It's Not You I Want

Surrender

"Bun__gimana zila "Vividly visible worry on the face of Daffa.

after seeing the blood flowing out of the zila clothes, Daffa panicked not to play as well as the zila, quickly Daffa raised the small body of the zila and called his in-laws, they brought the zila to the nearest hospital

"Thank God son, zila is good and so is your baby candidate"

"Alhamdulillah" Daffa thanked many times

"Doctor__zila said too many thoughts son"

Daffa remembered the zila remark if his wife came back to Bandung to calm down, but she came and messed things up

Daffa increasingly blames himself with the condition of zila, Every day they fight there are things that they make a fuss.

Daffa went into the zila ward, Daffa sat beside the right of the zila, holding tightly the zila hand in his grasp, one hand pointing towards the black Khimar-covered zila head.

"I'm sorry Zil, I was wrong, I'm selfish"

"I'm sorry, I can't understand how you are Zil"

"Don't be like this anymore, I don't like seeing you like this"

"you're so ugly you know, if you're sick rich gini"

Daffa kisses the zila palm, Daffa also rubs the zila distended belly gently

"sadly healthy continue yes son, don't be naughty in there"

"don't make papah equally worried"

....

Zila blinked her eyes, adjusting the hospital lights that were not the same as her room lights

zila saw Daffa who fell asleep with a sitting position on his right side, his outstretched zila hand rubbed Daffa's black mane.

The touch of zila in his head made Daffa feel at ease, Daffa did not sleep, Daffa enjoyed the touch of zila in his head.

Daffa held his faithful zila fingers over his head, Daffa raised his head and looked at the pale face of the zila, but Zila quickly turned her gaze in the other direction.

"Something is sick"

zila shook her head

"You eat"

again, it is only the trunks that Daffa can get

"whichever mother"

"So I asked them to come home, they were soaked"

"You go home, I can do it myself"

"What do you want to eat, let me buy it"

zila nodded back

"I want to be alone"

"Zil" softly__very softly Daffa's voice begged that zila ask for something else, other than to ask her to leave

"Well, if that calms you down, what do you need to call me, I'm outside"

Zila looked at Nanar Daffa's Back, a sigh clearly heard from the zila

outside__Daffa sat in the front waiting chair of the zila room, the man looked messy, the clothes were still the same as the one he was wearing before while carrying the zila to the hospital, he said, even on his shirt there was a blood stain belonging to zila, eyes sayu__ because all night did not sleep and just continued to sit next to zila.

daffa should have returned to Jakarta today but seeing his wife's circumstances Daffa undoes his intention that work problems can be taken care of later

time passed by Daffa saw several nurses in and out of his wife's room just to make sure the zila infusion was smooth, also check the condition of the zila.

it was eager for the man to enter but zila obviously did not want his presence.

just at 10 am the two zila parents returned to the hospital, They saw Daffa sleeping in a waiting chair

"Nak__Daffa, wake up"

because of the uncomfortable sleeping position Daffa directly awake from his sleep, but Daffa is the type of person who is very difficult in the building right

"Mother"

"yes, why are you here son"

"so again the wind nyari Bun, eh overslept" Daffa lied for a small matter as well , it is impossible Daffa honest if zila evicted him

"same mother siyapa"

"same dad, dad's inside, let's go in"

Daffa nodded and followed behind Farah

In the room__zila was joking with her father, Seeing the arrival of Daffa made a zila who had a warm smile immediately changed her expression and leaned on the bed dashboard.

"Have eaten son" asked Farah

"Not Bun"

"Let's eat this Mother has brought lunch, Daffa you have eaten?"

"yet Bun"

"Let's eat, here's bring me some food too"

"Let's call Bun who eats Daffa later"

"looh, why is this mommy already bringing Lo son"

"Eat the mas, do not let you also in the care of zila, you need to eat"

Although the style of speech lies but Zila sincerely asks Daffa to eat, Zila can see the tired face of her husband

"i miss that call Zil" Inner Daffa

Daffa finally nodded at Zila's words

"after that you go home first, rest, look very Lo it's eyes lack of sleep, zila let father and mother who take care"

"iya Bun, Daffa wants to change clothes"

Farah sat beside the zila feeding food into the mouth of the zila, while Daffa sat on the sofa that was in the zila room with Ali.

