Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission

20. Meet With the Doctor Again.

"Where do you want to find a job?" ask Mas Hilman at the end.

I shook my head. Last night after putting my clothes back in the closet, I looked for a job opening on social media. There are a few subsidiaries, not big but I guess I can work there. If not tried it won't know, will it? I hope it's still my luck.

"I'm sorry, Mom, but I beg you. Allow me to find a job." I asked for permission. Mas Hilman looked heavy to allow me, but he ended up nodding his head as well.

"I'm sorry, Yu. I can't help you much right now." Mas Hilman was still down, I stroked his cheek with my palm, smiling at him to lighten the burden that was in his mind right now.

"It's okay, Mom. If only I could give you a child, maybe none of this would happen." I said with a soft word. Indeed this would probably not happen if I could give Mas Hilman a descendant.

"Sorry, Ayu." Mas Hilman smiled. However, there was pain in his smile. He grabbed me and kissed the top of my head. "I'm sorry if all this time it's made you suffer with my marriage and Hana's." He heard his voice tremble as he said that.

"Here you go, I won't either ...."

"Mas! It's noon already. Let's have breakfast, you'll be late!" The sound of knocking on the door made my speech pause. I start to feel annoyed if times like the present are disturbed by it.

I took off Mas Hilman's embrace from me and walked back two steps away from him. "Your young wife has called, there you have breakfast. I have prepared food for you to eat" I said.

"Thank you."

I smiled hearing her words from her mouth.

We both walked towards the dining table. The food on the table was no more, I was confused, where all the food was. Hana was struggling with a frying pan on the stove.

"Where's the breakfast?" asked Mas Hilman confusedly looking at the dining table which was now clean from the food I prepared earlier.

Hana turned herself around. "Anu .. sorry Mas, Ma'am. The food that Ayu made me throw away. The smell makes me nauseous. I can't stand it. Sorry, Madam Ayu." He said softly while looking down deeply. I glared at him, the emotions were there. The food I painstakingly made for them ended up in the trash can without being touched at all? How outrageous this kid is! Though the other day he ate my fried rice very greedily.

"Sorry, Ms. Ayu. Hana can't stand Mommy. Don't upset. Mas Hilman, sorry Hana. Hannah wasn't strong ...."

"You ...."

"Well, it's already. Forgive Hana. Pregnant people are unpredictable." Mas Hilman cut me off, made me feel bad mood this morning.

I was still staring intently at Hana, if I were a snake, I would love to swallow this child whole!

"Well, it's already. I'm sorry Hana." Mas Hilman touched my hand. It was warm there, but my heart was suddenly cold and frozen.

"Here you go, I'll just go." I brushed Mas Hilman's hand. I don't want him begging for that woman.

With a wide latch I immediately took the key that was on top of the refrigerator and immediately walked to pick up the motor in the garage. No matter what Mas Hilman asked me to have breakfast with them.

D**exhaustible basis! What right does he have to throw away the food I've worked so hard to make. You pregnant woman sucks!

I don't feel my tears melt, suck with the tip of my index finger. The memory of my fried rice being a trash can resident, was heartbreaking.

Forty minutes drive, finally to a company, I told you this is not a big company. It's hard to find a job at a time like this. I can't pick a job anymore. As long as I get a salary, plus my income, I estimate I will be able to immediately bring my mother to the operating table before the pain gets worse.

Before long I was there, coming out again with empty steps. I guess with my work experience so far, I will be able to enter this company easily, it turns out they think I still do not qualified.

God, why is it so hard to find a job? I really need this job.

I thrust this face up, looking up at the blazing sky. When it's early morning, I'll go to another company and leave a proposal there. I prepared some chocolate maps last night. I'm lucky I never threw those things away before.

During the day, from one company to another. All chocolate maps containing job applications are finished I entrust, hoping there is one that can succeed. I hope that.

Before I went home, I took myself to the hospital. There's something I want to ask the doctor.

A little check as usual.

"Mbak Ayu has no problem. As usual in good health, in fact this I think is very fertile. Everything I said at the time, Ma'am Ayu did, right?" the female doctor asked while smiling at me.

I nodded, all the vitamins he gave me I had eaten regularly. "But Doctor, why am I not pregnant yet?" I'm still curious.

"Did Mbak Ayu's husband still not want to be invited here? I dare not say anything or think about the situation of Ms Ayu's husband if not done a thorough examination."

"My husband is healthy, Doctor." I unknowingly spoke like that. The doctor looks to be frowning.

I exhaled. Maybe I should talk honestly with the doctor?

"Doctor, my husband is remarried. And now his second wife is pregnant. Doesn't that mean he's healthy too? But why am I the one who's been married to her not also pregnant?" Shame on me, but I don't want to hide it anymore either. There is a feeling of shame every time I check this situation myself.

The doctor breathed heavily.

"Mbak Ayu, there is indeed a condition in which a person cannot conceive in the usual way. Doesn't Ma'am Ayu want to think about with a baby tube program?" ask doctor.

I was speechless, a thoughtless one as well, but when I talked about this with Mas Hilman, the man refused. He said just leave this to God.

"Let's talk to my husband once again. Who knows Mbak Ayu's husband would like to in such a way. I feel sorry for Mbak Ayu if he continues to do other treatments that can hurt Mbak Ayu," said the doctor. His eyes looked softly at me. I just nodded my head.

"I'll try again, Doctor." The doctor smiled by stroking the back of my hand.

"Stay spirit yes," he said. I nodded my ship again.

"Thank you."