It's Not You I Want

Truth

..."you know what I'm most afraid of? the regret that is defeated will be lost "...

^^^Zidan Fadilah^^^

"Our son's a girl or a zi boy"

"girl, she's pretty like you, she's sweet like you"

"really?" No lie, Zaskia was happy to hear the words of zidan, the man still every hug his wife

"yes, I'm not lying, our son is really copy paste you Ki"

"usually the face of a child will continue to change, tomorrow our child can look like you "

"hemm, why don't you ever tell me, why do you hold your own, why on your own, why never say?"

"What zii story"

"if you are sick, you never even seek treatment as to where it should be because of constrained costs, why Ki, why '

"i never got to the occasion" Zidan raised his face, but his hands still hugged Zaskia, they looked at each other

"We're on medication, I'm sure you'll get well, if we need to get out of the country" Zaskia shook her head with a smile on her face

"No zii, too much for that, mending the money in the canister for our son, rather than having to do this dying me".

Zaskia could feel Zidan's tears wetting her cheeks.

"Son, you can definitely recover I'm sure of it, I'll do anything for you Ki the important thing is you can recover"

"i've already zii, I've given up on this pain, now I can rest easy, because our child is born, you're happy not zii".

"don't you say Kii, jangaaan, you can definitely get well, I'll take you for treatment, I'll work harder for our family"

Zidan changed his position to sit, Zaskia's hand he held tightly.



"no zii, I want to talk to you for a second, I can ask for something "

"what ki, I'll love whatever you want "

"you can go up here no, I want to sleep on your lap "Zidan is still reluctant to move

"zii please "he said the man was sitting on the bed of his wife's care, putting Zaskia's head on his lap, Zidan rubbed the pale face, his tears dripping down his wife's face.

"zii, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm wrong, I admit it, I'm selfish not to share what you said" Kiya breathed in her chest increasingly tight, Zidan was also increasingly worried to see her

"sorry, I've disappointed you, I've broken your trust, I hurt your feelings, but you always lead me to the right path_" Kiya difficulty to continue her words, her breath blocked, she said, eyes looking.

"kiyaaa, don't joke you" Zidan patted Kiya's face briefly

"sorry yes zi, for being tempted by the world thing I__I broke your trust "

"Zii, I love you very much, I love you very much, I love you zii"

"maybe I'm considered the most stupid woman zi, because it persists even though it continues to hurt repeatedly, you ever ask me why I didn't just go , why don't I leave you alone, the answer is only one zi, I don't have a home to go home, I just have you-my husband.

Zaskia took a deep breath before continuing her words.

"zii, take good care of our child yes, educate her to be a Soleh woman like our minds used to be, maybe I can not exist for her"

"YOU SAY WHAT KI IS"

Zidan rubbed Kiya's cheek which was hit by drops of blood from her nasal cavity, while the woman occasionally stared blankly at the front.

"while I pa-call the doctor first, h-your nose bleeds Ki"

Zaskia held the hand of the zidan who wanted to move.

"i beg you this once in a while with me, do not snap me first zi, I have not lasted long , justin I nyelesein my speech, just a moment ko"

"I can't see our son growing up, I can't anymore nyiapin needs you zi, after I don't have to find someone who can accompany you to old age , who can accept you are also our son, Zi,

"you say what the hell ki, don't just say, I call the doctor first, your nose continues to pour Kii's blood"

"No need zi, I have no time, I want to be on your lap in my last second, I want to hug you no, sebentaaar ajaa, I want to be on your lap, I haven't hugged you for a long time, I miss being held in your arms, okay, for a while" Kiya held her husband's waist, her eyes closed, her lips formed a smile, she said,

both of them are silent about their respective minds.

"zi is there a drawer late I keep stuff in the room" zidan nodded

"there is a flash, you open yaa, it's for. you are our child, remember the memories of me for you "

zidan nodded his face, unable to look at Zaskia in front of him.

"zii look at me, you're disgusted at me, until you turn your face like that" with teary eyes Zidan ventured to look at Zidan.

"since when do you get in touch, what child does that woman contain also your child zii?_

Zidan shook his head, his hands outstretched, tidying Zaskia's hair out of the veil.

"it's not that it's not my son, I'm the same he also has nothing to do with it, just because of a promise I've made you give birth on the moon that shouldn't be because of seeing me with her"

"You remember Azam?"

"Azam?"

"iya Azam my best friend in High School "

"iyaa zi I remember, Azam who never Liked to see me close to you, because I**** in his eyes" Zaskia smiled a little laugh at the end.

"uussh, don't talk rich that way, you're not***, you rest me, my child's mother"

"what is Azam's relationship with that woman"

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'that woman was the legal wife of Azam, it happened when I returned to Indonesia take care of our moving letter "

the flashback

That day Zidan visited Azam who was treated in the hospital, already one Sunday the man was treated there, and happened to be Zidan returned to Indonesia, he said, Zidan brought the food they used to buy at school to Azam although Azam would not be able to eat it.

In Azam's room, sat a beautiful woman with shady eyes while continuing to hold her husband's hand.

"Assalamualaikum "

"waalaikumsallam "

"Azam who had closed his eyes now opened his eyes slowly hearing a voice that he recognized.

"zi-zidan"

"yes zam it's me"

"Lo where you are and , I've been here a week, and Lo just came to look at me"

"sorry, there's a problem at home, so can't look at Lo"

"how are you"

"yes, you value yourself and"

long time zidan there, much they talk about, reminiscing about the past of one of them, until finally he said goodbye to Go home

"Zidan I can ask for something not the same Lo"

"what am I going to love while I can love you"

"Nikahin alesha" alesha and the compact zidan stood, their eyes similarly gawking

"Ehh you said what ZAM"

"mass azaaam" said the woman.

"Gue will not be able to continue to exist for him and, my life is not long, I can not leave him alone"

"Gue's sure you're going to get well and, I'm sure"

Azam shook his head weakly, with all his might he held his wife's hand.

"I won't be able to be there for him and, please take care of him after I'm gone, I trust Lo and"

"sorry zam I can't, I have a wife, I have Zaskia, I love her, there will be no woman who wants to share her husband with other women whatever the reason, I'm not Fahri, either, just because he wanted to help a woman who almost committed suicide, Fahri married the woman and hurt his wife's feelings, sorry zam I can't, I've hurt my wife a lot, I've hurt my wife, and I don't want to make him sick because of Lo's crazy request"

"Gue go ZAM, I'm sure Lo can recover, assalamualaikum

"dannn-Zidan, first of all, if you can't marry him please take care of him for me, at least until he finds someone, who is right to be my successor, please take care of him, alesha is just as rich as Zaskia, she doesn't have anyone she just has me, and I trust Lo the right person, I beg you take care of her and and my son, I beg you "

alesha could not hold back her tears, nor could she do anything but listen, while zidan nodded, one week after the incident, Azam breathed his last, and zidan promised to take care of alesha, like he's looking after his wife

flashback off

"I'm sorry, because I was wrong, I thought you were cheating"

"i-I'm the one who should be sorry isn't you Ki, even if we don't have anything to do with it, but it's still for you to be sick"

"zidaan" Zaskia kisses zidan's hand repeatedly

"sorry zii, sorry, you take care of my feelings, but I always let you down, you're always there for me, but I'm always sorry"