It's Not You I Want

I was wrong

"Kiya, I want you tonight" Kiya nodded, she kissed her Qur'an, joined Zidan on the bed, Kiya sat with her legs folded back in front of Zidan.

Zidan gently stroked Kiya's face, Kiya could feel the fine fur on her body start to stand up.

Zidan erodes the distance between them, unites their lips, Zidan starts his game, kiya can only sit down with what Zidan did to her, Zidan leads Kiya's body to lie down, Kiya's body to lie down, in the loose link of the pajama buttons that Kiya wore, Zidan also undressed himself, again he did the unification of their lips.

"ok this scene we're skip ygy"

as usual Kiya woke up at 4am, his body ached especially in the center of his body, because Zidan last night, the man did not even give a pause in between his games.

Although tired, Kiya had to wake up, clean themselves from the rest of their game, Zidan was still sleeping soundly under a thick blanket, Kiya grabbed her shirt which Zidan took off somewhere, Zidan, it's not nice if he has to walk without a thread to the bathroom.

Finished cleaning up, Kiya woke Zidan up to take a bath as well, as it was about to enter dawn

"zi woke up, soon morning prayers zi

"Zi wakes up" Kiya shakes Zidan's shoulder.

Zidan clucked in annoyance but he woke up too.

"where's my towel"

"this"

"Have you prepared some warm water?"

"already zi" Kiya took off the sheets and pillowcases after Zidan entered the bathroom, he also replaced them with new sheets.

kiya also prepared clothes that will be used zidan today. after her he prepared to perform dawn prayers.

Kiya prepared breakfast for Zidan as usual, he sat down while waiting for Zidan to prepare, Kiya showed a smile looking at Zidan who was sitting in front of him but the man but just maintained his flat face.

"Zi tomorrow you're free, right?"

Zidan looked up without chiming in Kiya's question

"ziii"

"iyaaa" replied Zidan ketus

"yo zi's road long ago we did not walk bosen I at home continue"

Zidan did not refuse him nor did he agree, Zidan ignored the invitation of Kiya, who had been very hopeful that Zidan would be invited to take the road.

"Zii, yes or no, don't put it "

Kiya poured water into Zidan's glass, he was still waiting for the man's answer

again Kiya was surprised because Zidan hit the table hard, staring sharply at Kiya, Kiya rubbed her chest that was still beating not because of surprise.

"Can be silent anyway, many want you, do not see me eat anymore"

"zii is not good rich so at the table eating zi" Kiya tried to advise as smooth as possible fear Zidan even offended by his words.

"No one can make emotions a day "Zidan grabbed his bag and back Zidan did not spend his breakfast, Kiya could only see from far away the man's back, his breathing sounded frustrated.

"i'm just a zi, if you can't not papa oruh"

"Lazy I eat because of you "

Kiya smiled bitterly getting with her husband's response.

...

Kiya sat in front of the mirror of her dressing table, in front of her a sad face that always tried to look good will be all Zidan's rude attitude to her.

Kiya has nowhere to complain except her God, Kiya lost her parents since childhood, Kiya grew up in an orphanage, Kiya is a smart child she got a scholarship to continue her studies. Kiya chose to live independently while in college, he came out of the Panti who had raised him.

Kiya and Zidan started a relationship since sitting in High School, they were one class at that time, Zidan without hesitation expressed his taste to him, he Likes because Kiya is a smart student in the class, Kiya also always got a ranking. Until finally Zidan proposed to her, they held a wedding one year after her sister Zidan, zila, married. Zidan invites Kiya to stay in Korea because Zidan knows, Kiya is so fond of the country, Kiya also once said his desire to live there.they lived happily initially, they lived happily, to the point where Kiya gets an offer to work in the UK as a researcher, it's kiya's dream, she was so excited when she got the offer, she said,zidan initially refuses but again because Zidan's love finally allows Kiya to work there, they live apart, they rarely exchange news because of each other's busyness, Zidan always asks Kiya to quit his job but Kiya is reluctant, his dreams are too big to forget just like that, their household slowly stretches, often quarrels end in silence, silent, and until where the big event happened, Kiya admitted her mistake and resigned from her job, they stayed on one more roof but her Zidan changed, there was no longer the same Zidan ,there was no more Zidan that he knew, no more Zidan that loved him.

Kiya lost the former figure of Zidan, which is now only Zidan who is cold, angry, even Zidan did not hesitate to be rude to him.

whether in any way Kiya had to apologize to Zidan, everything he had done, Kiya sacrificed her dream to become a great researcher, but Zidan refused to accept his forgiveness.

in the swipe of Zidan's photo on their wedding picture frame, Kiya wiped the sassy tears down dripping on Zidan's face in the picture frame.

"It must be in any way zi, I have to what do you want to forgive me, am I too disgusting for you zi , until just look at me you are reluctant to zi, may I wish my old Zidan back. I admit wrong zi, I'm sorry, I'm a dissident wife, you're right, I don't deserve your forgiveness" the woman's tears sounded heartbreaking, Kiya hugged the picture frame tightly, shedding all her tears for the umpteenth time.

...

Kiya was waiting for Zidan in the living room, she wanted to welcome her husband as usual with a smiling face, the cooking was also prepared, just waiting for Zidan to come home.

not long after the door of the house opened, Kiya immediately stood up to Zidan, reaching for his hand to salimi, and,

"Yeah zi work a lot, your face looks tired" Kiya followed behind, Kiya tau Zidan will definitely ignore it, but Kiya did not give up on it.

"some time yes zi, I prepared the warm water first" Zidan paid no heed to it, just nodded the man no, the man loosened the tie that was suffocating his neck, he said, looking at Kiya's back which was now inside the bathroom.

"zi has, take a shower, the water will be cold, I go down first ready for the food" Zidan went into the bathroom, closed the bathroom door hard enough after Kiya came out of there.

"Astaghfirullah, zidaan" Kiya again could only wipe her rumbling chest in shock.