It's Not You I Want

Don't go away

After the prayer, Daffa returned to the hospital, there was no news from his parents about the zila, Daffa put some zila clothes in the bag, do not forget the baby equipment that has been zila to prepare for the birth of their child.

the puffy eyes were clearly visible from Daffa's face, no matter how long the man cried, at high speed the daffa passed through a tall building in the middle of the city, until Daffa arrived at the hospital

Daffa walked hurriedly down the hospital hallway to quickly reach the zila room, from a distance he saw his parents embracing each other amid broken cries, Daffa shook his head hoping that what was in his head was wrong, running quickly to meet his mother and father, who were,

"ma__mah, Why" asked Daffa

there was no word from his mother or father, Daffa dropped a carry-on bag containing baby supplies as well as some milk zila change clothes, running into the zila room

"Bu___mother" the two beaks of Bayah who were also crying on both sides of the zila bed turned around but were reluctant to explain anything, only crying continued to flow

"MOTHER WHY DO NOT BE SILENT, DO NOT MAKE DAFFA AFRAID" snapped Daffa and can withstand his fear

the two beaks of Bayah had absolutely no intention of explaining, they just continued to cry for what the meaning of the cry was

slowly Daffa approached, with courage, his hands trembled touching the already pale face of Zila, his lips turning blue.

"honey, you're so cold"

"just a minute, I'm matiin ac first"

Daffa sat beside Zila rubbing his wife's hand, with a worried face, even though his ac was dead, zila remained cold to him.

"daughter, zila has no son" Farah rubbed Daffa's back, but Daffa brushed him off

"mom says what the hell, don't be weird about Bun"

"Daffa, you can't be gini, your wife's bad boy"

"dad don't love zila yah, zila daughter dad, tense you guys talk rich that, zila it's just sleeping she's tired"

"yes, dear ' Daffa tidied the zila hair that came out of his hijab

"Daffa"

"yes, Zil you just sleep, zila wake up let them see if you just sleep, wake up Zil"

"son, zila there is no "

"don't__ ga maybe zila went to see me, not maybe"

Daffa shook his head hoping that what he heard was wrong

Daffa raised the body of the zila, hugged the body of the zila with a sitting position, roared as loud as possible, his cry sounded bitter in hearing, and his voice was sobbing,

"banguun babe ba___banguun"

"ka____you ka_____yu, gabby ninggalin me Zil"

"GA CAN "

the flashback

"Daffa see, good not "

"good" Daffa said without seeing the zila, zila snorted in annoyance, feeling neglected

"dear why "

Zila who was already on the bed, rubbed her distended stomach, a happy smile etched beautifully on her beautiful face

"we'll see you soon, son, mamah gapati want to hold a sling"

Daffa also lay down beside the zila, his hand he put on the back of the zila hand, and,

"healthy papah child continues yes son" not as usual, zila as if indifferent to what Daffa did, when usually, zila must have chimed in Daffa speech, Daffa said,

"you're angry, yeah"

"honey, Why"

" what's wrong again"

"you love me, I ain't daf"

question Arrived zila, making the daffa frown

"ko nanya is nae"

"you love me ga"

zila repeated her question, though it was difficult to face Daffa completely but Zila tried to be able to look at Daffodied face

"obviously I love you so much nae, do I need to ask again yes"

"just make sure "

"if I go first leave you, will you find a replacement for me daf "

"i don't like your question Zil"

zila touched Daffa's face

"your mustache is starting to grow daf, you're not shaving yaa"

"i want you to shave "

"you haven't answered my question yet"

"Don't question what's wrong with Zil"

"i just want a mastiin person who could be a surrogate mother for children ki____"

"ZILLA"

"I DON'T LIKE YOU TALKING RICH, WHY DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND, HUH"

DAFFA realized his mistake, his face that had been tense with hardened neck veins, softened again,

"sorry, I don't mean jerk you, but your question makes me angry Zil, I don't like "

zila did not reply, she preferred to throw her gaze in the other direction, her tears spilled, the pain of hearing back the clash of Daffa, Why can't Daffa control her anger, why does the anger continue to explode