It's Not You I Want

fear

"ZILAAAAAA" with sweat-filled forehead, falling tears, hunting breath, the dream that Daffa had just experienced__ as if real happened, not waiting for his heart rhythm to return to normal __Daffa rushed back to the hospital, fear increasingly enveloped Daffa came to see his parents who strengthened each other.

"yes, why"

"come in, son, mamah sure zila strong woman"

with a feeling of fear, Daffa quickly opened the zila's outpatient, in the zila alone, with various aids to keep him breathing.

"myang"

"don't gini dong, let me know you're strong, you ain't seen our son, you don't want to talk to us for our son yaa"

"hemm"

Daffa bit his lower lip, holding back the tightness that increasingly filled the recesses of his heart, daffa lowered his head unable to see the state of his wife

"Da___daffa" faintly Samar Daffa heard the warm call again

At the lift of his head, the first thing he saw __zila who had opened his eyes, the corner of zila's eyes let out tears

"i am aware" Daffa ran to find a health worker to check on his wife, while the zila in check__ Daffa and his family waited outside, happy cries they could not bear anymore

Daffa was spared from prayer, he continued to offer praise and prayers to the creator for his wife

not long after the health worker came out and asked Daffa to come in

"Daffa"

"zilla"

"our son where daf"

"it's a pity __he's not papa"

zila breathes a sigh of relief

Daffa approached sitting beside the zila, left hand.zila he held tightly, his tears dripped again, whether what the tears mean, to the part or regret, for neglect to care for the wife

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"Daffa why are you crying"

"sorry I wasn't there when you needed me, sorry I didn't have time for you to get sick, sorry I couldn't be the perfect husband for you"

"why, by the way, you're the best husband for me, I'm bleeding it's basically me being careless not you"

Daffa shook his head, then hugged the zila, spilling all his tears on the shoulder of the zila, weakly rubbing the sobbing back of Daffa

"i'm also afraid when I see blood coming out, I'm afraid I can't survive but God wills otherwise, I'm still given a chance to take care of our baby with you"

....

the condition of the zila is getting better, today the doctor has set him home, zila sits cross-legged while giving breast milk to her little daughter, while Daffa tidied zila clothes into a bag

"from the aska***** continue yes Zil"

"iyaa daf, rich she thirsty Banget" kekeh zila while staring at the face of the baby

Daffa sat down in front of the zila, making an annoyed face, as if the baby had taken all the attention of his wife

"you're why daf"

"from that time you observed Aksa, I was observed".

"you're jealous of your son daf"

Daffa did not answer he went back down ', continued his work

"masaa is jealous of her own son daf"

"not jealous babe just all over"

"why safety"

" tau ah Zil"

annoyed with Daffa, Zila chuckled even more

....

"assalamualaikum" said Daffa after opening the door of their house, Daffa helped the zila to sit down, after which Daffa returned to take goods in the car.

"good-looking son of mama"

"yes Aksa laper again son, yesaa lapeer"

the little baby was yawning in a sling of zila

" mama's son sleepy turns out. ,iyaaa sleepy son"

zila was a little troubled to stand up, she almost fell down, Fortunately aja daffa quickly restrained her body