"what the hell do you think about, until the gini-rich bleeding"

Zila glanced at Daffa who turned out that Daffa was also staring at her guiltily

"You can't stress baby, if there's a story problem with daffa or mother, don't be alone."

"Yes Bun"

"Don't do heavy work first, or you hire someone to clean the house"

"Ga need Bun, daffa also often ko Bantu zila, after all zila is not willing to share the reward with others"

"Yes my mother believed in you"

....

Daffa who had just finished performing Zuhur prayer in Masjid__ is now in the zila room, Daffa sat on the bedside staring at the place where zila was standing before being rushed to the hospital, Daffa rubbed his face rough while questioning the almighty

"I'm sorry Zil"

"Sorry" said Daffa

apologies are always thrown from the mouth of the daffa, Daffa is aware, well aware, what happened to his wife because of his attitude, Daffa is aware, If only he had not come to see the zila in Bandung and let the zila calm himself surely what happened to the zila last night would not have happened, he said, but honestly after Daffa knew zila came back to Bandung Daffa's heart skipped a beat, afraid if the zila really wanted their separation.

Honestly Daffa never wanted to part with zila, for him quite once in a lifetime just married, Ya Daffa admitted his attitude is very outrageous, irritable, cold, selfish, indifferent to the presence of zila, yep, but one month later Daffa felt bound to zila, Daffa wanted to be there for zila even though sometimes the way he expressed his wrong and ended up in a fight.

Daffa only wanted to correct his mistake, Daffa wanted to fix his household, although Daffa was not sure what his feelings were for Daffa himself yet, Daffa only wanted to start everything again with zila

But seeing the rejection of Zila Daffa hesitated to forgive him

with a heavy heart Daffa had to go to Jakarta alone, Daffa will wait until the zila is ready to accept his return, although eventually the zila refused and wanted to separate Daffa will accept the decision of zila with a heavy heart.

Daffa looked at Poto zila on his study table, in the photo__ looks zila smile sweet full of happiness.

"Beautiful" Praise Daffa

Daffa put back the frame of Poto zila, put on his black jacket.

Today also Daffa returned to Jakarta, in addition to wanting to give zila time for himself, Daffa also could not leave his work for too long

....

"So you came home today"

"iya Bun, there is an operation that Daffa must handle, Daffa actually really wants to be here, take care of the zila but Daffa also has to return to the hospital tomorrow, because there is an operation that Daffa must practice"

"Yes, son, you understand"

"What is the wake up to the zila "

"Yes, you have a heart, son"

"iya Bun, assalamualaikum"

"navaloupe"

answer Farah and Ali at the same time

After saying goodbye to his father-in-law, Daffa entered to meet Zila

"I'll go home, yeah, I'll wait for you at home"

Daffa spoke softly in the zila's ears and briefly peeked at the zila's forehead.

....

On the road__ Daffa's mind keeps remembering the zila, Daffa wants to be next to the zila, Daffa wants to keep the zila, Daffa hit his car driver condemning his stupidity all along

The flashback

zila sat next to Daffa in a busy living room with her latest flat object.

"Mas can ask for help"

There was no response from the man

zila took a breath before speaking again

"Mas, may I ask you a favor"

"gold"

"WHAT THE HELL __YOU DON'T SEE I'M BUSY"

zila swallowed her saliva with great difficulty, Zila just wanted to ask for help in Buying medicine, zila felt she was not feeling well but the fever medicine supply in Daffa's medicine box was exhausted

"sorry mas"

zila bit her lower lip, and chose to return to her room.

"Yet"

call zila, her body is already shivering, her body temperature is already above the normal word.

