It's Not You I Want

Go away

..."Let's end it all, let's end this fake relationship, let's get it all done here"...

The quarrel that happened yesterday afternoon with Daffa really made Zila feel depressed, it hurt when considered a cheap woman.

Long thought__ zila finally decided to calm down a few days to her parents' house in Bandung, Bandung, zila was just afraid that continuing to fight with Daffa would have bad consequences with her content let alone zila emotions that the end of this is not controlled.

zila contacted Hana to ask for help, convey her license to the office, maybe some days zila can not work first

"*assalamualaikum Han"

"waalaikumsallam Zil, why"

"gw can't ask for help"

"can __ why not"

"maybe next 1 week I let you work first han"

"why Zil , you're sick"

"no Han, I want to go to Bandung "

"loh has arrived"

"yes, I miss my mother, I have not met for a long time"

"Lo no more problems Zil"

"engga Han, I just wanted to meet my parents"

"Lo ya Zil's boy"

"don't go alone"

"don't joke Zil, Lo to bandung himself, not funny Zil"

"no Han, I'm serious, Daffa can not nganter gw, he's a lot of work in the hospital, I can not make him"

"indeed Daffa can not permit for a moment, I want to interven"

"do Han, I can go alone ko"

"but Lo is pregnant with Zil"

"ga papa, do not worry, Lo enough to make a permit gw, because I gw ga sepet make "

"Lo really ain't papa kan Zil"

"yahoo Han"

"ok, if you have arrived in Bandung do not forget to tell me"

" and until in salam Iw to Aunt Sama om "

"yama"

"ok, it's Zil, it's I have to send a file "

"yes, thanks han"

"iyaa, assalamualaikum, heart of heart"

" monasam*"

zila tekat is round, zila is going to Bandung to calm his mind, zila has also prepared his clothes, not all zila bring , zila does not intend to run away just want to calm down.

zila stood in front of the mirror staring at the soft reflection of her face.zila smiled bitterly

zila waited for Daffa to leave for the new hospital after her zila would also leave, zila was just unable to see Daffa's face for now.

Exactly at 9 am zila out of the apartment dragging her mini suitcase, before her zila had booked a taxi to take her to the station.it took approximately 4 hours for garbage to Bandung, Bandung, upon arrival at Badung zila back to take a taxi to get to his house, before his zila stopped by for a while to pray Zuhur also filled his stomach.

it took 30 minutes finally zila arrived at his home, zila's smile never faded from his face.

zila knocked on the door 2, impatient to meet the 2 people she missed so much.

"Zilla"

"mother" zila slumped into the embrace of the mother, in reply with a warm embrace , Hearing that the coming is the zila Princess, Ali the father also came out

"father" zila took off Farah's embrace and hugged Ali,

his parents were amazed by the arrival of zila alone, in a state of pregnancy__ zila traveled far alone

"Where are your husbands" asked Farah

"Mas Daffa did not join Bun, zila himself, daffa mas much work "zila was forced to lie, where maybe the zila was honest with the problems that befell him, he said, if Zila was honest the reason for her return was not what her mother and father had reacted to

"And you're here by yourself son" asked Ali

"yes, yeah"

"Gosh, why don't you, let me pick you up"

"let's just suprise" zila smiled sincerely

"but danger dear, you are pregnant, the journey is far "

"ga papah Bun, the proof is Alhamdulillah zila arrived safely"

Farah and Ali can only resign with the behavior of her daughter

"ayoo go in, shower , eat , keep resting"

zila came in and grabbed the father's arm

..

Finished cleaning himself__ zila lay down her crumpled body on the bed, her eyes looked at the sky of the room with a blank look.

Without excuse zila returned to shed her tears when she remembered Daffa's words that hurt her feelings.

