It's Not You I Want

Angrier

the night sky changes with the night sky, usually, other people are already in the house but different from beautiful women with a black hijab covering her hair looks graceful even with a bulging stomach not because the body contains but there is a small creature that it's growing in there.

chequeleked

zila opened the door of her apartment, the state of the apartment was already bright it was a sign that other residents had gone home first

"assalamualaikum" said zila but there was no answer

zila steps her feet towards the kitchen, zila opens the refrigerator and grabs a bottle of ice water in it, zila sits at the dinner table, her left hand continued to stroke her distended stomach while her right hand held a glass filled with water inside.

"Alhamdulillah" said zila after spending water in his glass.

"your son in there how are you, you can't wait to see you son"

zila's smile was etched beautifully on her beautiful face

Khaira Fazila, a pretty name as pretty as her man

zila is her nickname, a beautiful 25-year-old woman who is now 2.

yes, the woman is pregnant and now her gestational age is 4 months.

zila got married 2 years ago and only became pregnant in the second year of her marriage, not without reason it could happen

not because zila and her husband postponed pregnancy or indeed just given the mandate now from the creator__ no, not at all

that's because the marriage of zila with the husband is only because of a mere matchmaking.

his parents betrothed him to their best friend's son. Zila is not a dissident child, whatever her parents say as long as it is Good zila definitely according__but with the marriage affair__zila initially refused raw silly matchmaking.

zila does not want to marry someone she does not love, especially when she is very young

but after knowing the man who will be paired with her is Daffa Saputra, the man who managed to seize her heart while sitting in high school. Zila happily accepted the match, not much different from zila, Daffa also initially refused to marry zila. Daffa even had a heart idol that he wanted to apply for but all failed because his parents had prepared a silly match with their best friend's son, Zila. Daffa's mother goddess fell ill because Daffa refused to marry Zila for her mother's sake Daffa finally wanted to marry zila from her mother happy and healed again.

"From anywhere" her tone sounded extremely cold intimidating

zila who had been staring at her stomach was now turning her gaze to the source of the voice

Daffa who stood not far from her with his hands folded in front of his chest looked at Zila with an intimidating look

lazy arguing zila grabbed back her bag that she had just put on the table.

zila's steps stopped after her hand was stopped by Daffa

zila let out a rough breath, and turned to face Daffa

"what's the "

"where did you come home at this hour"

"work, where else"

"you work or something"

"already Daffa I'm tired of being able to argue tomorrow I want to rest"

zila put on a face of her body now completely tired she wanted to take a bath and sleep.

"home at night, drinking ice water, you're pregnant with zila" Daffa's tone began to rise

"You're pregnant with my child, I don't care what time you want to go home and I don't care. but please think about the child you are carrying I do not want my child why-why"

"she's also my son, which mother wants to put her child's life at risk, I know my limits are Daffa, so stop teaching me what to do"

zila violently removed her hand from Daffa's grasp and left the man who had been ignited by the emotion

Daffa Saputra or Daffa__a handsome man who is now a surgeon at one of the famous hospitals in Jakarta. his charming looks managed to make the women fall in love with his not only face but his good personality, cold, but understanding, making the girls at school including his sister zila put their hearts on him.

Zila thought getting married to Daffa was the best choice, especially since she had long harbored her feelings for Daffa, zila thought Daffa would accept her as a wife even though their marriage was only due to arranged marriage, but in fact, Daffa never once considered zila in his life.

although they lived one zila roof never considered a wife by Daffa, from the beginning Daffa even asked the zila to sleep in a different room with her

the dishes made by Zila never once touched Daffa, until finally zila was tired and never again cooked anything for Daffa.

Financial problems, Daffa always gave money to zila every month, but Zila never used the money given Daffa except to buy the house.

zila prefers to remain working in one of the publishing offices not far from where she lives.

just one year and a half zila Work there, for 1 year zila spend his time Just at home alone, occasionally out to street with Hana his best friend.

every day Zila tried to be a good wife for Daffa, hoping that one day Daffa would accept her as a wife but unfortunately until this moment the man was also reluctant to open his heart for her

if you ask me why Zila could conceive, Daffa asks her to sleep in a different room.

simple answer: again because of their parents

at almost 2 years of age, both Zila's parents and Daffa's parents urged them to give up grandchildren immediately

how to give grandchildren, Daffa was reluctant to touch Zila for 2 years .

No matter where it all started, that night Daffa entered the zila room by chance also the zila did not lock the door to his room.

in Daffa's mind it was only necessary to make the zila pregnant after her that she would no longer touch the woman.

Daffa stared fixedly at the face of the sleeping zila after returning from the office

Daffa lay down beside Zila holding the woman from behind. Daffa's hands tightly hugged the zila's small body until the zila finally awoke from his sleep because it felt something was constantly moving in his stomach area

zila felt Daffa's hand that had rubbed his stomach abstractly, zila was shocked not playing yet Zila woke up Daffa first tightened his embrace and whispered in his ear

"quietly, just for tonight 'you know what our parents want, so I don't have to explain it clearly to you and just follow my orders"

after the whisper of the zila resigned to the treatment of Daffa, that night Daffa usurped the most precious right in the life of zila.

