nada wants to give up, Mas. For a year Nada endured the pain of mother rejection and mother scorn. But, Nada still let. But repeatedly the mother did that, so that the pain in the heart of Nada gets bigger. And at this time the heartache was more and more unstoppable, because of the attitude of Mas Eagle who did not care at all about the feeling of Nada," I said with sobs.

I don't know where I can express my heart this time. I saw Mas Eagle squeezing his fingers, a glint of anger visible on his handsome face.

"That's why....!" Suddenly Mas Eagle threw an object on my dresser in anger. My phone that was stored again on it crashed. I gaped in disbelief, fear now starting to ambush me. I tried to get out of bed and stand up.

"Ending tired of taking care of Sya, my son?" point it right in my face.

"No... Nada is never tired of taking care of or taking care of Sya. Nada loves Sya," I said honestly. Indeed I did not feel tired in taking care of Sya all this time, after all Sya never troublesome me. He was so obedient and obedient.

"You are also tired of taking care of Sya, you pretend to love Sya!" the cry of the Eagle against me made me slightly move my body.