It's Not You I Want

Ill

"It could not be a day just do not make me cry, a dayii ajaa' said Kiya lirih

"i've told you that if you can't, please __please go I won't forbid" Zidan said lightly staring at the cold woman sitting in front of him

"I also do not do anything to you, you are too late crybaby"

"a little bit cry, a little bit cry, not tired crying, I'm tired of seeing you cry"

, Kiya wiped her tears, stared at the ceiling of the room holding back her tears from flowing, Kiya went back to sleep back to Zidan

"i will not leave your life zi, I will not surrender with all your attitude to me, except the destiny willed, the destiny that will separate us, then I give up " kiya squeezed the blanket she used, closing her eyes withstanding the excruciating tightness

"where that day comes, I can no longer try to stay by your side, I will give up, because it is no longer my will but the will of fate, so stop asking me to leave, he said, because I'll never leave just because of your rude attitude"

"whatever" said zidan

"I hope you never regret your words"

"never will "zidan change his position against Kiya

..

the next morning, Kiya can be sweet again to Zidan, as if there was never a fight last night, Kiya smiled welcome Zidan again, preparing all the needs of Zidan, Kiya smiled, making breakfast _when he has no taste at all to eat.

"zi I'm gonna let you out today"

"where are you going"

"emm, meet a friend"

"emm, you have a friend, not just me, who wants to be close to you "answer Zidan with a condescending smile

"Iyaa, a time friend at the parlour "Kiya tried as patiently as possible to respond to Zidan

"ohhh"

"Why not eat" asked Zidan again after putting a spoonful of food in his mouth.

"again no taste, eat a lot of zi, see you eat just to make me happy" Kiya never stop looking at her husband with the corner of her lips formed a smile

"Sweety of you"

"if I'm pregnant you want to excuse me I'm not zi, will you pay attention to me again" Zidan raised one eyebrow confused, with the words of his wife.

"Yes__ya depends"

"loh ko depends, yes clearly zi answer"

"you didn't get pregnant first?, didn't you?, yeah don't have anything of the sort,. Live properly" Kiya grabbed Zidan's hand to hold

"like zi"

"how do you want me to be rich?, want me to be rich first?"

Kiya nodded enthusiastically

"never, I'll never be a wealthy zidan, a zidan who loves a woman without caring for her faults"

Kiya nodded back, smiled smirkingly then said

"yeah, I don't have a papa, if I already know the answer, so I don't have to expect anything else to you"

Kiya stood up, tidying up the plate of the former eating zidan, the man was still there, he stared flatly at the woman in front of him.

"i went assalamualaikum "

"waalaikumsallam, zi heart"

..

Every morning Kiya was never absent to perform Dhuha prayers, she hoped that all the activities carried out by her husband were launched, there were no obstacles.

after Kiya prepared to see an obstetrician, Kiya did like to apply makeup __initially, but now Kiya never again do his hobby, since stopped working Kiya never again apply makeup, Kiya never again, he only uses products that can protect his face from sunscreen in added lip-brushing.

Kiya was still sitting in front of her makeup mirror, she was staring in her face, her eyes were sad, Kiya opened her desk drawer, she took an envelope with a hospital bribe there

Kiya squeezed the envelope, her chest was getting crowded just to see the envelope, Kiya ventured to open the contents of the envelope.

With a trembling hand kiya read the letter, her tears fell after reading the contents of her letter, the oxygen supply seemed to thin in the air,

the harsh reality he got from checking himself some time ago while still in Korea.

Kiya inhaled a gluttonous air, she wiped her tears, in her crumbs back the letter and the envelope until it changed shape into a blob, Kiya put her letter into the bag, and she put it in the bag, before standing up Kiya took a moment to smile in front of the mirror.

"Can I, you can do it" the woman muttered alone

...

After waiting for quite a while Now it is Kiya's turn to come in, Kiya is welcome to lie down on the cot

Kiya does not stop being grateful to see the results, she is really pregnant, the age of her womb has only walked two weeks, still very small is also vulnerable.

Kiya was given medication to reduce her nausea.

"Mbak don't mind a lot first yes, don't stress, reduce heavy work"

"yes doc thanks"

"yes, congratulations again"

"yeah"

after seeing obstetrician Kiya also met Neuro-oncology.

Neuro-oncologist who specializes in tumors or cancer of the brain or spinal cord.

yes __right, Kiya in the diagnosis of end-stage brain cancer, she herself also only knew 2 months before returning to Indonesia, Kiya did often feel pain in her head , but he ignored the pain, until he ventured to check his condition and the harsh reality he got, Kiya was diagnosed with terminal brain cancer.

after discussing with an expert doctor, Kiya finally decided to prescribe the drug, of course, the drug is safe for her to consume during pregnancy, the cost of treatment for the disease is too expensive, too expensive, Kiya could not bear, his savings were also left a little because they had helped Zidan take care of their move, while the monthly money that zidan gave mana was enough for his medical expenses, he said, Kiya can only give everything to the almighty, if she is given permission to give birth to her child, then Kiya can certainly go through all her, if there is no chance for Kiya, then, so Kiya could not do much other than surrender his decree.

"thank you doc"

...

Kiya walks through every hospital hallway with mixed feelings, she is so happy about the news of her pregnancy but on the other hand Kiya was afraid of her health

Kiya continued to stare at the results of her USG, a miry smile clearly visible on her face.

"son mom, healthy healthy inside yes son, be a booster for mom and dad"

Kiya rubbed her still flat stomach.

Kiya did not go straight home he chose to spend his time in the park, sitting on a swing with his head leaning on the swing chain, his legs he swayed slowly so that the swing he was sitting on moved.too complicated the problem he was facing, moreover, Kiya had to bear her own without anyone who could be her reinforcement, even her own husband.

Kiya saw a kitten that looks skinny, unkempt, Kiya was so sorry to see the poor kitten, he gave one fish that he had bought for the kitten, Kiya also rubbed the cat's head.

"so bad luck you are cing, eat a lot of yaa"

Hay ges a little note for this chapter, which part of health is purely the result of my own research, and I am also not a child of health, I do not know for sure about the disease, he said, everything I got from Mbah Google, hopefully you can understand.and understand, also make it as entertainment just do not take seriously yes geess, love sekebon.