It's Not You I Want

Hard choices

...There are times when we sacrifice everything for the happiness of others, instead of wanting to be stupid just that we know the limits....

Kiya waited for zidan to come home as usual, because zidan had previously said he would go home early as the day before, Kiya had prepared him breakfast and was waiting in the living room.

while in the hospital, Zidan was still waiting for alesha to wake up, the woman was still lying weakly on her bed, her face was pale eloquently, zidan became increasingly guilty of feeling negligent to keep alesha.

But on the other hand he also has an obligation, Kiya is pregnant with their child, Kiya also needs his presence, in the rubbing of his face rough before moving from there.

actually Zidan wanted to wait for alesha until the woman realized, but Zidan had promised Kiya would go home in the morning, forced zidan to leave the woman, later he could come back again after seeing Kiya

"i go home first yes sha, later I come again, I hope you understand my difficult situation"

...

Assalamualaikum

"waalaikumsallam" Kiya welcomes zidan as usual, welcomes the helping hand of zidan, kisses the back of Zidan's hand, Kiya also helps the zidan carry his luggage, and, and do not forget the sincere smile Kiya always showed on her sweet face.

"definitely tired yaa zi"

"emm"

"want to take a shower or eat ?"

"shower first"

"i'll prepare the hot water first"

"emm" Kiya's arm in the strangle of zidan, the woman stopped her steps, she turned to look at Zidan in wonder

"why zii"

zidan shook his head eroding their distance slowly, zidan gently rubbed his wife's increasingly thin face.

At the uniting of his lips with the ranum lips belonging to the wife, initially Just sticking together, then Zidan began to do more, his hands had entered behind the clothes that Kiya used, and then Zidan began to do more, rubbing the woman's back was abstract.

Zidan took off their link because he felt his wife needed oxygen.

sure enough, Kiya scooped up the oxygen violently, Zidan gently rubbed the ranum lips belonging to kiya, hugging the Woman so tightly, Zidan kissed the shoots of Kiya's head repeatedly

"i miss you Ki, sorry two nights I can't keep you at home, I'm doing a lot of work, hopefully you can understand my situation Ki"

"iyaa zi, I understand, you're busy, I understand you"

"i can't promise tonight I can get you again Ki"

"that's max"

"i think I'm nginep at a friend's house again, there's still a lot of work to be done "Zidan breaks his arms, looks at him in the face of the wife, who is bowed lethargic hearing his words, he said, really Zidan did not have the heart to see it, he really wanted to always be there for Kiya in her pregnancy, but on the other hand he also had other responsibilities, he said, there are pregnant women also in other places who now need more attention.

"zii, it's really good, today's the weekend, you can go in the morning, keep the night home"

Zidan shook his head

"why? it's more important to you than me and your son"

"If I could , I would continue to be there for you Ki and our son "

"just why, how hard it is for you to go this morning and come home tonight, I just want you to be there for me at night, I want to hug you, does that matter divide your busy time zii "

"IYAAAA" Zidan again yelled at Kiya, as strongly as possible zidan held back who had been provoked when Kiya started the debate

Zidan did not want to do this, but circumstances forced him, circumstances asked him to do the opposite of his wishes.

"IF I COULD HAVE CHOSEN YOU WITH HIM, I WOULD HAVE CHOSEN YOU KII, RATHER THAN DIAAA"

Zidan gulped his hard-earned salivary, he was oblivious, what he had just said came out just like that, was too complicated Situas that the man had to deal with.

"D__he, __i__iya my work piled up "

"why not be honest anyway zi" inner kiya

pain back Kiya get to hear the clasping Zidan, the woman kindly wanted to continue her steps that had been delayed with her head lowered, but again Zidan held her back, the man hugged himself from behind, Zidan drowned his face in the neck of his wife.

"can't Kii, I hope you want to understand my situation, I don't mean I did something I can't do, I don't want to leave you, but I can what , I can , I have no choice, I have other responsibilities

Kiya closed her eyes hearing Zidan's words, like a sword was drawing out her heart

Kiya Just shut up with a feeling of tightness

"so love you with his zi, until there is no time with me, but why, why when I was pregnant you just acted like this, why not from the beginning, why not from the beginning, not that the woman is pregnant too, surely you guys have been in a relationship for a long time, but why is it that only now you are rich in gini, when I was pregnant, too, it should have been from the beginning so that I could understand your difficult situation "it was all just stuck in Kiya's mind, he was unable to reveal everything in front of Zidan

all Kiya did was nod in resignation, rubbing the back of the man's hand.

...

Kiya prepared a warm tea for her husband who is now sitting in the living room, Kiya took a seat after placing the tea glass in front of Zidan.

"In drink zii tea, the cold will not taste good anymore

"emm"

"zii"

"apaa" zidan was still busy with the flat object in his hand

"when you have time for me, I really want to spend time outside with you zii"

"don't know Ki, I'm still busy, I can't promise when"

"After ko zii, I'm tired at ter__"

"i said I'm busy, don't make me, don't make my head more dizzy, you can't understand my situation now "

Kiya again just nodded, with her lower lip biting to hold tightness in her heart, Kiya was used to get a Zidan snap but now she knows what the clash was because of, what, Zidan prefers his other woman than himself, really sick more than usual

the man's breath was clear, zidan watched the wife's back leaving with a feeling of disappointment.

"argggh"

"why so gini anyway"

...

Zidan erodes his distance with Kiya, the woman sleeping behind him.

Zidan coiled his hands around the wife's slender waist, his hands rubbing the surface of Kiya's stomach which was still flat.

"In the future we become parents, I hope we can be more mature in addressing our household problems"

"had I been to Kanakan?"

Kiya did not accept what zidan said, maybe because of the factor of pregnancy, the woman was more easily provoked by his emotions.

"during this time you who are often angry are not clear to me, continue to be tight Kanakan which you mean "

"You're why Ki, Banget's sensi, I'm not saying you're the. Childish Kanakan, I'm telling you, why you're the one with the emotion "

"don't know ah zii, I'm tired of not arguing first, it's enough that below, now I want to rest for a while "