It's Not You I Want

Darling

Zidan POV's

the presence was like a dream for me, the figure in front of me was still difficult for me to believe, five years we separated because of the mistakes I made, I ignored his feelings and more concerned with the woman in the care of my best friend, no matter how she went through her five years of solitude, fighting her illness alone, she was the greatest woman after my mother I have ever met in this world.

I loved him so much, loved him as sincerely, though sometimes I was wrong in expressing it

"Zaskia" hearing the gentle call, Zaskia turned her head, staring at the puzzled zidan who was standing with teary eyes

"zi..." Zidan hugged his wife so tightly, his cries breaking on Zaskia's shoulders

"zii, Why"

"i don't dream, this states, you are really in front of me now" Zaskia put down the vegetable spoon she had been holding, her hand held back in zidan's arms

"no dream zii, it's me Zaskia"

"don't go away from my life again, I can't without you, sorry because my attitude has always hurt you, both physically and your heart, Kii"

"i'm disappointed in you, but I know for a fact that you're much more disappointed in my attitude, my rude attitude, my cold attitude, sorry I'm Kii, sorry"

"ziii. don't get rich gini, you make me feel more guilty zii" zidan took off his arms, in his eyes in the face of the woman he so longed for.

"don't blame yourself Ki, I was wrong, you left because of my attitude, I'm sorry"

"already zi, do not apologize again" this time Zaskia who first hugged zidan, leaning her head on the chest of the man's field. Zidan replied with a hand rubbing his wife's head

"i love you Ki, what a pity "

"me too"

"FATHER IBUUUUU" the little girl's cry made the two of them let go of her embrace

"ibuuuu" azizah ran over to her mother, quickly Zaskia catching the small body into her trunk

"sadly ibuu"

"mommyuu home"

"yes, son, I'll stay with us here, won't I ?" Zidan looked expectantly at Zaskia

"i'm sorry, can't now, son, I have to go home to where mom used to be, a lot of which I have to take care of dear "the smile that was engraved beautifully on the face of zidan faded, a lot of which I have to take care of dear, the cry of the Son grew, hearing that his mother could not live with them

"why Buu, azizah not naughty ko, Azizah will not disturb mother, will not make mother sad, azizah promise Buu"

"honey.... " Zaskia looked at Zidan who did not take her eyes off her

"why Kii?"

"we eat first yaa, mother has cooked good food for Zizah" Zaskia tried to divert the uncomfortable atmosphere between them, Azizah who innocently nodded and asked in the carrying of the mother

"the mother's son turned out to be very spoiled gini-rich" Zaskia walked over to the zidan who was fluttering in his place, she thought everything was done, to the misunderstanding between herself and the wife was over, but why Zaskia still can't stay with them, what's wrong.

"here's the bribe mom "

"delicious, zizah likes" Aziza nodded with her mouth full, happy to be in the feeding box for the first time with her mother

"eat a lot of yes son, mother will make delicious dishes every day for zizah "

"promise ma'am"

"iyaa the jewel of his heart" mother"

...

"assalamualaikum"

"waalaikumsallam" Zaskia kissed her husband's hand, the long veil she had put back, the bag was ready on the table

"where are you going Ki"

"i want to go home" zidan frowned

"home?"

"iyaa, it's night, I have to go home"

"why?, this is your house, our house, here is your husband and son, you want to go home Where, Kii, do not go again, I beg you" a clear sigh from the woman sounded, he walked over, scattering into Zidan's arms

"i miss the same fragrance, the fragrance that has always been my opium, ever since you were angry, I can rarely hug you like this, when I tried it you first moved away and gave some distance, although I forced you to be angry and yelled at, but after I got pregnant Aziza you started to change, slowly.... I'm starting to get back my old zidan, problems re-emerge in our household, you get the trust to take care of your best friend's wife, stupidly I think you're cheating on me, not to mention the deadly disease that I suffered, I was afraid, afraid to go far from you, but in fact I was the one who chose to go alone from your life, even though you are my life, my world" Zaskia looked up at Zidan's face, her outstretched hand rubbing her husband's face

"give me a moment to accept everything, it's not easy for me to go back to the past I've left behind for five years zii, just give me a little time" Zidan sighed, in her hug again Zaskia was so tight, her eyes closed, Zaskia could feel the head bobble from zidan

"no, I don't want you to go anymore, I'm sorry Kii, I know I was wrong, I'm selfish, I've hurt you, and now I realize I can't do it without you Kii, Kii, I beg you not to go again, I beg you" the man shrieked in his wife's arms

....

Zidan did not let Zaskia step in the slightest from inside his house, until Zaskia finally relented, the woman had just finished cleaning herself, even zidan was guarding her in front of the bathroom door

"o Allah zii, you are all, I will not go, I have promised"

"i want your mastiin to always be in front of my eyes Kii"

"don't overdo zii, emm, our son Siyapa who picked up "

"today azizah did not come home, he took a trip in the boarding school, tomorrow afternoon, I just picked him up again"

"emm" Zaskia walked past the zidan who was still sitting on the edge of the bed, his hands in strangles, pulled a bit hard, until Zaskia sat on the lap of Zidan

"zidaaaaan "saddened Zaskia with the level of zidan, while the man showed a smile at the annoyance of his wife

"you are so beautiful Kii"

"i am a pretty Zii"

"and tonight is a little different" Zidan landed a kiss on his wife's forehead

"you smell I like" Zidan smelled in the scent of Zaskia's body on his lap

"tomorrow the mother father wants to go home, they miss you very much Kii" the smile that had looked beautiful on Zaskia's face faded, zidan could see the change in his wife's face

"you why Ki, you don't want to meet them, you don't miss them "

"i miss them very much zii, I'm just confused what should I say If they ask me where I'm going, what's the reason for my departure zii, I have to answer what?"

"believe Kii, they love you, they won't blame your decision Kii"

"but i... "

"it's not necessary to discuss anymore, Now I don't want to discuss anything first, I want us to spend time after a long time" Zidan again showed his naughty smile.

"you want nothing zii"

"i want you, baby "