It's Not You I Want

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..."' You don't have to choose between me and him, because I'll decide, if I'm the one who's gonna give up"...

Zaskia and Zidan were still in the playground parking lot, Zaskia lowered her head with her hands clutched together, while Zidan did not at all turn his eyes on Zaskia.

"come home with me now" said zidan firmly

"ee-haw, I don't want to, I'm leaving right now, I'll take care of everything you just sign" the woman's wrist was choked roughly by the zidan, and the, strong enough the man squeezed Zaskia's wrist, until the woman grimaced with pain.

"relax. sakiuitt"

Zidan pulled Zaskia until there was no distance left between them with Zaskia's back to her

"i won't want to break up with you" said zidan right behind Zaskia, zidan hugged Zaskia from behind, he released Zaskia's hand, the wrist still felt sore because of the zidan, Zidan, Zaskia rubbed her reddish-looking wrist there.

Zidan placed his chin over Zaskia's shoulder

"i miss you so much Ki, how could you ask us to separate, Five years I spent in punishment, have you not been satisfied torturing me all this time, wasn't your revenge enough on me for five years of your departure, the tension was you came just to ask for a divorce from me"

"yes, I was wrong all this time, I'm sorry, I always ask you to leave, but.., I myself can never lose you Kii, never can"

Zaskia could feel the man's tears wetting the shirt through the skin of his shoulder

"don't ya, please. don't ask for divorce again yes, I beg you to start again from the same beginning, you know Azizah has memorized 10 juices...Ki, our son grew up to be a recorder of the Qur'an, just like our minds "

"we go home, we meet the father of the mother, they miss you very much"

"sorry, I can't, I don't want any of you with her "

"i told you, Kii, she's Alesha, not siyapa siyapa me, she's--" again zidan's speech is hindered by someone's call

"your friends" cried the boy of the same age as Azizah, Azam, Azam ran to Zaskia who was still in the arms of zidan, Zidan grinned confusedly at the little boy who called his wife by the name of the mother, Zidan, behind the little boy, Rafa walks with clenched hands looking at the zidan who is still hugging Zaskia, Zaskia never covers up her status, who is still a legitimate wife of Zidan Fadillah.

Zidan took off his arms because the doom had been whining in a carry, the little boy was hanging at Zaskia's feet

"mom?" murmuring zidan in the heart

Zaskia changed her position to squat so that it was easy to hold the little boy who turned out to be crying

"why cry, baby?"

"Azzam nyariin mama"

"sorry, we're going home"

"who is Ki ?" Zidan looked at Zaskia with a creepy look, seeing the little boy being spoiled to his wife alone, zidan did not like it, plus there was a man who came closer

"my introduction is Rafa, the father of Azzam" Rafa introduces himself with a cold face.

Zaskia felt an uncomfortable situation right now, either her feelings alone or it was true.

"sorry sir, I met my son who was separated from his tant, until he forgot our purpose here"

"no papa ki"

"Zaskia who he is" zidan's questions seem to suppress his words, more intimidating

"His name is Rafa, my boss, who helped me when I was in a state of depression, when I was alone on the road looking for a job to survive, he who is ready to give me a job so that I can eat, he is also the one who has helped me to heal" explained naera at length

"so this is why you asked for a divorce from me, huh ?"

Zaskia shook her head, she did not expect that Zidan could be as low as accusing her who did not

"UNTIL ANY TIME I WILL NEVER DIVORCE YOU ZASKIAAAA" Zidan's shout did not make Zaskia turn, but did not lie her heart ached, Zaskia almost melted with zidan's persuasion as the man hugged her, whispering softly behind her, but even more painfully as Zidan accuses her of not being, Zaskia comes good well, she wants to solve everything well, but the zidan response is just the opposite.

"Zaskia, you ain't papa"

"ii-yes sir, I'm not papa" Unlike what zidan thought, Zaskia and Rafa did not come to that place only three with Azzam, but there was a nurse who took care of Azzam too, this morning Azzam whined to be invited to play, but he wanted Zaskia to come too, Zaskia obviously refused, he knew the position he knew if he lived the legitimate wife of people, Zaskia said, and Zaskia knew she was with a man, so Rafa also invited Sister Azzam to come with them, coincidentally on the same day Azizah was also there with zila.

Zidan beat up the innocent car steering wheel, he channeled his anger at the inanimate object.

"ZASKIAAA, I will not let you go again from my life Ki, I will never, you will continue to be my wife until anytime" the gentleman followed the sober sobbing Isaac.

....

"Abang mbak KIA mana bang" Zila and Daffa wailed to find Zaskia who did not come home with her brother, which they saw Only zidan who entered with reddened eyes.

"Abang mbak KIA mana" zila again repeated his words, but again zidan muncham, heard the sound of a car, Azizah who was in the room Aska ran out excited, and, he also thought his mother was coming home with his father

"momuuk" cried Azizah from above

the more hurt Zidan's heart was to see his son, what he had to say to Azizah, If his mother refused to go home

"i-mom mana yah" azizah who stood in front of the entrance returned, because she did not see the figure of her mother anywhere

"aa-dad mama mana" zidan cradled the body of his son who began to glaze over because he did not find his mother

Zidan tidied his son's hair, trying to maintain a smile on his face

"mom can't come home with us yet, son, but I promise I'll take her home"

"a-ayaah" the little girl was disappointed in the absence of her mother, she wanted to be embraced again, since Azizah was waiting for the return of her father with his mother.

"aa-bab, Mbak Kiya?" Zidan only glanced at his sister's anxious face, he lowered the azizah from his sling

"honey, play the same Aska bang first yes, tired dad want to rest" zidan passed without wanting to explain anything, the strapping body was running smoothly with both shoulders no longer look sturdy and dashing.

in the room, Zidan sat on the edge of the bed, his hands squeezed the mattress firmly, the sheets were attached almost out of position

while outside the zila is increasingly worried about the condition of his brother's family, the face of the zidan when entering was clearly describing something they never wanted

"honey, relax"

"how do I want to calm down, mas, you see for yourself how my brother is after meeting Mbak Kiya, instead of being happy just brother getting worse, you know what I mean mas"

"yes dear yes, I understand, but we can not conclude anything now, before zidan himself who said, there are you who are affected by excessive worry "

zila nodded in understanding, which her husband meant

...

As with zidan, Zaskia who just arrived at his house sat on the edge of the bed by staring at the picture frame of zidan on his nightstand

he grabbed the thing, Zaskia rubbed Zidan's handsome face there

"why did you become so thin zii, you do not hurt, your sturdy body why change, your firm eyes also change my, you do not papa zii ?"

"i just don't want to share the love with her zii, I can't share the people I love with other women, I don't want to zii, I don't want to, I better go "

"i love you zii, and will continue to be like that, I love you and will continue forever, you are the first and last man to fill and color my life, until whenever it is"

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