Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission

81. Hilman, Nothing's The Same

I was forced to agree to what Ayu wanted because of Mother's insistence. I no longer want to mate Ayu, the reason Mother because Ayu can not give offspring for me. In addition, Mother was already hurt by Ayu's words that I don't know what and which. As I recall Ayu had never seen Mom since she left this house.

I looked at the room that had been quiet for a long time, no warmth, no smile, no more sweet-sounding laughter in the ears when Ayu was joking with me like before. Now only the stuffy aroma and unpleasant smell in this room because almost as long as Ayu no window is never opened. That's what I often see if I'm picking up my clothes in this room.

Hana never wanted to touch this room to be cleaned until now there was a lot of dust flying when I opened the door and lit the lights.

The longing that continues to be present in this heart to the wife. My ex-wife now!

I miss Ayu so much that I often dream of her. Not even infrequently when I was with Hana, I even often thought that I was with Ayu. Fortunately, I did not mention that name. Otherwise, Hana would have been angry.

"Mas, what are you doing there?" Hana now entered while covering her nose. Occasionally he shook his other hand in front of his face to dispel the thick dust.

"What else are you doing in this room? I waited outside as well. I'm hungry, Mom! Back from the trial you didn't take me out to eat. It's tega!" suck it in annoyance.

I approached her and took her out of this room. I closed the door after turning off the lights.

"I'm sorry, you know that I don't have any money? You also do not want to sell the necklace. The money is the same I'm not much and we have to be able to save before I can work," I said asking for understanding from him.

"Save. Save it! Hemaaat continues what you said from yesterday? Mas, I am enough yes you sabarin with that word. Saving doesn't make me full, Mom. If you just love me to eat the leaves of the doang I'll be a malnourished man!" he said with a cry. His face looked very annoyed when he said that.

I breathe tired. Hana's request is not heavy, but to provide it every day that makes me a little upset because of her desire.

"Once you buy me meat, Mas. It's just cassava leaves, kale, vegetable soup, vegetable stew. Duh! How your child eats so much nutrition every day!" cercan.

"Yes, I'll buy you some food now. What do you want to eat?" I asked resigned, rather than he continued to talk all the time until later in the afternoon and the edges were still me who he was angry and also told to sleep outside tonight.

"Bragging!" answer it indifferently.

Astaghfirullah ....

"Okay, I'll find. You cook rice first. Who knows when I'll be home."

"Wouldn't! Want to rendang as complete from there!" he said with a frown.

I took a deep breath, clenching my teeth. Hana's request was always like this. Chickens, grilled fish, rendang, there is something he wants every day. Not to mention other foods such as martabak, toast, or heavy snacks at night. If I work anyway it's okay, I'll buy him everything he wants.

"Yes, I'm leaving now!" I said I grabbed the car keys. It felt like this ear was very hot to hear such scolding.

Ah, why is it so difficult there is no motor. If only there were Ayu motorcycles, I would not go out just to the front there by car. Food ordering app I removed from my phone because Hana always just want to order food. A little, message. A little, message. Duh!

I have the lyrics to my wallet which is now open. I looked at the money, only three more pieces, two red and one blue, the rest was just money for parking. I rubbed my face rough. This money will soon run out, if I don't get a job soon, how will I support Hana later on? Borrow Mas Dirga .. This is all that I have not returned yesterday.

It was very difficult to find a job, especially I was already known as a man with two wives who had the heart to slap his first wife in public. Confused because of my mistakes at that time who could not maintain emotions made me now known like that.

Go home with a packet of food Hana ordered. That's enough just that. I can not be wasteful and manage the existing finances, even though it had been tempted also by the food in one of the storefronts.

"Hana!" I shouted after entering the house. Hana had just come out of the room after I called, her eyes looking a typical red just waking up.

"Home home?" ask Hana. I was just about to answer, but it wasn't because he was staring at the kitchen after grabbing the plastic food I was carrying.

Without waiting for me who was also hungry, Hana started eating the food crazily. Not offering, or just limited to stale bases, he now eats greedily looking like very hungry.

"You don't eat, Mum?" asked Hana who saw me now in the doorway.

"Eat, I'm hungry too" I said. I took the rice that was half a plate inside the mejikom, then joined Hana at the dinner table, staring at the mushroom vegetables I cooked this morning. The rendang on the rice wrap is now only a little, now he enjoys and he bites between his teeth.

Ah, my mouth tastes .. stop to imagine that good piece of meat in my mouth. It's just a delusion!

Why does it feel like this? If he was Ayu, we would definitely eat a pack together like we used to when we were frugal to be able to buy this house.

"Cock-awkwardly? Not eating it?" hana asked again to make me flinch. It turned out that my eyes were focused on his mouth chewing food.

Hana now got up, she wrapped the food back up, there was still a lot of Padang rice left in the package and she stored it in the crackle earlier.

"I'm sleepy, I'm gonna take a little nap before I take a shower." Hana finished washing her hands and went to the room.

I breathe tired. Too bad that much rice now if wasted, Hana will definitely not eat it again later tonight. I slide my plate and take the food wrapper. Vegetable cassava leaves and the rest of the sambal is still good enough for me to enjoy, let the whole rice on my plate for dinner Hana later.