"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Candle Light Dinner

"Eagle's Mask?" whispered in my heart.

"Yes, it's me, honey. Your husband!" replied Mas Eagle as if hearing the whisper of my heart. I stared intently at the man in the hat, making sure that the man in front of me really was Mas Eagle. Slowly the man opened his hat, like a top model is getting endorse a branded hat.

The hat began to reveal, that second my entire body soul seemed to vibrate. My heart beats faster, my breath hunts, and my legs seem limp. My gaze with the man who apparently really Mas Eagle met, stuck right in the cornea of each eye. My mouth reacted, slightly gaping with disbelief.

What am I supposed to do? Running away and away? My feet are locked, weak and not powered.

"Mas Eagle.... !" My heart whispered again. There was a sudden longing for her, it felt like that moment also wanted me to hug her tightly and be spoiled. But now there is a gap between us. Maybe only myself felt the gap, so even though I missed it but the disappointment still enveloped the body.

"Darling... sit down....!" he said gently grabbing me while sitting my body down. Our position is very close.

Those words of affection were exactly the same as when Mas Eagle tried to seduce me and dampen my sulking. So soft that I was often rendered helpless. But now I doubt everything. It's possible that Mas Eagle did it just to get me back and home.

I sat down with a lowered gaze and did not dare to stare anymore at Mas Sakti.

"Gear at me, honey. Why are you looking down? I'm your husband, don't you miss me?" ask her with a look that looks blasphemous. I still didn't dare to look up.

The annoyance suddenly rippled in the chest, annoyed but longing, longing but also angry prestige. How do you describe the feeling of my heart? I clearly felt unable to look at him.

"Why don't you dare to stare, Mom? Look, Mas! I miss your eyes!" while grabbing my chin, I tried to pull over by turning my head to the side.

"We're home, you've been missing Mas for too long. We miss our time. They want to always be near you. She misses you too, she always asks where you are."

Hah? If you remember that kid, I miss him a lot too. Honestly, the bond between us is so strong that we have no blood ties. I love Sya and always miss everything that is on her especially her anxious behavior.

I flinch, letting Mas Eagle beg for love from me. Let it go, I'll see where the fight is. Mas Eagle now began to squeeze my finger which I placed on the table angkringan. A desireful longing.

"Honey, go home yes.we knit the day together again, planting three or even four, asa," while feeling the belly of my queen who was then unable to dodge. It seems like Mas Eagle is expecting a descendant from my womb.

"We are building a better relationship than ever before. I promise to take care of you more and appreciate your feelings" he promised.

Sounds earnest and reassuring, but I'm still not sure. I took a deep breath and slightly raised my head.

"Why, is it coming?" The silly question was thrown away, did not Mas Eagle have revealed the purpose of his arrival here.

"I want to take you home, bring things that always make me comfortable, bring things that always make me not shy. And it's you, you who always change my life, more colorful and cheerful" he said. I breathe out again and again. The expression from his lips I could have received as a form of a dreadful seduction, but there was a solemn tremor behind his voice.

"We went back to the hotel, happened to be Mas staying at the hotel. It's night, the night wind is not good for you. I've talked to your aunt and Om, that you're allowed to come with Mas tonight." I gasped when I heard Om and Aunt let me go with Mas Eagle. Since when did Mas Eagle meet Om Zainal and Aunt Mirna? Or... That lighter???

This is clear, my curiosity about the lighter that is similar to Mas Eagle on the table living room of the house of Aunt Mirna, could be Mas Eagle. Awake already! And apparently Mas Eagle had been to Aunt Mirna's house when I was not there. And Mas Eagle can come to Jogja, most likely information from Kak Bintang who had seen me at that time in Klewer market.

"Come on... Mas already allowed the same Om and your Aunt," he asked while sipping wedang ronde that I had served. "Drink first the wedang rondenya, let your body feel warm," he persuaded. I followed his second show which was to drink the wedang round that I served earlier on this table.

My body immediately felt warm, melted with a warm feeling in my heart that suddenly appeared when I saw Mas Eagle sipping his wedang ronde. At first glance I see, Mas Eagle's face is a little thin. Seen from his increasingly firm jaw. Did this departure make Mas Eagle think hard?

The Eagle had already pulled my body up, but I held it back. "Mas, where are you going?"

"Honey..we go to Aunt Mirna and Dina, we say goodbye first."

"Auntie... Eagle bring the nada first!" his permission while smiling kindly.

"Bring it up to you. But be careful on the road, El....!" remember Aunt Mirna without caring about me who wants to protest.

