It's Not You I Want

meeting with rafa

nothing happened last night, they just slept hugging each other all night, zidan more precisely, the man was completely reluctant to take off Zaskia's stuff for a moment, even occasionally Zidan opened his eyes just to make sure Zaskia was still sleeping in his arms.

now it is still the same, Zidan first woke up and continued to look at the wife's shady face, the face that he so longed for, his outstretched hand rubbed the face

"honey, wake up pray dawn yuk"

it didn't take long, Zaskia bellowed at the hoarse voice of zidan

"what time is zi"

"at 4 am, wake up yuk we are ready to pray for congregation, have long not prayed at imam min I "Zaskia Nodded, while he raised his hands hugging the waist of zidan, he hugged the waist, the man smiled at the wife's behavior

"honey, come on, let's take a shower first"

"iyaa zii"

...

"so this 5 years you're in Jakarta Ki ?"

Zaskia Nodded with her hands raised, scooping the milk pudding she had made, and zidan rubbed his face, wherever he searched, but Zaskia was nearby, but she never found any trace of the woman

"Oh my God, you're all around me and I can't find you Ki" sounded so frustrated the man said

"how did you pass it all by yourself?"

"em .. yes it is"

"that's how, you go with a deadly disease".

"i work in one of the restaurants, help wash the dishes there, I have no choice but to earn money, no company will accept me without a visa, I work nights, endure headaches, I guess my day is filled with fear of death, but in fact I'm still given a chance to survive until now"

Zaskia looked down deeply, recalling the 5 toughest years she had to live alone, zidan grabbed the wife's cold fingers to hold, Zaskia's palms he kissed alternately

"that's enough trouble you have to face, I promise, I won't let you fathom the same thing again, I'll be happy with you and our son, I promise" zidan rubbed the corner of the wife's eyes that began to water

"zidaan" Zaskia approached hugging her husband tightly

"make me because of me you have to go through all of her own"

"ga papa ko zi, I've been used to living alone, all also somewhat rich gini, if there is no rafa"

"Rafa ?" Zidan let go of Zaskia's embrace, his head remembering who the man was

"my boss is Rafa, he's the one who has let me zi, he's the good guy, I'm so confused how to pay his kindness to me zii" zidan turned his eyes to the right to the left remembering who the man his wife was talking about was, only then he was remembered with someone who came with a small child to see his wife while in Bandung

"so you've been with her this whole time Ki"

"yes, he who makes me confident to recover, he is also the one who has financed everything, I have to work to be able to pay off everything, Rafa does not ask me to pay, Rafa does not ask me to pay, I just don't feel good about him, who helped me"

"i can be jealous of him"

" he's jealous?"

"Rafa is there when you're in trouble, he's someone else, but I just don't have what you need, what kind of husband I am, not good" Zaskia who understands the feeling of zidan reaching for Zidan's burly hand, Zidan's, he rubbed the backs of those big hands, their eyes met, Zaskia smiled.

"Never compare yourself to others zii, you are everything to me, while he helps me because of humanity, even then I still consider it a debt, which I have to pay"

"but ki-"

"huus, don't talk about it anymore"

"Kii, the little boy who mentioned you at the time was a mother, what was Rafa's son"

"iyaa, that's Rafa's son"

"why did he call you mother"

"the boy lost his mother as a child, and I happened to work as a secretary there, and rafa kept bringing her son, until I finally got the same boy close, by carrying him, by her, I felt again carrying our child, my azizah, my beloved, the innocent little baby that I had left and kept filling my head five years ago, with the presence of little Aska, can slightly treat my longing with her"

"i'd like to see Rafa, please "

"why zii, I don't want you to look for trouble with her "really scared Zaskia, her husband is messing with his boss, Zaskia can see the dislike of zidan to Rafa, when he first met

"i'd like to see your boss tomorrow" Zidan got up from his seat, smiling ignorantly at the wife's fear

"zidaan, don't ya" whined Zaskia, following her husband

...

"where are we going?"

"meet His friend's mother"

"mother's friend?" Azizah tilted her face, though,

"iyaa, mom's friend, don't you love?" Zidan raised an eyebrow, looking at Zaskia who was sitting while holding up the azizah

"yes" Zaskia answered briefly

....

"zii, we're going home" Zaskia still tries to plead with zidan, but zidan is indifferent and goes first. They're already at the agreed-upon restaurant

"zidaaan"

no Rafa has been sitting in one of the seats there, not Rafa who is late, but those who are speed, it is on purpose.

"what do you want messan, baby" zidan was busy opening the menu book without knowing Zaskia who had been staring at him with a pleading gaze

"honey, Zaskia, from now on, right asked why silent"

"zii, don't ya, we'll go home, I don't want any ziii noise"

"you're why Ki, I'm not going to eat your boss too ko, you calm down"

"but, zii"

"already ah, what do you want to order, azizah want fried rice squid"

"yes, yeah"

...

Waiting for about 15 minutes after they finished the food presented, Rafa came alone, zidan waved his hand, the husband and wife stood up to welcome Rafa, zidan reached out his hand first, he said, rafa was greeted well, while Zaskia just smiled clumsyly

"order first .. I call what's good"

"call Rafa"

"order raf first"

"i ordered a drink before I came here to eat at the office"

....

"sorry, Raf, it's been disturbing your busy time, I asked my wife, to contact you" Zidan turned his head to look at Zaskia who was just sitting down, feeling uncomfortable

"no papa and relax"

"i just want to say thank you very much, because it has nolongin my wife, keep him for five years" in the raupnya oxygen, before doing his speech

"the last five years, the toughest five years for our family, there are problems we can't tell you about, but I'm so grateful for your presence in my wife's life, you helped my wife when I could do nothing for her

Zaskia turned her head to look at her husband, Zaskia could feel the vibrations from her words zidan, under the table, Zaskia Nodded her fingers with zidan fingers, zidan realized Zaskia's consciousness, their gaze met, Zaskia Nodded gave a smile, Zaskia Nodded gave a smile, while the man in front of him could only clench his hands, instead of being angry at the interaction of the two, it was just painful.

"no papa and, just relax bro, we fellow creatures indeed have to help each other, Zaskia has also helped my family a lot"

"all the costs that you have incurred in the treatment of Zaskia, I will pay off raf"

"for God's sake, I don't want you to talk rich that way, I'm sincere, sincere from the bottom of my heart, helping Zaskia, Zaskia Good woman, she deserves healing, what I give, ' she said , all entrances from God to Zaskia, I am only mediator, see

Zaskia can get together again with her family like now, I think that's enough for me"

" but raf, I'm not en--"

"already, Do not feel bad, we are just believers, it is appropriate to help each other "

"what should I do to repay your kindness, with my family "

"just take care of Zaskia, unfortunately she, Zaskia the good woman, make her the only one for you, Don't hurt her, If you feel you can't do everything, tell me, tell me, I will do everything "Silent for a moment, after Rafa spoke loudly in front of the two, Zaskia can feel, now her fingers are held so tightly by the husband, Zaskia can feel, zidan nodded in agreement to Rafa's words

"god willing, I will take care of Zaskia, I will not hurt her feelings again, I promise"

"i will hold your word" said Rafa with a smile so sincere