Wanting out, Zila could not even stand up, the only way to ask Hana for help

"Assalamualaikum Han"

"waalaikumsallam Zil, knp"

"gw miss the same Lo"

Hana chuckles over there, though,

"gw seriously Han" zila also chuckled, they were already very close to each other, zila did like to joke about random things with Hana, she said, if Hana says that zila is a funny person who likes to joke, but just the same person closest to her, so again sick zila also had time to joke

"Zil, Lo's sick "

"emm, I'm sick, I want to ask you please can't"

"astagaa Zil, tell me what you want"

"buyin gw dong medicine, the supply of medicine at home I'm exhausted"

"ok, ok I buyin, uh wait for Lo alone at home, Daffa mana"

"there are, Daffa is busy I'm not good to bother"

"Zil Lo's got a doctor's husband, he can check the state of Lo ga papa times Lo disrupt the work he Lo kan bininya"

"gw ain't good Han"

"Jeez Zil, Lo kaya just got married yesterday, wait , I went there, assalamualaikum"

"navaloupe"

Zila tried to get off her bed zila wanted to wait for Hana outside, Zila was only worried because seeing Daffa sitting casually playing mobile phone in the living room, could zila in brondong questions by Hana.

Sure enough Daffa was still sitting in the living room busy with his cell phone.

"mas, zila let's go downstairs for a second huh"

again zila did not get any response from Daffa

"Assynogaic"

"navaloupe"

"Whether he's sick, his voice is shaking"

again and again Daffa was only indifferent, no matter the slightest bit with zila . when it was clear from his trembling tone of speech, zila was unhealthy but still Daffa's indifference dominated.

The flashback

"Sorry Zil"

"sorry"

Daffa rubbed his face rough thinking back to his attitude, even though Daffa knew that day the zila was sick but his ego was too high just to ask the state of zila.

........

"Well, which Daffa"

"Home home son, Daffa haven't let you know yet"

"home?"

"yes, son, Daffa hasn't called yet"

Farah who was busy tidying zila goods into the bag now her attention is diverted to zila

"No Bun maybe Daffa's busy"

Farah nodded and returned to tidying up the zila goods

....

At home__zila sat on the bed with a cross-legged position, zila held her cellphone her intention to contact Daffa but there was a sense of doubt as well , doubt if Daffa would pick up her phone

elsewhere the same thing was being experienced by Daffa in his room__ Daffa also held his flat object, which he had, On the screen is clearly written zila number there which he had previously entered when the zila was still in the hospital

"Darling, I've been waiting for you downstairs"

"ahh, yeah, just a minute Bun"

Zila put her phone on the nightstand and caught Farah out, right after that her phone rang, a call from Daffa.

Daffa over there just sighed, because his call was ignored by zila

"Do you really want us to separate Zil"

"but I don't want to, I want us to be happy"

"Sorry Zil"

Daffa spoke to himself while looking at Poto zila on his phone, Poto zila who was sitting at the dining table smiled sweetly, Daffa took the Poto silently silently without the knowledge of zila.

not just one Poto there are more than 10 Poto possible, Poto taken in the same way__ quietly

...

"Zil"

"iyaa Bun"

"eat boy, don't mix the rice"

"Zila ga Bun's appetite"

"Zilla"

zila who was just looking down at her rice now turned to look at her father's face.

"you're honest with dad, you've got Daffa's problem"

Farah who heard her husband's words turned to Ali.

"Fairy dad"

"father can see your attitude to Daffa son, father can also see Daffa's attitude to you, father can also see Daffa's attitude to you, ok dad can accept your arrival to the house that is alone in a state of pregnancy because Daffa is busy so can not deliver, ok dad can accept, but I can see from your faces there's something you've covered from us"

Zila only lowered her head, confused as to what to answer

"Son, I don't want to interfere, it's your family, but if you can't hold your own story to us ', don't be damned yourself "

"Ga ko yah, zila same mas Daffa no problem"

"ok if you don't want a story, but I ask you to be able to act mature and solve your problems as daffa with a cold head, leaving home is not the adult way to solve problems son"