It's Not You I Want

Mother substitute

"dad today to be at Auntie Zila's house right"

"yes son, this is dad again ready your stuff "

"yeyeyeye, meet Auntie zila" Azizah ran to and fro, circling her room, looking zidan smiling at the adorable behavior of the princess

Azizah and Zila have more ties than just ponakan and aunt, zila became a surrogate mother for Azizah, because the age of her son and Azizah is only one year, because the age of Azizah is only one year, Azizah already considers zila like her own mother, by coming to the house of zila is the thing that Azizah is very much looking forward to.

"zah, this is not brought"

Zidan holds a green doll

"emm, yep yeah, that one too" Zizah pointed to one pink doll beside her father

"this is also the father, this same, ah again, this is also "Zidan refuted his eyes as if surprised by the behavior of his son

"honey, we want to nginep not want to move house son" Azizah swayed her body misbehaved, with a white doll in her hand

"Yes, the pink father should not be brought, but bring a Barbie doll that you bought yesterday"

Zidan finally resigned, provided his daughter was happy

they only stayed one day, but Azizah brought a suitcase of her own contents, not using the contents but toys and dolls of various kinds

"this is it first, I want to make the veil first"

"dad's son is so beautiful, so smart, beautiful, submissive, and a little spoiled" Zidan smiled with his hands busy tidying his son's hair out of his hijab

"zizah looks like mom, right?"

"iyaa, zizah looks like a mother, beautiful"

"yeah"!!!

"yes, dear dad why son?

"Why did mom go to leave us?'

Zidan lowered his hand from the top of the princess's head, the man looked down deeply, a question he had always avoided from the child, puzzled as to what it was like to explain to his daughter about Zaskia leaving because of her attitude

"yeah"!!!

"i-iya, baby"

"why do you go well, why don't you stay with us at home, Zizah kangen mother, said friend of zizah friend if Zizah-s-s mother has been called god" the little girl looked down, Zidan clasped Azizah's little fingers

"son, can't say that, baby, I still have ko, I just went for a while"

"kalo mom has not died Why mom left us, mom already does not love us anymore well, mom does not love the same Zizah ya, mom does not like the same zizah ya, ya, until we're in the gini"

"Azizah" Zidan scolded, not in a snapping tone, It's just that the pressure is clearly visible in each sentence

"sorry" Azizah left the zidan, the man rubbed his face rough, he knew something was wrong,

"zizah, son" zizah Don't care and keep running out

the little girl went into her father's room, picture frame on the nightstand she took, zizah sat on the edge of the bed, rubbing a photo of Zaskia who looks so beautiful in the picture frame

"momu, zha kangen same mother, zha want same mother, zha want to be delivered to school same mother, zha also want rich friends zha, every day among her mother, zha wants to be born, zha wants to play in the park with mom, zha wants mom to accompany zha memorize "Azizah is crying again, in her hug tightly frame the photo

"momu "weep that poor girl

Zidan sat down next to his daughter, grabbing the little body into his arms

....

Along the way, a car that is usually boisterous with stories or chants of the Holy Quran from Azizah, now the situation is different, the car is quiet, Azizah prefers to keep looking out along the way

maybe he was upset with his father earlier

"zizah wants to buy something, don't you want ?"

Azizah shook her head

"want to buy cotton candy?"

the little girl returned

"want to buy zizah's favorite burning pentol"

"dad, zizah doesn't want anything, zizah wants to see Auntie Zila anyway"

Zidan understood his son's feelings now, but Zidan was not angry at his son's attitude

..

Assalamualaikum" said zidan while holding his son

it didn't take long for the door to open

"waalaikumsallam" Daffa who opened the door, Daffa shook his brother-in-law's hand, he also helped Zidan carry his luggage

"get in and, zila in the kitchen is not horrified so it does not come out" zidan tailed behind Daffa

"Tante zilaa, zha kangen" Zizah stretched her hand at the zila who had just come out of the kitchen, the zila smiled and took over the zizah from her Brother's sling

"Tante is also very kangen zha, this beautiful Aunt's son" zila kissed the cheek of her fat ponakan

"so much innate want to spend a week yaa" zila smiled girly, he was happy of course clear, zidan with his busyness difficulty making Zizah meet her, this is the first time after 2 months they met, Zizah, zila also had difficulty visiting her brother's house, because Daffa was also busy.

"it's all just Zil dolls, clothes only there are 2 pairs of doang" zidan sat his butt next to Daffa

"asyaallah son Aunt funny, Aunty has fun in thought to want to spend a week, uh taunya just a day doang"

"dad said tomorrow I have to go home Auntie, I also do not ngizinin zha nginep himself"

"yes no papa, zha sat with the father first yes, Aunt wants to prepare lunch first" zizah nodded and came down from the sling of zila

"Account mana"

"Aska play ball nak on the front court, at least go home"

...

"eat that much son" zila scoops the rice into a zizah plate, after her on her own son

"aska also eats a lot of "

"mamah Aska does not like to eat vegetables" Aska grumbled because zila put vegetables on her plate

"vegetables are healthy, son, Aska needs vegetables to be strong "

"but Asia doesn't like maah"

"Aksa" rebuked Daffa

hearing her father's reprimand Aska was silent, forced to eat the vegetables on her plate, Aska was very spoiled by her mother, so there was no fear of her in the least, unlike Daffa, Daffa firmly told her son

"Abang also eats a lot, Brother skinny really"

"Yes" replied zidan as he was

...

Aska , the son of Zila and Daffa, also memorized the Qur'an, Kaka the sister was the same as educating their children to be memorizers of the Qur'an, as their ideals

Aska and Azizah were in Aska's room to take care of each other, while the parents sat in the living room, enjoying a cup of warm tea

Zidan put down the green tea after sipping his tea

"Abang, how?"

"how is Zil?"

"What's the same thing with KIA?"

"maxut your question how the hell Zil, Abang confused, yes Abang , stay together until now"

"Abang, it's been five years loo bang, it's been five years ago KIA left, five years is not a short time Loh bang, we've been looking here and there looking for mbak Kiya, Kiya, but not a little bit we find traces of the KIA"

"Dragon"

Zidan leaned his body against the back of the chair, massaging his temple which suddenly throbbed

"Abang needs a companion, Abang needs someone on the side of Abang as a reinforcement, see the situation Abang now, not to take care of rich gini, the father of the same mother is also sad to see the condition of Brother, brother, zizah also needs to love me a bang mother"

"Zil" zidan stared inside his sister's face

"well, don't discuss this anymore, Brother is tired of Zil, Brother will continue to look for Zaskia, although in the end Brother only found his name written on the tombstone" zidan stopped for a moment, although in the end he only found his name written on the tombstone, it is too heavy to continue his words

"Abang" zila feels guilty for wanting her brother back on the matter

"zil, you never give up looking for your wife, wherever and whenever, you believe, Zizah will certainly understand someday, he said, until anytime zila will not find a replacement for Zaskia in the life of Abang "

"Abang" zila hugged Brother feeling guilty making his brother sad