Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission

3. Stranger

Until the night I locked myself in my room, not caring about Mas Hilman who still heard his voice outside. I ignored his call too. I just sat quietly on the bed hugging my knees. It's so fucked up that I'm in right now.

"Yu, let's eat! I've cooked!" A knock on the door rang out, her tone softly coaxing me. Normally it would be a nice thing if Mas Hilman cooked, I would also bribe him, but now I don't want to meet him at all.

"Juice!" the knocking sound on the door rang back, I still held on with my residence.

"Well, if you don't want to eat now. Please come out and eat later, yeah. Remember your hull, Yu. Don't get sick again. If you need anything, I sleep in the next room." she told me. I was still silent, no longer hearing his voice or hearing the door being knocked again.

Everything that happened didn't make me feel hungry, let alone I didn't want to see her again.

I wipe away the tears that are still standing. Be fat! I've tried to strengthen my heart, but it's not easy. These tears kept coming out even if only a little.

Not caring about my hunger, I opened my phone and pressed the blue app that became my stall now looking for fun. Some days my update schedule is chaotic, some comments and also private chat in the blue application that many are inquiring and also asking me to publish a new chapter.

I smile at least there are still others who give me spirit, even though they say the spirit of update. Let's just say that they also encourage me to forget my annoyance and anger.

After washing my face, I went back to my laptop. An angry, disappointed and hurt heart made me want to create another story. I made a new title.

The quiet atmosphere made me forget about time. I feel if this back and hands start to ache. I turned to the wall clock, I could not believe it was more than one hour a night. Five hours in front of the laptop.

I looked on in disbelief at the number stamped on one corner of the screen, almost ten thousand words I typed with the theme of this new story. I don't know what I think until this brain is so smooth and also synchronized with fingers. Until I forget also the old story that should be published as soon as possible.

This stomach is hungry. Since noon I have not mkan, breakfast was only a little, it has started to hurt. I was looking for a green medicine with mint flavor, eating it before eating a heavy meal, reducing the pain that will be felt when later this stomach filled with food.

I was stunned when I saw Mas Hilman who was now sitting leaning on a chair in the dining room. His eyes closed with his mouth open. His soft snoring voice sounded in the middle of the silent midnight atmosphere.

Cetrek.

My stove turns on. I filled the pot with water and put it on a burning stove. I took a packet of instant noodles from the refrigerator.

"Come, are you awake?" Mas Hilman's voice rang out as I stuffed the noodles into the boiling water.

I didn't answer the question.

The sound of her footsteps coming closer, I was completely reluctant to turn my gaze towards her.

"Yu, why don't you eat what I'm cooking? Eating instant noodles is not good for you Yu." Mas Hilman had now stopped one step right beside me.

"Don't care about me." I said ketus while flipping the noodle sheets in the pot. "Just be your new wife."

"Well, can't we talk?" Mas Hilman tried to step closer towards me. I moved my body away from him.

"I beg you, we can talk together."

"Far away, Mas. Or I'll flush you with this water!" threaten me to him, this hand is ready to hold a pot whose water is boiling. Mas Hilman was now in his place.

My food was ripe, I immediately took the plate and spoon and poured the noodle sheet and sauce quickly.

"Dye. Please, we need to talk" he asked. Mas Hilman remained in his place.

"OKAY. I'm the one talking. Divorce your new wife, or divorce me. Just choose." I said without caring.

I looked at the figure of the man, still just silent with the look of a confused face.

"Talk's over!"

I stepped out of Mas Hilman in the kitchen, not lyric at all, whether he followed me or not. I don't give a shit. I was hungry, and did not want my appetite to go away because of this painful discussion.

Eating with tears, it really does not taste very good, but this stomach must be filled as well. I don't want to get sick and look weak because of this problem.

...***...

The sound of the motor was heard while I was cleaning the inside of the house. A middle-aged woman descends from the top of the motor along with her eldest son. With graceful steps walked closer towards me who was still holding the bell in hand.