Zila is not a stupid woman she knows Daffa's intentions, Zila also can not refuse, zila let Daffa do what she wanted to zila was also tired if she continued to get her parents' insistence to immediately give grandchildren to them.

zila also hoped that if she really became pregnant later, Daffa would open her heart a little.

but unfortunately one month since that day finally zila conceived but Daffa's attitude has not changed at all, Daffa is still cold, Cuek , never considered zila in his life

zila even had to fend for herself at the beginning of her pregnancy, never once did Daffa ask her what zila wanted, what she wanted to eat, how she felt , how the nausea never even once Daffa asked that to zila.

sukurnya at the age of 4 months zila no longer feel nauseous or want to eat strange strange just that his body so easily tired.

usually the husband will stroke his wife's stomach when pregnant but not for zila even though Daffa never stroked her stomach even though zila really wants a touch from Daffa either congenital baby who also wants the touch of his father.

........

After bathing zila felt hungry because she had not had time to eat, zila went back down to the kitchen to make food

in the kitchen of the confused zila himself wanted to cook what , now the zila is eager to eat the famous chicken satay mas mono with its delicious taste

but now it is 8 pm zila is also afraid if you have to go down to buy it yourself, ask Daffa to buy it for him, forget__mending zila do not need to eat all

for fear of his son ngeces zila finally ventured to go out to buy satay mas mono

previously zila back to the room install cardigan also his instant hijab and do not forget the motor key, not possible zila walk

zila left without saying goodbye to Daffa, as you know Daffa doesn't care what zila does as long as it doesn't interfere with her life

with the speed of the zila riding his motorbike, Untung warung sate mas mono is not far from his apartment quite 10 minutes zila has arrived

zila ordered 2 servings, zila was still thinking about her husband

finished buying satay, zila returned to the queue house long enough because it is a warung mas mono always crowded visitors, zila returned home at 9 o'clock.

after opening the apartment door, Zila was startled by Daffa who stood not far from the front door with an angry look

zila did not care after closing the door of her apartment zila again walked through Daffa , zila was surprised by Daffa who suddenly grabbed the plate held by the zila and threw it towards the wall until the plate broke

"Daffa"

" DO I NEED TO BE RUDE TO YOU IN ORDER FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND MY WORDS, DO I NEED TO PUT MY HAND UP TO MAKE YOU UNDERSTAND"

"what's in your head zila out tonight like this, understand that your zila is pregnant"

"STOOPPP" zila was no less tall, zila shouted right in front of Daffa her hands covered her ears, zila was tired with the clasping of Daffa zila tired of hearing the threat of Dafa

" i'm hungry daf, I'm just out buying satay, I'm not as goofy as you have in mind daf, I know limit , how many more times do I have to explain you don't have to worry about his safety" said Zila Lirih and pointed at her own stomach

" can't you ask me to buy it for you"

"what I did not hear wrong, a Daffa Saputra asked zila for help in buying satay"

zila laughed amusedly at Daffa's words, Daffa just stared at the confused zila

no longer want to argue that zila prefers to leave, his appetite is lost because of Daffa, zila left satay that he bought earlier

"where you go, why don't you eat"

zila didn't care about zila ignoring Daffa's words

in the kitchen__Daffa stared at the 2 packets of satay that was bought by zila earlier, even Daffa realized that the plate he broke amounted to 2 pieces, which means that one satay was zila buy for him

Daffa took a rough breath, grabbed a pack of satay and he put it on a plate, Daffa also took a cup of water and put it on a tray with satay that he bought zila

Daffa carried the tray to the zila room, Daffa knocked on the zila room repeatedly but there was no confirmation

"zil, eat first don't torture him like this Zil"

the Daffa maxed out her son who was in the zila womb, if the zila did not eat her child it also did not eat her thought

"zil, open it before I open it forcibly"

chequeleked

the door to the room is open

zila took over the tray that Daffa was carrying and intended to close the door of her room again but the daffa quickly held back with his hands

"what else is it"

"i'll make sure you finish your meal"

ok zila did not care and walked first honestly Now her stomach is very hungry zila is also afraid of her child getting the impact because of her actions

zila sat cross-legged on a hairy carpet in front of her mattress.

Daffa sat down in front of the zila watching the woman eat voraciously

"why don't you say, if you want to eat satay I can go out and buy it for you"

" When do you care, all you know is this kid is healthy without knowing what I want"

Daffa was speechless, zila speech made him aware all this time Daffa did not care about the pregnancy of zila, Daffa seemed blind and let zila fight alone.

While he continues to blame zila considers zila not to be able to maintain his womb.

"from now on if you need something to say, if you want to eat something say, don't go buy it yourself"

zila did not respond nor stared at her interlocutor zila just focused with satay in front of her eating her satay greedily.

Daffa noticed the zila eating so voraciously in front of him, his hands outstretched intending to Tidy up the zila hair, which covered part of his face but he blurted out the intention.

zila intended to bring her tray to the kitchen but again Daffa stopped her

"You go to sleep, let me take it"

"don't need me alone, I'm the one who's eating me who's going to clean it up"

"i said you don't do it, what's the trouble anyway nurut same husband himself"

Daffa violently snatched the tray from the hands of the zila and sauntered out not forgetting that Daffa also closed the door of the zila room so hard that even the zila itself was shocked by his actions.

zila could only take a deep breath and throw it away violently, zila slumped her tired body on her mattress.

"healthy healthy keep in there"

...Sorry yes, if the feeling has not been dapet, just learned and this is my first writing, thanks for stopping by my amateur writing hehehe...