It's Not You I Want

formality

Zila put the fried tempe on the table, dinner this time is simple as before, there is only tempeh, sambel, fried chicken, as well as Daffa's favorite clear vegetables.

As usual zila cut Daffa's chicken into small parts so that it is easy to eat as well as hers.

"Ga Bosen is eating this again"

Zila scooped the rice onto the Daffa plate, he said,

" no, I like it even"

zila sat back in her chair,

"Tomorrow what to cook for your friend"

"do it, we buy fast food only, they are many, so you are__ later exhausted if you have to cook"

"yes, I will make a cake later"

"that's better"

there was no more chat after her, the two quietly enjoyed the food on their respective plates, finished eating Daffa washing dishes while the zila cleaned the dining table, they shared the task while at home, and the two of them did the same, actually, Zila had already banned Daffa, according to him, Daffa excessive zila can still do homework on his own, but Daffa still with his stance if the zila refused, Daffa will find workers to clean their homes, Daffa will find workers to clean their homes, obviously zila does not want, zila does not want to share the reward with others in taking care of the house also her husband, zila also does not like there are others in her house , zila resigned when the daffa helped her in the affairs of the house.

finished washing dishes__ Daffa joined the zila in the living room who was busy watching the drama with Snack in his hands.

Daffa sat with a thick book on his lap that was not understood zila content, which zila knew the book was filled with images of human organs.

Daffa put up his reading glasses and started reading and also marked every line he thought was important.

Silent, the two were busy with their respective affairs,

"want to drink tea"

Daffa nodded and smiled sweetly at the zila,

soon __zila returned with a tray in her hand, on a tray of zila putting green tea for Daffa and warm water for herself.

"Zila put Daffa tea in front of her"

"drink, it'll be cold again"

"thank you"

Daffa took off his glasses before sipping on zila-made warm tea, otherwise his glasses could dew

zila refocused on her drama, unaware that Daffa had been watching her

Daffa closed his thick book, Daffa was lying on the sofa with his zila thighs As his pillow, clearly zila was shocked by the sudden action of Daffa, but zila was also not rebellious, either, but he kept staring at Daffa

"why look at the rich mas that, do not like it mas sleeping here"

"ee_ _ emmm ga ko you can sleep, I'm just shocked"

"Zil"

"emm"

"mas, you can ask me something"

"just ask" zila put her hand on Daffa's head, at first her hand was just silent but a long time later zila gently stroked Daffa's head, occasionally zila combed Daffa's long hair with her lentic fingers...

"Why do you want to accept this match"

deg, arrive

zila stopped her swipe, zila bit her lower lip, Daffa's question that arrived made her misbehave, if she remembered it felt like zila had said the reason for accepting her match first, but in a state of anger , if she remembered , unlike now, Daffa with a position that is very unsafe for heart health zila __asked with his leisure.

Zila did not dare to steady Daffa, zila pretended to watch tv in front of him even though her feelings were not out of hand.

"You don't want to answer also ga papa, but his hands don't stop dong, mas like you elus rich earlier"

Daffa put the zila hand back on her head, the zila again gently stroked her husband's head, while Daffa began to close her eyes.

"How come I asked you why I accepted you to be my husband, I think you know the answer"

"because you like the same thing"

"Have known that I was still nanya" Sinis zila, Daffa just smiled at the words of zila.

"since when do you like the same mas"

"it has to be so rich"

"Ga also , as much as you want to answer or not"

"Since High School"

"really" Daffa pura was surprised to hear his wife's statement, even though Daffa knew for sure_ zila had been storing flavor to him since High School, not spiciness but the reality

"what makes you interested in the same"

Daffa felt shocked by the zila speech, wrong himself, he asked.

Daffa flipped his body and now his face was right in front of the zila belly, in view of the belly of the zila of his work, Daffa occasionally sprinkled a kiss there, zila only noticed Daffa her hand was still combing Daffa's jet-black hair.

"sorry papah yah son, papah evil really used to be the same mama, you do not hate papah yah son"

"Stop apologizing daf" Zila was annoyed at hearing Daffa's words

"Yes, it's not appropriate to apologize that everything you've done to you has gone too far"

Daffa said without staring at zila, there was pain in the heart zila heard the words Daffa__ guilt arises because of hurting her husband's feelings with his words earlier, even though it was just as spontaneous as said from his mouth

"Daf" zila called Daffa softly

"daf, here, look at me"

zila tried to twist Daffa's face to face her.

Daffa looked at the zila with a million guilt in his heart, zila smiled sweetly looking back at Daffa's face, the two were just looking at each other, zila stroked the surface of Daffa's face gently , Daffa closed his eyes feeling every touch of zila-cold hand on his face

"Let the past be our shared past good bad or not all of it has become a memory in our household, now let's build everything together from the beginning as you once said"

Unknowingly Daffa shed her tears, the zila who was aware of it quickly wiped her with her thumb.

"You're a good woman, I'm a stupid man who's ever hurt a woman as good as you"

"There is no perfect man"

Daffa could not bear to see the face of the zila anymore, Daffa turned his body back to the zila belly and embraced the woman's waist.

"Daf, since I've answered your question, now I want it, okay"

without Daffa's voice confirming Zila's speech, Zila could feel her from Daffa's nod

"Why do you hate me so much, am I not as pretty as Zahra or not as smart as her ?"

Daffa looked up at Zila, as if confirming the zila question just now

"Why do you hate me so much and "Zila repeated her question

"Because mas liked someone at that time, mas even promised to marry him someday, mas in blinded with love, until you have to hurt your heart , the woman who has been destined for the mas, without love you mas sure you know him"

"take Zahra"

"yes __it was Zil"

"Now how"

"how is it"

"your feelings"

"A feeling for who you are or Zahra"

"Bak Zahra, I know how you feel about me, just a husband-to-wife formality"

"you said that"

"that's right"

"don't start" Daffa began to get annoyed with his zila remarks, but Daffa tried to hold back his emotions

no Answer, zila grabbed back the snake she had previously put down because her hands kept stroking Daffa's head, zila ate back her snake with a flat face, zila was still waiting for Daffa's Answer, she said,

"Zil" called Daffa softly, trying to touch the face of the zila but quickly Zila moved away from her face, Daffa got up from his sleep, sitting cross-legged beside the zila.

"Khaira fazila, my wife, mother-to-be for my son's son, believe me there's only you here" Daffa grabbed Zila's hand

her left chest, Zila turned to look at Daffa

" There is only you in my heart Zil, never doubt my affection for you, my feelings for you are not just a husband-to-wife formality, but mas is already fully tied to you Zil, one month you go to Bandung one month also mas like losing some life mas, mas fear of losing you, d, I'm afraid you're asking to separate with a mas, I'm afraid you're leaving, I'm afraid you're missing a mas"

Daffa took a breath of his before continuing his words

"Pity your love Zil , sincere , and sorry mas slow to realize it early"

Daffa pulled the zila into his arms, Daffa drowned his face in the zila neck.

"Don't ever say that everything you do is just a formality again, you get hurt hearing it"

zila nodded in Daffa's embrace and returned Daffa's embrace

"but I want mas say if mas also love me, the expression of love can be interpreted many things mas, I waited a long time to hear the sentence from your mouth mas , is it hard to say love to me, or Sister Zahra is still at the bottom of the heart mas in the deepest, and until anytime I will never hear you say this word for zila" Zila monologue.

...Hay gess this story is over .you can stop by if you like my other novels...