"Assyalaamaikum." A loud voice sounded in the open doorway.

"Waalaikum salam." Immediately I answered and let them in. Aware of myself wearing only shorts on the thigh I rushed into the room after they sat in the living room, I wore a calf-high skirt. After that I went to the kitchen to make them drinks and serve snacks.

"Pardon us Yu who came do not give news. You passed by earlier." Mother spoke, while her eldest son chose to drink the water that I served. His face looked stiff and awkward unlike his usual friendly ones.

"As for Hilman's marriage, I'm sorry. It was the mother who forced Hilman to remarry. You don't get mad at Hilman, yeah," said the mother. I just kept quiet, didn't want to talk at all actually. The treatment of my mother-in-law and her family makes me lazy to be respectful to her again.

"Mother beg Yu, you must understand. I also want to have a grandson from Hilman. You've been married a long time, there's also no sign you're going to get pregnant. I hope you understand your mother's and father's will." Mom looked at me, while Mas Gandi was her first child, staring outwards as I stared at them alternately.

"I am his legal wife, Mom. Wouldn't marriage be legal if there wasn't permission from the first wife? Then don't you think about how I feel right now?" ask me with a flat and cold tone. Mother moved restlessly, lowered her head, and was not calm in her sitting.

"Mother also thought about your feelings, Yu, but if Hilman talked to you, would you allow her to remarry?" ask the mother who made this heart wound increase.

"There's one way ma'am, we can take the son of one of the brothers, right? No need for you to ask Mas Hilman to remarry." I talked about my thoughts these few days.

"Sibling is not Hilman's flesh and blood, Yu. That Mom and Dad want Hilman's son, not someone else's!" Mom stared hard at me. His tone was full of emphasis.

"But he's still blood on you, right?" I was overwhelmed with my thoughts.

"Whatever you want Hilman's son, Yu. You understand the wishes of mom and dad, dong!" Mom snapped at me in a loud voice this time. Things you never did to me until today. Mas Gandi turned to look at the mother with a face that looked confused, while the mother looked angry looking at me.

I got stuck in my throat. It feels so hard to breathe

"Let's been trying to get some medicine, Mom. The doctor said Ayu had no problem. We have not been given any descendants. Mas Hilman also always difficult for me to go to the doctor ...."

"So you're accusing my son of that problem?" ask mom with her angry eyes.

"That's not what Ayu meant, Mom. Ayu didn't say that. Ayu just wants me to be patient in a moment. We're also trying ...."

"Until when?" ask mommy with a ketus.

"When should we wait?!" ask the mother with emphasis in her sentence. "Don't be selfish, Ayu! You want until we die we can't see Hilman's offspring? You want us to die curious?" ask mom with annoyance.

I lowered my head. I don't know about that either. I don't know when it will come and happen to me.

Seen by my net angle as my mother's knees moved, "Our decision turned out to be right! Hilman should have married again. It's free to talk to a stubborn woman like you who doesn't think about family! Remember Ayu, you should be grateful, Hilman does not want to let go of you who can not have children. Who is the one who can accept a woman who cannot give offspring?"

Duaarr ....

Mother's words were like lightning and lightning that struck my heart, when it was very bright today. I looked at my mother in disbelief. Mom said cruel things like that. I looked at the mother who was now standing, and then also stood up.

"Mom, why are you talking like that? I can, Mom. If we treat with ...."

"Mom's been too patient with you, Yu. All these decisions you can't change anymore. If you're not ready for the fate of your marriage, you also know what's best for you!" Mom cut my words and looked at me sharply. We looked at each other with emotion, like there was a flash of anger in each of our eyes. Mas Gandi touched my mother's hand and rubbed it.

"Patience, Mom."

"We're home, Gandi!" without waiting for an answer from the eldest child, the mother stepped out of this house. Mas Gandi was the same now standing and tidying up his clothes.

