It's Not You I Want

remorse

..."Come home I miss you my wife"...

...Daffa Saputra...

Counting almost a month of zila's departure, it felt short indeed__ but not for Daffa, the man went through a hard day without his wife.

daffa, who was used to the presence of zila by his side, felt lost after his departure,

Daffa who always came to disturb the zila if the woman was cooking, now their kitchen is quiet no one ever turned on the stove there, Daffa prefers to order fast food, but the, and it is not uncommon for Daffa not to eat his food, because the taste is not in accordance with his wishes, Daffa's sturdy body looks thinner

His career was declining, his job was neglected, there was no more great Daffa in the operating room, Daffa was transferred to a small hospital, because of one problem__Daffa often asked permission for different reasons Bede when he was permission to look for the existence of the wife, daffa not only search in Jakarta alone, sometimes daffa also out of town, but also in Jakarta, the peak 2 days ago Daffa to Korea, he hoped to find zila there but he instead got a blow from Zidan, he said,

Zila family shock is not playing, Daffa far away to Korea looking for zila, but zila is not there, as a result Daffa get a punch repeatedly from Zidan

"Where else should I find you Zil, where, I miss Zil"

"in a moment you will be born, I want to be there for you Zil, I beg you to go home Zil, go home"

Daffa hugged the frame of Zila's Poto, where in the photo the zila smiled very sweetly.

In his rubbing of zila's face using his thumb, without Daffa's permission, a single tear that signified how fragile he now fell again somehow to the number of times.

"Sorry mas Zil, sorry , mas kangen Zil , you are not tired of seeing mas kaya gini, mas kicked from the hospital because the mas is too much permission, mas sick Zil , mas nahan's pain misses you, I beg Zil to come home"

Daffa more often spend time in the room of the wife, the smell of the body of the wife who smelled from the room a little able to make her calm.

Daffa put the zila picture frame again in its place, since __the door was on tap but he did not mind, Until the mother called and it turned out that the guest who had been waiting at the door was his mother

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Daffa wanted to grab the mother's hand but quickly the Goddess brushed off Daffa's hand

"what have you done to zila son, what" Goddess was unable to stem her tears, the disappointment towards the child was huge, she said, until now Dewi and her husband did not know the cause of the departure of his daughter-in-law.

"mamah sit first well, mamah sama papah must be tired right"

"MAMA DON'T WANT TO SIT, MAMAH WANTS MAMAH'S SON-IN-LAW TO COME HOME FROM DAF"

Doni Swiping the wife's back.

"sorry Daffa, this is all because Daffa, the wife of Daffa is a good woman, sincere, understanding, while Daffa_, only a bad man always hurts his feelings, he said, for two years We married Daffa never treated the zila well, only the clasping of the Daffa zila right, no kind words that Daffa gave to the zila, no, zila pregnancy was started from Daffa compulsion, Daffa was forced to hire his own wife Daffa for the sake of mamah who always asked for grandchildren from Daffa, finally zila pregnant, and Daffa couldn't accept the zila of being Daffa's wife, the zila fought alone in her young pregnancy, until she gave up and left Daffa, a month of zila going , Daffa really felt the loss of zila in Daffa's life, but eventually Zila returned and Daffa tried to become the husband that was supposed to make zila, but eventually Zila returned, Daffa regretted with all the bad attitude Daffa _ but again Daffa incised a wound in his heart and Daffa's wife chose to go for the umpteenth time, Daffa regret mah, reward, Daffa wanted Daffa's wife back, Daffa wanted Daffa's wife back, please Daffa.

Daffa rested at the feet of the mother, while the mother silently stared, what was right in front of her is this__his son who he taught became a loving man, he said, what is true__ this Daffa who always loved him , why would Daffa treat his wife so badly like that, where Daffa he was proud of, Dewi and Doni really do not believe in all the Daffa stories, but the departure of his son-in-law is enough to prove how bad Daffa was to his son-in-law

"Don't call me mother before you return my daughter-in-law" Dewi brushed Daffa's hand off her leg, waltzing away from her son's residence in disappointment

Daffa could only bow to the floor with a puddle of regretful tears

"sorry Zil, please go home Zil, go home"

Daffa was still sitting limp in front of the open door, Daffa saw the woman's feet standing right in front of him, either because so longed for the wife Daffa had thought the woman was zila

"Zila" Daffa raised his face, but it turned out that he was wrong, not the zila in front of him, but Hana, who was standing with her hands folded in front of her chest

"Hana" said Daffa lirih

"It's so hard Lo daf, at first I came to tell Lo where zila is, because I believe what happened was just a misunderstanding, but what__ that I just heard was very outrageous, very outrageous, Lo nyakitin feelings of women who write love Lo daf, zila even never once complained about the household that turned out to be this chaotic, zila always looks strong every time they meet, Zila always looks strong, not a single sentence came out of his mouth about Lo's poor rich man"

"Please tell me where zila is, I beg Han" Daffa still sat down before Hana, begging to be told where the wife is

"Sorry, I don't want my friend Lo sickin again, I understand now it turns out Lo can not be separated from the past Lo , I will support zila to separate from Lo, survive daf, I'll be able to, one more month zila will be born, and he has told Lo, if he will take care of your divorce papers"

Daffa shook with tears

"no, I don't want to divorce Han, I love the same zila, I love the same zila, I'm sorry Han, I beg you help me, I miss the same zila, I want to hug him Han, I want to hug him Han, toloong"

"Now Lo just feel lost, where have you been all this time huh, where,gue kira zila happy during being Lo's wife, Lo, I guess Zila lives with happiness because she managed to marry the man she loved since High School" Hana smiled for a moment before continuing her speech

"but it turns out I was wrong, Lo calm aja__ zila there with his parents, there is also Zidan, so Lo do not need to worry, he said, and just wait until your divorce papers get to Lo's doorstep"

Hana flipped her body, waltzing away leaving Daffa

Daffa tried to stand up, but nil, his weak body made him fall back on the floor

"Hana, I beg you to tell me where zila is, I beg Han" said Daffa quietly, but it can still be heard clearly by Hana

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