It's Not You I Want

Dreamtime

With all due consideration, Zila finally defeated her ego, she returned home with Zidan, actually Zidan did not allow zila to go home and return __but zila promised to go home after making sure Daffa was okay and returned to Bandung, because zila was sure, he said, wanting to part with Daffa after her child was born, Zila did not want her decision to falter if she was with Daffa for too long

Arriving at her apartment door, Zila inserted the same pin and succeeded, zila was initially hesitant to fear Daffa changed her PIN.

Darkness is the first time the zila found, Daffa has not returned, well zila will wait

First__ zila turned on the lights of the house, and how surprised zila to see the state of the house that he left one month, he said,

garbage where, many dishes are also dirty glasses scattered on the table, the floor was filled with coffee spills where

"Astagfirullah, why is the house so dirty"

"your husband can live in a filthy place rich in gini Zil" Zidan's eyes skirted every side of Daffa's filthy guest room

braaques

the sound of falling objects makes both attention distracted.

"Daffa's on top" zila wanted to step in to make sure 'em, but Zidan blocked his hand

"wait here, let me see first"

"don't bang Zila ride, zila feeling ain't good"

"yes, but slowly go up"

zila was sure the shards were coming from her room.

"Daffa" said zila, after seeing the state of Daffa lying limp on his bed, broken glass scattered on the floor, while the state of his room was much different from other rooms in this house, zila's room was kept clean only with broken glass.

zila walked up to Daffa, Daffa wanted to wake up but really he could not sit down

"sadly the hearts of many bells" in the midst of his helplessness Daffa still had time to commemorate his wife

zila could no longer hold back her tears, her feelings of not being able to lie, Daffa her beloved husband was not well.

"Daffa" said zila

"you come home baby, mas kangen' Daffa tried to wake up as strong as his strength, really zila did not have the heart to see the condition of daffa now, where his healthy husband fit first, he said, The Daffa before him looked helplessly thin, what the man had been facing as long as he was gone.

"you're sick daf, we're in the hospital huh, bang Zidan please zila's husband" it was heartbreaking to see Daffa's apprehensive condition, Zidan approached bringing Daffa to sit down,

"Honey" Daffa grabbed the zila into his arms

"honey__mas kangen, don't go again, gold can die without you, please"

"we're going to the hospital, you've got to get treatment"

Daffa shook his head, zila could feel the ring on her shoulder, zila could also feel her clothes wet from Daffa's tears

"i'm not going anywhere, but we're going to the hospital"

"mas hungry, mas want you masakin mas rich first Zil, mas can not eat other than your cooking"

"You wait a minute I make porridge first"

Daffa nodded, zila actually just did not have to linger long to see the condition of Daffa, he wanted to spill his tears but not in front of Daffa.

with the help of Zidan Zila down again to make Daffa's favorite porridge, his eyes were filled with tears

"Huus, don't cry Zil, your husband is just sick"

"Abang ga ngerasain see the people who love sick other than the same father mother, try Abang is in the zila position, mbak Kiya is sick, if Abang can calm down if Zila asks Abang to keep calm, keep calm, huh"

"yes, I'm sorry, I just don't want to see you sad"

zila let go of Zidan's hand on her shoulder, stepped away towards the kitchen, upset to hear Zidan say, she said her husband was just sick, but Zidan expected what.

Zidan would rather help Zila clean her house which was already like a broken ship than continue to make her sister's emotions could plate float right on her face.

the condition of the kitchen is also not much different, the pile of dishes that are left rusty is not washed, the dining table is dirty, the contents of the refrigerator are empty there is only chicken that somehow in buying Daffa, Daffa, the kitchen seasoning seasoning that was still the same since zila left, had not changed at all.

zila wiped her tears and started cooking porridge for Daffa but there were no vegetables in the refrigerator.

zila looked for her brother who always made her upset, wanted to ask for help buying some vegetables to complement her artificial porridge.

"bang Zidan"

Zidan, who had been busy wiping the table, practiced looking at the younger brother who was standing not far from him, with a hand that kept wiping his large belly

"what" Zidan approached the younger brother

"please buy vegetables"

"where is his note about Abang forgot, send it to Hp Abang"

"emm __ok, you wait here don't go upstairs and wait for Brother"

"spick yeah"

"yeah"

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while waiting for Zidan , Zila tidied up her house, grabbed another object that she could still reach on the floor with her stomach bulging, zila also washed dirty dishes.

zila has also made the porridge, vegetable problems can be added later.

Zila sat on the dining chair from exhaustion.

"zila" faintly faint zila heard daffa calling her __want to rise, but she was afraid of falling

"zila, you're not going home to Zil"

"iya daf, I'm under, wait a minute well, this is me still making the porridge"

"yeah"

"you're not going to go again, are you Zil"

"nothing" with a quivering voice, either hearing the weak daffa voice made her want to cry

"promise not to go again"

"yeah"

Zila was surprised not to play tuba arrived to find the cold hand of daffa was already coiled around her neck

"Daffa"

"promise do not go again" because it does not last long standing, Daffa fell in peace but still with a sitting position

"Daffa" zila panicked not playing now, zila struggled to squat but hard

"O Allah daffa, I told you to wait for me above"

"i'm just afraid you're going again"

"i'm not going to go daf"

Hearing the sound of the zila door quickly met Zidan, could not bear to see Daffa in the position it is today

"you're why" Zidan panicked to see his sister's face

"please Daffa bang "

"Daffa why don't you panic"

"it's __in the kitchen come on" zila pulled Zidan's hand

"Lo ko he can be here"

"do not much quickly please bring it to the guest room only"

Zidan helped the daffa stand up to sweep him into the guest room

Zidan left them both

zila rubbed her husband's sweaty forehead, her eyes were soft, her hands cold

"I'm not going where daf" said zila and continued to wipe her husband's head, no matter how long daffa did not wash his hair

"sorry I'm Zil, sorry"

"i'm the one who should be sorry, I shouldn't be selfish, you won't be rich gini I'm sorry"

with difficulty daffa wiped the tears of zila

zila festive hands daffa and kissed him many times

"I'm sorry" said zila lirih

"don't apologize for my mistake Zil, don't"

"which one hurts__ Hem, Which one" zila's hands, fluttering all over her husband's body

" i'm healthy now, you're the cure, I just need to eat the convent there's power"

"yes we eat well, wait a minute I take your porridge" with a zila vibrating voice said

zila returned to the kitchen and returned to the room with a name in her hand

zila helps daffa to sit leaning on the bed dashboard, feeding the daffa with heart, daffa continues to look at the zila, he still does not expect the wife he longs for is in front, he said, Daffa Just hope it's all real, even if it's a dream __daffa hopes it's not built anymore.