"Sorry, Yu. I can't do anything if I have a desire." Mas Gandi said in a soft tone, his gaze pitying me.

The roar of the car was heard into the yard, then the engine of the car died. I was still sitting in the living room, talking to my mother made me a statue, just silent and holding tight in my chest.

"You shouldn't take care of your wife, Hilman! She's an ungrateful wife. Is it wrong for you to just want a grandchild?!"

There was the voice of the mother who spoke loudly and with an angry tone aimed at Mas Hilman. My heart ached hearing mom mention I'm an ungrateful wife. What does it mean that you talk like that?

"It's a good thing you didn't divorce him, but he still didn't admit his flaws and said that maybe you were the one with the problem! There's no problem in our family!" I closed my eyes. The pain in my eyes made me want to cry again.

"Acui and accept it if it can not give offspring. You barren woman!"

Mas Hilman's voice sounded softly said, sounding to calm mother. The man only said that he would give me understanding. What understanding again?

I made my way to the door and slammed the door hard, whatever the person wants to say. I don't give a shit. After that I walked to my room. Equally, I also slammed the door of the room as this upset and hurt my heart towards mother's speech. Who likes to be called barren?

"Look at you, man. What kind of wife does not bring her in-laws home and welcome you home? It's been. You deserve to marry Hana!" Mother's voice rang out again, still speaking loudly and mentioning someone's name. My room is close to the car garage until it is still clearly heard the voices.

"Already, ma'am. Let's go home. Let Hilman take care of this. I'll understand, Mom." It was Mas Gandi's voice, the sound of the motor then sounded on and then not heard anymore.

I dropped myself on the bed. Hugging the bolster pillow that has been a few nights has become my bedmate. Sobbing remembered what my mother said. Barren woman. I refuse to say it like that. In fact, the doctor did not say if I was barren, it was only not given sustenance by the Almighty. Is that my fault?

The door of the room was knocked from the outside, sounding soft and coaxing his voice Mas Hilman asked me to come out.

"Well, can we talk for a second?" mas Hilman's voice was heard asking. The door was knocked again, still slowly.

"Yeah, Ayu. Let's talk for a second, Yu. Go, Honey!"

I don't want to answer. The pain in my heart grew when I remembered this man who called me dear was my husband who had betrayed me.

"Yes!" call again.

"I don't want to talk, Mom!" my yelling. The sobbing that had been buried just now broke and wetted on my face.

The sound of knocking was no longer heard. I cried bitterly in sorrow.

The night was approaching, I came out of the room to take a shower, a towel draped over my shoulder. From noon crying and also unconscious to sleep soundly. The mother's call on the phone was also completely inaudible. After I woke up I sent a chat to my mother to contact her after finishing the shower.

The smell of cooking is smelling under my nose. Very fragrant and also appetizing for people who are hungry like me.

"How do you not know, my. Does Madam Ayu want to eat Hana's cooking? We don't know each other yet, and from Mas Hilman's story there's no way that Ma'am Ayu would accept Hana easily."

I stare at someone cooking in my kitchen. Hilman sat waiting for him. A cigarette stuck between his fingers, reflecting a thin smoke that I always did not like the smell.

A woman with a petite, agile body moved to the right and to the left, her hands were stirring the cooking inside the pan.

There are other women who dare to use my kitchen!

"Are you sure, Hana should stay here. Later if Mbak Ayu forbid how?" ask the woman who calls herself Hana.

"I'll give Ayu the same understanding. You ...."

"What else, Mom?!" I cut their words. The two people were shocked and simultaneously turned their eyes towards me. My chest moved up and down looking at these two people who were in front of me. How dare this man bring his honey into this house.

Mas Hilman instantly got up from his chair, while the woman looked down deeply, not daring to look at me.