Zila wiped her tears with the back of her hand, Zila regained her senses when she returned to Bandung to calm down instead of remembering painful things

"Zila eat first, son"

"iyaa Bun"

.....

while in Jakarta, Daffa had just returned from the hospital, Daffa stared at his apartment which was still dark, usually zila had turned on the lights at this hour, like this,

"has he not come home yet" Inner Daffa

Daffa heeded his shoulders indifferently and walked to the 2nd floor .

finish cleaning yourself__ Daffa go down again to make dinner.

finished with his cooking, Daffa began to worry because the zila had not yet returned, and Daffa just remembered that in the Daffa parking lot saw the zila motorbike parked neatly there that the zila sign did not work.

but if the zila in the house where the zila, from earlier Daffa did not see the zila then Lalang as usual

Daffa grew increasingly alarmed and went upstairs to make sure the zila was in the room, which Daffa knew his wife would not dare to wander around until nightfall

"Zilla"

"you're inside"

"zila, open the door"

"zila, open it, before I break the door"

there was no Answer from the inside, Daffa slowly opened the door of the zila room which turned out to be unlocked

Daffa was made even more worried because zila was not in his room.

"zilaa" cried Daffa

Daffa thought it might be zila in the bathroom

"zila you're inside"

"answer me zila"

don't ask how worried Daffa is right now,

Daffa reached for the phone in his pocket intending to call Zila, Daffa forgot that during this time Daffa never kept the zila number on his phone.

so foreign is the zila in Daffa's life

"zilaa, where are you"

Daffa rubbed his face rough

The thought of Daffa had drifted everywhere, how could zila ride on public transport to the office so his motorbike was in the parking lot, and now maybe the zila was on the way.

Daffa again went down to sit in the guest chair waiting for Zila's return.

Daffa waited almost 10pm and Zila did not come

"you where Zil is"

Daffa recalled their quarrel yesterday,

"is he serious about his words, no__impossible"

mumbling Daffa

"what could he possibly be going back to Bandung"

"but if zila is right to bandung__"

Daffa quickly ran to the second floor opening the door of the zila room quite hard, Daffa opened the zila closet, Daffa saw some empty zila clothes hangers, plus his mini suitcase was also absent, Daffa now believes that zila really went back to Bandung"

"AKKKHH" Daffa rubbed his face violently

"have I been late until my wife left"

"forgive me Zil"

.......

Zila woke up from her sleep, zila felt that something was falling on her stomach

zila's raised hand touched her stomach, not playing how shocked the zila was after her hand came into contact with the burly hand that was coiled around her Stomach

"ayaaaaaahhhhhh" scorching Zila

"noroooooooooo"

Daffa who was shocked to hear the zila screams immediately got up and sat on the bed

"quiet zilaa __this me"

zila's eyeballs can't believe, what she's dreaming or what

"Daffa" the inner zila, the zila position is still turned against Daffa

"This zila is me" Daffa flipped the zila's body to face him

"Daffa"

"yes, it's me"

zila stood up and got off the bed

"why are you here"

the flashback

Daffa ventured to contact her in-laws, though,

"assalamualaikum mother"

"yes son"

"Mother what zila is there"

"iya son, zila did not tell you if he wanted to go to Bandung, he said you were busy so he could not send him to Bandung"

"ahh, yes Bun Daffa just want mastiin zila has arrived Bun"

"yes son, thank God zila has arrived safely"

"yeah Bun don't tell zila if Daffa calls"

"so that's kid"

"Daffa wants to follow zila to bandung"

"when's son, not that you're busy"

"tonight Bun, Daffa will first get permission from the hospital"

"tomorrow son, it's night"

"but Daffa can't have Zila Bun"

Farah smiled at her daughter-in-law's words, so unfortunately Daffa with her son to be willing to follow her to Bandung

"yeah, you heart in the way, son"

.

"iya Bun, assalamualaikum"

"navaloupe"

not knowing what was on Daffa's mind that night, after putting some clothes in a bag, Daffa quickly took care of the permission to the hospital to take a few days off.

after her quickly, Daffa drove his car to quickly get to his in-laws' house 4 hours or so Daffa on the road and now in front of the zila house

zila's mother welcomed Daffa warmly, not much trite, because Daffa had told Farah before, Farah asked Daffa to rest immediately , Farah could see fatigue on her daughter-in-law's face.

