It's Not You I Want

Final choice

...And in the end I gave up, enduring longer with an unfinished past was painful...

With a zila blank stare walking , already quite far away from his school, his mind drifted everywhere, he no longer paid any heed to his already random appearance.

The pain in his stomach was ignored, the pain was nothing with the pain in his heart.

Zila stopped the taxi to go home to the apartment. His decision was unanimous, parted with Daffa

.....

Daffa hit the steering wheel regretting his actions, many times he contacted Zila's cell phone, unknowingly the phone rang inside his own car.

the woman's words about the zila continued to revolve in her head, she could not imagine what the state of zila was now, Daffa was still trying to rule out all possibilities, Daffa was still hoping nothing happened with his wife.

not finding a zila anywhere, Hana finally headed to Daffa's apartment, hoping that her best friend was resting or eating at home in good condition.

arriving at apartment 2, Zila climbed back up the stairs to get to her room on the 2nd floor, zila pulled out a suitcase larger than before, painstakingly__zila pulled the suitcase down through each rung.

"Son, we go well, don't look for your papah well, we live alone, just be happy papah with Aunt Zahra yes, now you don't need anything else, what else, there are you who always mamah Nemenin, promise yes son" zila rubbed her stomach, zila sat for a while in a chair that Daffa deliberately put in front of the guest room door for zila, Zila, he said anyway let zila if tired immediately can sit, zila smiled miris remembering the words Daffa

zila went back inside the living room room, without removing from her hanging, abaya, long shirt she put randomly into the suitcase, she said, Wedding photo with a small frame on the table he threw until broken hit the wall.

zila's cry broke, she sat on the edge of the bed with both hands covering her face.

I heard the door open quite loudly

"zilla"

"honey__you're home" cried Daffa

zila shut her ears tightly, the sound of Daffa, the dear call of Daffa, really hurt her feelings.

"honey" call Daffa lirih

"don't come closer, one step Lo forward, I'm sure Lo won't be able to see Lo's child for life" Zila stared intently at Daffa, with puffy reddened eyes, the blood at the corner of his lips had dried up, not long Hana, Erik, also Zahra came

Daffa again tried to get closer, but Zila threw a hairdryer lying on the bed toward Daffa

"GUE SAYS DON'T COME ANY CLOSER" Zila pointed at Daffa's face

"sad you're why, what's wrong with you Zil, don't worry mas"

"ARGHHH, IIIIAAMMMMM, "

zila again threw a Monas-shaped display with glass, a gift that Daffa gave to her a few days ago, he threw it on the floor, until the shards hit the back of his leg,

"Zil, calm down, don't be like this"

"GUE HAS SAID THE SAME LO KAN, CEREIN GUE, LO CAN MARRY WITH HIS" Zila pointed to Zahra who stood beside the daffa

"zila" call Hana

"Don't come here Han, wait for me outside yes, I want to go back to Bandung Lo can nganter me"

"iya Zil, I'll be between Lo" hana can no longer afford now, Seeing the condition of the zila is alarming, Hana obeys the words zila, waiting in the living room with Erik

zila continued to stuff her clothes into the bag

"zila" call Zahra

"Zila had often asked for divorce with Daffa because she could not escape mbak, but Daffa did not want to and continued to make promises to the zila, he said, if we separated you would not have to commit such a sin, Zila would not have expected more to Daffa"

"Zila" Daffa's tears fell, with his heart closing in on the zila,

"GUE SAID DON'T COME ANY CLOSER"

"sad this ain't what you think it is"

"Daf, I'm in the slap daf, I don't know what my fault is to him, Lo where daf, Lo where ga dateng make a hedge gw daf, gw wife Lo daf, Lo daf, NOT HIM "

zila pointed to Zahra who was already sitting on the floor, with her hands clenched in front of her chest

"Lo tau no, I'm just as ana Lo starving, but we both can't eat if only two daf, I nyariin lo, and I just see Lo nyuapin other women, daf sick, daf, I swear, I ain't lying sick" Zila hit her chest tight. Daffa tried to grab Zila's hand

zila shows the wound on her hand due to the grip of a seductress at school

"try to see, my hands daf, their nails stick__to the skin gw daf, very sick, Lo can not do his ngobatin"

Daffa stroked the wrists of the blushing zila as well as bled.

" Sit up, let's take medicine"

zila pulled her hand, and put her shirt back in

"no need, I'll take care of our divorce papers" in a flat tone

" zila don't be gini Zil, you misunderstood Zil, Daffa just help mbak" said Zahra

"help by giving comfort to mbak, while I was hurt, IYA__ that's what I mean" Zahra could only shake with tears that welled up

"get calm, after we officially divorced you can get married after her"

"NO, I DON'T WANT US TO DIVORCE"

zila did not care, and in lowering her suitcase with great difficulty, Daffa held back as the zila began to pull her suitcase

"i won't let you go"

"after all, I want to go home, I'll ask you to take care of our divorce papers, Lo just sign it"

"ga, until whenever I won't let you go"

zila collapses back at Daffa, Zila is unable to, too sick if held alone, Daffa approaches zila embracing the zila body into his arms, Zahra comes out letting the zila calm down with Daffa

"zila shouted in between her cries, releasing all the burdens on her mind, with both hands covering her face, zila sobbed, Daffa also could not help but hear the sobbing of zila, Daffa tightened his embrace , rubbing the back of the zila who had gone up and down held back his cries

"devil to Allah" said Zila

"sorry"

"You're in whatever they're ziil"

"the pain that they give ga how much with the pain that Lo love daf, I am ashamed before them, they are right until whenever I will not be able to get love lo daf, I will be, it never will"

Daffa shook his head, sinking his face into the vortex of zila's neck

"No Zil, they're not wrong, they don't understand"