It's Not You I Want

Stallion

finished with the kitchen affair__zila also chose some Snacks, from sweet to salty all zila put into the basket, the,

"there's more" asked Daffa

"emm, already"

"that's why you wait outside just let the mas pay, must be tired right"

"emm, if that's wait wait wait outside well"

zila passed leaving the daffa at the cashier, zila's eyes glancing at the ice cream box to her left, and her eyes glanced at the ice cream box,

His eyes sparkled to see the number of eskrim arranged in the box.Sengking many zila to be confused about which one to buy

" want to escape"

Daffa's voice made the focus of the zila diverted, zila looked at the daffa standing beside her with 2 bags of groceries in her hand.

"it's done"

"emm, why ? , you want ice cream"

"yes, confused as to which is too much choice "

"This one is willing" Daffa pointed to one eskrim with 3 flavors in one place, zila shook her head

"this one" The ice cream is red with green on the bottom, the zila shakes again

"This one" ice cream with a crescent moon shape is deep yellow.

"i want chocolate" Zila grumbled, Daffa kept picking her ice cream that she didn't like

"This is how it is, it's delicious to have nuts"

"emm yes deyh, I'm brown you strawberry yes, later I want to try it too"

"iyaa" Daffa stroked zila's head

" here, let the mas pay you wait here for a minute"

...

They sit in the front seat of the supermarket, enjoying their hard-earned ice cream in the pick of zila.

"likes" Daffa Swabbing zila lips with ice cream stains using his thumb

"emm, want to try" zila reached out her hand,

"delicious, you want to try to have a mas" now Daffa offered, zila nodded and opened her mouth, not waiting for zila's answer

"how"

"strawberry taste" replied zila innocently

"Yes Zil, the taste of melon is strange"

"i'm not saying this is your melon taste anyway"

Ok Daffa resigned now women are always right, and never argue with women because women do not want to be wrong.

"emm"

....

Daffa put the grocery bags on the dining table, one by one zila came out the contents, while the daffa was in charge of arranging their groceries to the storage cabinet.

all the goods were neatly arranged in the closet, daffa poured water into the glass and gave it to the zila, zila sat with her hands unceasingly rubbing her increasingly bulging stomach. Daffa pulled one chair to get closer to the zila

"Sound healthy papah children continue to be son"

"yes papah" the zila who replied with a voice made

"Zil you never thought it would be right now that we are husband and wife Even now you are pregnant with our child"

"emm, how ya" the zila who was originally sitting straight now sat leaning on the back of the chair, her eyes rotating to Kenan to the left, considering the fitting answer to Daffa's question.

Daffa was still staring at the zila waiting for the answer from the woman

"Yes, I'm also self-conscious when I'm who you are, I never dreamed I could be your wife, either, since High School I realize our position is rich sun same moon , will not be able to shine at the same time, although it can be said I love death with you __uad, previously, but do not expect more, uh know now there is even your child in the stomach I "zila singed smile at the end he said

"although his presence was only due to compulsion"

continued Zila, Daffa immediately frowned at hearing the sentence zila, what he said was the presence of their child due to compulsion, and,

"what the hell are you talking about"

"yes our child is present because of your compulsion, if only our parents do not force the presence of children in the middle of our relationship that is like a dead ship floating machine ta of course this direction , you won't touch me, let alone fuck me"

deg, zila speech is like a sword that wields right in the heart of Daffa, everything that zila says is true, why daffa can forget that, the day that he hooked the zila just because of the insistence of his family, asking for something valuable for zila in a way it shouldn't.

the flashback

In his room __Daffa ruffled his hair , he had just closed the call from the mama , every day his parents called Just

asking about the pregnancy of the wife that he never even touched at all, the reason they are always the same __because of age, fear of not having time to see the grandchild of their only child, daffa made dizzy, daffa dizzy, no heart also every time the mother called in her soft voice who kept asking when zila was pregnant, when zila was pregnant with her granddaughter, when daffa gave good news for her. "mamah want to hold your son, 2 years you married it is not a short time , mamah wants rich mothers of other mothers who can tell how adorable their grandchildren if there is a gathering event, let's want you guys to program well, let zila get pregnant quickly" more or less that sentence that continues to be spoken by the Goddess to Daffa.

Daffa tidied back his messy hair, out staring at the tightly shut door of the zila room across his room, his mind in a mess, inside his brain right now, the woman who has become his wife must be pregnant in the near future for the sake of the mother.

With clenched hands, Daffa took a deep breath before knocking on the door in front of him

"forgive me ra, I've broken a promise I made, a promise that won't touch another woman but you, sorry, tonight I have to touch her, I Just hope you are happy even if not with me Zahra Aulia, the Daffa monologue

One knock there was no answer from the inside, yes indeed this is already the woman's sleeping hours, Daffa turned the algae door of the zila room turned out to be unlocked, in instead slowly , daffa stood for a moment staring at the sleeping zila facing her, the calm face of the zila who had just seen daffa in a state of sleep, daffa reassured his mind that what he was doing was the right thing, daffa only needs to fuck the zila making her pregnant If the woman is not pregnant in one daffa experiment will do her again but if the zila is not pregnant as well , if the woman is not pregnant too , daffa would tell her parents that zila tidka could get pregnant because of the barren zila. That way her parents would stop asking for grandchildren, she thought

so much did Daffa think of such a thing, so disgusted was he. If zila knew what was in the man's mind before screwing him whether zila would still survive__ I don't know, the nulis were also confused.

with an unfathomable eye __daffa walking, crawling up onto the mattress, hugging the zila from behind, the beating of the daffa heart began to be abnormal, he said, hugging a woman like this was new to her, her mind started to wild, Daffa a normal adult man, daffa did not directly build up the zila, she said, but his hand rubbed the surface of the zila belly covered in a nightgown abstractly, until the zila woke up, and,

Before the zila screams wake up her apartment neighbor __Daffa silences the mouth of the zila with a single Sentence that makes the zila fall into the deepest abyss _ , daffa Yang's words prove how forced Daffa was to touch her tonight.

"quiet this is me, you know what people know we want, I hope you understand and just follow what I say"

a single drop of zila tears flowed down her cheeks zila was not an innocent woman who did not understand the meaning of Daffa's words, but what Daffa said really hurt her feelings, Daffa touched her just because of the force, just because she had to, the insistence of their parents made the daffa have no other choice but to raise him.

...flashback is still continuing to the next chapter...