"Daffa come in first, Bun"

"yes son"

Daffa watched the sleeping zila.

the hand of Daffa stretched out tidying the zila hair behind the ears.

"I'm sorry Zil"

Daffa also joined sleeping beside the zila, Tired of it

the flashback

.....

"Why are you here too" asked Zila to Daffa after explaining everything

"can't I go to my in-laws' house"

zila took a rough breath and sat on the edge of the bed against Daffa.

"Why go home alone, you can say let me deliver"

"Sleep you must be tired"

lazy arguing__ zila diverts the conversation

Zila stood up from her seat, intending to go out, but her steps came to a halt because Daffa blocked her hand

"Where are you going"

"want to sleep"

"Where you sleep"

"in Zidan's mas room, you can sleep here"

"Sleep here, I promise to keep the boundaries"

"No need, let me sleep in Zidan's mas room"

"Don't be stubborn if you see how dad sees"

Zila resigned and finally put her body back to sleep on the bed, but with her back to Daffa, Daffa smiled and went to sleep next to the zila, who was at the end of the bed,

"I'm sorry, you must be surprised"

"My heart is almost in the same position as the kidneys"

Daffa smiled, thinking that zila was very funny

"I didn't mean to surprise you"

"forget it" replied the short zila

Daffa positioned himself facing the zila, looking at the woman's back,

Daffa was sound in his sleep while zila until now could not sleep, not only felt foreign to the presence of Daffa at his side but also his waist that felt so painful

Zila got off the bed, grabbed the glass she had previously placed on the nightstand,

after her zila went back to sleep, this time she was the one facing Daffa who was sleeping on her back.

zila stared at Daffa,

"you're evil daf"

"you're outrageous"

"i hate you daf, hate you"

"do you know I love you so much__ Hem, I love you daf"

"why not tell me you hate this match, if you say from the beginning we don't need to be tied up in this fake relationship"

"it's not just me who's hurt because of your attitude, I know for sure you're also very hurt"

"you can be happy with other women out there, I can forget all about you daf"

"but what now___we are equally hurt, I hurt because of your attitude, you hurt because you have to live with me"

"but why did you even agree to marry me, and make me judge you like a bad man because of your attitude towards me"

"you also make me sin because as a wife I always raise my voice to you, why daf"

"i'm tired, if our relationship like this continues, I think our relationship will improve after our baby touts but in fact I'm wrong" inner zila

One drop of zila tears came out without excuse, out drenched in zila's cheeks, quickly Zila wiped away her tears and turned her back to Daffa again.

.....

"So you go home tomorrow son" asked Farah

"iya Bun, daffa can not take a long vacation because Daffa ask for leave of absence from the hospital, Dafa just ask permission"

Farah nodded in understanding

"Kalo zila"

"zila stay here Bun"

Daffa turned his gaze towards the zila, his gaze as if saying "why?"

"Still miss mama yaah"

"iyaaa" replied the delighted zila

"kangen dad too"

"father's children are still spoiled, even though there is already a husband, want to be a mother-to-be again"

"Yaa ga papa kali yah" said Farah

zila just smiled at her mother's defense

"Too at home like this is also ga daf"

Daffused what to answer, he was not close to zila and now Dafa only knows if zila is very spoiled for his parents

Daffa simply nodded and scratched his non-itchy nape

zila just smiled smirks

"You are patient, daf, ngadapin zila, from a small zila his son is spoiled"

"iyaa __kan zila was just spoiled to a certain person aja Bun, the same mother's father and Abang Zidan"

"sama Daffa engga son, the daffa nodded when I asked"

Daffa and Zila looked at each other

"iyaa__my dear father, Dee has not discussed zila continues to be not in the mood to eat it"

"the mother's child is so easy to feel right now, Daffa who is patient yes if zila is often angry with you, pregnant people are like that, son, the mood changes quickly, he said, his emotions are up and down unstable

"iya Bun" answered Daffa briefly, confused to answer in addition to assuring.

"how many more lies daf"

"how much longer do I have to keep pretending like this" Inner zila