"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Meet Nada

POV 1 (Tone)

"Nad... How is the dizziness already lightening?" Aunt Mirna asked, her face looked worried.

"That's gone Tan, it's delicious. Last night Bi Nurmi made a warm ginger tea, and this morning Nada also made more. Thank God it's better now."

"You have a headache, why Nad? How often it feels, since here Aunt sees you have complained 3 times and you say accompanied by nausea. Are you not pregnant?"

For a moment I felt shocked by Aunt Mirna's words, am I really pregnant? I had to think hard, where maybe I was pregnant, two days ago I just came to the moon, but the moon came just a little not as usual.

"No way Nada pregnant Aunt, because two days ago Nada will come the moon. When Aunt reminded me of prayer at that time, apparently Nada hitch," I denied.

"Yes, yeah. But... Aunty becomes worried about your condition if the headache continues. You check there first to the clinic, who knows low blood, usually low blood can have a headache," said Aunt Mirna. I looked for a moment and said.

"No need Auntie, at most this is a common headache. It will also heal itself" I said to calm the worried Aunt Mirna.

"Have it then, it's up to you Nad, now if you're not busy, please head to the front market for a bit. Accompany Bi Nurmi shopping, you guys buy gudeg. You said yesterday you wanted to eat gudeg which is going viral in this city. Sana, Bi Nurmi is getting ready!" point Aunt Mirna towards Bi Nurmi who is ready in front of the house. I immediately went and approached Bi Nurmi who was going to the market.

"Pretty tones yes, Auntie!" my pamit as it passed by hooking my hand to Bi Nurmi's arm, exactly mother and son.

During my trip with Bi Nurmi, I kept quiet more. The market distance to the house is quite close only about 500 meters, so if you go to this market it is good to walk.

Suddenly I thought of my accidental encounter with Kak Bintang at Klewer Market yesterday. I was a little worried, my whereabouts reached the ears of Mas Eagle. Because if Mas Eagle follows here, I'm not ready to go home. Although several times, Aunt Mirna persuaded me to go home.

I came home from the market and headed straight for the kitchen. It was impatient to want to immediately eat the gudeg that was again viral, to the point that Bi Nurmi was shocked to see me who hastily took the plate for the gudeg container. I ate it with great pleasure not forgetting to offer Bi Nurmi. After eating I intend to go to the front porch looking for the wind.

But as I passed through the living room and turned to the table, I saw a small object that came out of the fire if played by the thumb. That's a lighters. And the lighters reminded me of Mas Eagle. Mas Eagle always uses a lighter with a skull picture if he is lighting his cigarette. It is not often, Mas Eagle smokes if he is mumbling or has a problem that he thinks is complicated.

Must be Om Zainal's lighters. Thought sure. For there are no more adult men than Om Zainal. If Adi, it is impossible, because Adi is still Junior High and Om Zainal strictly forbids Adi to smoke because he is not old enough.

I passed from the living room, the usual days of the state of the deserted house. Om Zainal and Aunt Mirna are definitely sorting out groceries that will be sold later in the afternoon in the backyard. Adi and Dina morning until noon school, return home at two and three in the afternoon. So morning until noon at the house of Om Zainal and Aunt Mirna certainly deserted. I walked towards the back room, but when I was in the back room Om Zainal and Aunt Mirna were not there. I had to go back to the front porch to feel the wind that afternoon.

"Nad, you should not go to Angkringan this afternoon. Wait for Dina. There was a group assignment with his friend, so he did the group task first. The Maghrib's home. If you want to go to Angkringan, same Dinah only. He always wants you to go. Mungpung you're here, Nad. If you go home, there will be no spoiled anymore" said Aunt Mirna.

"Yes Aunt. Tone Ok, OK," said I while giving code Ok 👌in the air on Aunt Mirna.

After Maghrib, Dinapun go home. The situation became warm again, earlier after Om Zainal and Aunt Mirna went to angkringan the atmosphere of the house became quiet.

"Assalamu'alaikum's chat.... Brother Nada....!"

"Italiana....!" I immediately replied and approached Dina.

"Din, we will finish Isya to angkringan yuk!" take me. Dina who was undressing her uniform immediately replied and agreed.

"Yes, Brother. By the way the husband of a good brother is not Kak?" Suddenly Dina asked about Mas Eagle.

"It's just the brother. Dina will also want to marry if it is big. But afraid of having a fierce husband and likes to hit," said Dina. I smiled discordantly listening to Dina who was thinking of getting married, even though she was still in school and was only in second grade High School.

"Don't think about marriage first, you're still Din's school. Still a long way to know!" my perspiration.

"That's it... Sis Nada misunderstood, who wants to marry now? Dina is just the husband of the sister is good, if not means Dina must find a husband who is the same age or at least the age of leaning," said Dina plain while preparing to go to the bathroom.

I laughed before I told Dina. "Hahaha....!" Dina looked in wonder at me.

"Dina... Dina.. good or not a husband is not judged from the age of maturity or leaning. Sometimes there are good adults, sometimes not. Have to think bojo, fill enom!" I said while grinning the horse. Sometimes Dina's mind is thinking about the future. He was still in school.

"Yuk, Brother!" take him while you hook my arm. We also walk side by side to the Aunty Mirna angkringan shop which is only a few meters away from home.

Arriving in Angkringan, customers are very crowded. The waiters were busy delivering the food to the customer's desk. Dina and I took the initiative to take orders to the customer desk. Aunty Mirna actually forbids, but I don't care about Aunt Mirna's ban. Dina and I were excited among the other servants who were also delivering orders.

The clock is crawling at night, while the customers are still coming. I'm still excited to deliver orders to customers. Because said Aunt Mirna if it's 10 o'clock there the customer began to decrease.

10 Hours over 10 minutes the customer began to subside and not as crowded as before. I was a little relieved and could rest for a while.

"Sone....!" Suddenly Aunt Mirna called me. I immediately replied and approached Aunt Mirna. Aunt Mirna immediately gave instructions.

"Please deliver this order to the very end table, yes!" aunt Mirna's Titah. I gladly accepted that word.

"Well, Auntie!"

I immediately stepped carefully while carrying the tray, towards the very end of the table shown by Aunt Mirna. There was only one man, while the drink order was two glasses. I'm a little surprised, but I don't care because it's none of my business.

The man was dressed casually, wearing a leather jacket and a hat that was rolled down, so that his face was not clearly visible. I quickly placed the order of the man.

"Please, enjoy!" I said kindly, standing up and leaving. But not until I set foot, a burly hand held my arm and blocked it firmly. I flinched and was suddenly very upset with the man who was so brashly holding me.

I turned around and tried to let go of the heavy hand.

"Don't be rude!" my hardened emotions while trying to shake the man's hand. But the man was even stronger and holding me back. Wanting to scream was shameful.

"Let go... You who? Sassy to hold people's hands, impolite. Release!" sentakku annoyed.

"Sit down!" he said with a heavy voice or even deliberately weighted so that his voice could not be recognized by anyone, such as in the mafia films. Forced to follow his will, I investigated if the foreign man in front of me was off guard then I would run and ask for help.

"Don't think of leaving....!" That annoying heavy voice sounded again with a commanding tone.

"What does this guy want? And what's his business if I leave?" I was angry in my heart.

When the man let his guard down, this is my chance to escape from him. I got up and stood up. Yet....

"Tone... Come back and sit down!" My footsteps were restrained like a mannequin doll, standing stiff and stunned. I seem to know that voice. The voice of someone I really miss.

I allowed my body position and stood perfectly facing the man. Is he really the Eagle, the man who is always in my heart?