Dina who saw waving her hand towards me as if she agreed I was taken by Mas Eagle.

"Mas..do not force kayak gini dong. If this is the same as forcing your will against Nada," I protested.

None of them responded to my protest, Aunt Mirna, Dina just as well as supporting Mas Elang's decision. With a forced step, I followed where Mas Eagle was going.

Arriving at a 3-star hotel, Mas Eagle turned his body and entered the hotel courtyard. Entering the reception room, he sat down for a moment with the hotel clerk, then again pulled my hand gently, perhaps towards the hotel room where he was staying.

Arriving at a hotel door, Mas Elang stopped and opened the door with a card. The hotel room door opened with a click. Mas Eagle led my body in and then the door closed automatically along with the sound of another click.

This is where the two of us, a sudden sense of awkwardness ambushed in the chest. Mas Eagle my husband, but the awkward feeling I felt as if I met Mas Eagle for the first time. The vibration of the taste that was turbulent doubled, no matter what the name I felt. What is clear is that I just want to hide myself anywhere as long as it is not discovered by Mas Eagle.

The romantic atmosphere was felt as we entered the hotel room. Like a surprise, the room was adorned with flowers. What's this for? My form of welcome? Too much, it's like the wedding night alone, which we went through a year ago.

"Come on. clean yourself up first!" I was stunned by Mas Eagle's remark, I became confused to clean myself there should be a change of clothes. I was just a shirt that was on my body.

"Why?"

"Nada doesn't bring a change of clothes, Mas," I said. Mas Eagle smiled then he went to the closet in the hotel room and took something. A batik patterned buddy bag was grabbed from there and given to me. Without refusing I accepted the buddy bag.

"Clean yourself first, or do you both want to?" the candle is accompanied by laughter. Obviously I was amused by Mas Elang's joke, I know where the conversation is going. I immediately entered the bathroom that had been smelled by the scented room, to avoid the action of Mas Eagle more extreme outside it. The smell of the room was very relaxing.

After the shower, I opened the buddy bag given by Mas Eagle. A knee-length batik dress with straps on the left and right sides. This is more like a twisted towel that has a rope, if it is opened only once a pull. What the fuck is Mas Eagle, telling a simple dress like this, even too simple.

"Darling..get out quickly when you have!" his sweat. The words of affection that Mas Eagle said just now seemed to shake my entire body, making me stupefied and completely lulled. Tonight it's different just because I heard Mas Eagle calling baby, I felt like the first night.

"Sayangg!!!" the thrill roused me from my delusion to the first night. I immediately came out with a dress shirt given by Mas Eagle. Mas Eagle glanced at me and then immediately went into the bathroom.

I don't know what other surprises Mas Elang made, at a small table already presented candle light dinner.

Mas Elang came out of the bathroom in batik pajamas in line with the one I was wearing. I pretended to stare at the vanity mirror and rubbed my face with the facial cleanser the hotel provided.

Without me noticing Mas Eagle was already embracing me from behind, grabbing my waist and lifting my body, leading me towards the candle light dinner table. The Eagle sat me down very carefully and soulfully. The night is very romantic. I was like a shy princess who was being treated the best I could.

"Darling.it's our umpteenth dinner, but it's different. There's only the two of us here, there's usually a Shah. I really look forward to this moment, dinner together and romantic together," said Mas Elang while playing a romantic music from his HP accompanying our candle light dinner. I seemed to be lulled into the atmosphere, I looked at Mas Eagle full of haru. Apparently my happiness is still in this mighty man before me. Just treated sweetly like this I was immediately moved and lulled, especially if Mas Eagle always understood my feelings.

"Honey.. eat first, after this we will adventure to a very beautiful paradise. That only you and I are in it." Poetic words came out of Mas Eagle's mouth before we started dinner.

Our candle light dinner ended, followed by another action Mas Eagle who stood and headed to the back of the chair I was sitting in. Unexpectedly Mas Eagle draped a necklace to my neck, full of feelings with a naughty touch on the neck of my fingers made me nervous.

"Mas, what is this?" I gasped in surprise by spontaneously holding the necklace that was perfectly installed. The eagle brought me to my feet and turned my body face to face. We stared at each other, the tremors in my chest getting weird. There was a great desire that suddenly stirred, especially when Mas Eagle grabbed my face and fused our eyebrows together.

We held each other with my hands on her neck and the hands of Mas Eagle on my waist. We both danced to the music set by HP Mas Elang.