"Dear, I can explain!" Now that his steps were fast approaching, his hands outstretched to hold my arms, I immediately retreated and held back his movements, pushing his body to no longer approach.

"Jeez, please ... Listen to my explanation first."

"No need, Mom. You can lie to me, you get married again, and now you want to take her to live here?" shirihku.

"ARE YOU CRAZY, MY MOM?" I shouted at the end. Can't stand his mind that is already out of bounds. He has made some mistakes, and now wants to add to his list of mistakes again.

"This is my mother's request, Yu. I can what?" I shook my head. His eyes looked confused with pleading with me.

"You brought a dagger into our household, ma'am." My heart ached, of course, after being lied to, now he brought the third man here.

"Why did you bring him here? Can't he be put in another house?"

"I can't, Yu. Hana's afraid of being alone, I can't leave her in another house! I beg you to accept him in this house, yes ...." In fact, he knew the woman's fear.

"Then leave her at mom's house, Mom! There are many people, he will not be lonely. Don't let him stay here!" I shouted again, I wanted to cry again, but my tears seemed reluctant to come out again.

"Mom's house is far from the office, I can't go that far."

"Whatever!! It's up to you to take him where it matters not to be in my house!" yell again. I really don't want to see him here.

With a quick step I approached towards him, blocked by the dining table I stopped and pointed loudly at the woman.

"You! The actor! Do you know that Mas Hilman has a wife? Why would you marry her, huh?!!" my feeling grew even more emotional seeing him who was just standing restlessly. His head was still bowed in. His fingers crumpled at each other.

"Let's not go too far! Watch what you say, she's a good woman!" Mas Hilman approached towards me and spoke with a snarl at me. Things he never did all this time.

I turned my gaze towards Mas Hilman. He was also the same looking at me, in contrast to the look in his eyes earlier, this time the look was visible there was a flash of anger in there.

"Which good woman marries a married man? Which woman offered herself to be called an actor, and become the third person?! Disturbing the peace of other people's households?!"

The big hand immediately rose to the level of his ears. His palm clearly widened and ready to float, I challenged Mas Hilman with my gaze. There is no fear of him

My tears flowed back, dripping down hard. His attitude has clearly changed.

He just fell silent, his hands just hanging without him moving anymore, but this cheek was ready if the slap would hit him. Good in fact, I can make the KDRT report for the court later.

The big hand slowly descended, his sturdy body now weakened before me. The angry face instantly turned into a wistful one.

"Sorry, Yu. The khilaf." One clear melt of water flowed past his cheeks. Mas Hilman's shoulders are no longer erect.

"Look can't stand it, Mas. Please if you want to continue. Let's just back off." It was heavy, it hurt, it hurt, when I said that. I can't continue this pain with him.

I took this leg to my room, picked up the suitcase next to the closet and then pulled some of my clothes out of the closet. Without tidying it I put my clothes in. The clothes hangers I threw haphazardly, I can't wait to get out of this house.

"Well where are you going?" tanya Mas Hilman is now beside me. He grabbed the clothes I was putting in the suitcase and also threw them carelessly on the floor.

"I want to go home!" I don't care about him taking my shirt back out of there. I took it and put another shirt in.

"Can't. You can't leave this house. I what if there's no you, Yu?" ask Hilman pleading.

I looked at him, whose face was now clear.

"You forgot you had another wife? He can take care of you. You don't need me anymore, Mom." My screams couldn't stand it. I picked up my wallet, cellphone, and motorbike keys on the nightstand and left without my suitcase. With a quick step I went outside and picked up the bike in the garage. My helmet is wearing without me properly locking the rope. Want to get out of here as soon as possible.

"Jeez, wait for Ayu. Don'tgo. Come on!" The sound of Mas Hilman's screams rang out as I was opening the gate. I just turned my head a glance, I saw him running, behind him the woman was staring at me. Soon I drove my bike out of there at high speed. No matter what coldness now hits my skin.