Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission
104. I'm Just a Disabled Woman
The birthday party is over. It's really good for a kid of that age. Maybe it's because I've never been to a kid's birthday party like this.
Ah, so ashamed of the gift I brought. Seeing some gifts opened by the child Mbak Wanda earlier made me feel sorry for the gift of a remote car that I bought for five hundred thousands.
"Mbak Ayu thank you very much, yes have taken the time to come here," said Mbak Wanda drove me up to the terrace.
"Together, Mother. Thank you, too, for inviting me. It's very entertaining. I'm happy to attend" I said with a smile.
"Alhamdulillah if Mbak Ayu happy. Next time come again, will you? To have dinner with our family" Wanda said. I can't answer that. Don't know what to answer exactly. Ma'am Wanda and family have been very kind to me.
"Yes, Mother. God willing." That's all I said.
"I'm saying goodbye, Ma'am. Say hello to Mother and Father. I'm saying goodbye." I send greetings to both of them, earlier in the middle of the party event took place, Mom said to rest because of tired, then not long after the Father also rest.
"Yes, I'll tell you later" he said.
Me and Doctor Wira headed to the car but our steps came to a halt when the sound of a call was heard saying my name.
"Why don't you wake me up, Mommy Ayu wants to go home?" mother asked, looking angry at the princess.
"Mbak Ayu's. This take it home. For her mother at home," she told me as she approached and gave her a golden cardboard bag.
"Eh, Mum. This I have also," I said as I lifted the carton bag given by Mbak Wanda earlier. Everyone gets a similar dish to take home, I don't know what it is I just peeked at it at a glance.
"It was from Wanda. It's from Mom!" yells. His hand took my hand and forced it to take the cardboard bag.
"Eh, ouch. This ... I am not good. It's been a lot, too" I told him.
"Already! This just take it. Mba Ayu took the time to come here. I say thank you very much" Mother said again. Keep pushing until I feel bad too. It's not good to accept, but it's not good to refuse. Duh, piye iki?!
I was so ashamed that Mother and all the members of the family of Doctor Wira were so kind to me.
We're pampering. Ma'am Wanda and Mother waved their hands at me who had gotten into the car, I nodded deeply in exchange for a wave of hands. Not forgetting before I got into the car I sent a message to convey my greetings to the Father and husband of Mbak Wanda who was accompanying her son continued to open the gift.
The car drove away from the residence of Mbak Wanda.
The streets are not also quiet, even more crowded in the afternoon until we have to be stuck in traffic. It's not bad, but it's good enough to make this car slow and difficult to walk.
The sky was starting to black out up there. Lucky before returning home I had already done the Ashar prayer at the home of Mbak Wanda, so no need to worry about leaving my obligations.
"Thank you, yes, Ms. Ayu already wanted to come to our little party," Wira told me. The quiet atmosphere from earlier made me flinch when Doctor Wira said that.
"That's my duty, Ma'am. I picked up Mbak Ayu, then I also have to deliver Mbak Ayu to go home and welcome back home" he said. I admit she's very kind, but why doesn't this heart vibrate at all against her.
We fell silent back. Doctor Wira refocused driving while I enjoyed the atmosphere outside there which was very crowded. Precisely avoiding the sight of Doctor Wira who from earlier I think often glanced at me. Either that's true or it's just my feeling, but I'm not comfortable being in the same place with him for a long time.
“Em .. Mbak Ayu. I told you I've known you long enough. I hope Mbak Ayu does not continue to call me as a Doctor. I want to be called by another call by Mbak Ayu.”
Uh, it feels de javu with this remark. Recall while on the way to the wedding of Doctor Wira's cousin the other day. He said the same thing.
“Eh, it is not polite dong if I call it by another name,” I said to him. It's actually a little uncomfortable, too.
“Sorry, Madam Ayu. But it feels strange if you call me a doctor. We're not in the hospital. Anyway em ... anu ...." Doctor Wira is now silent, looking confused to say the next sentence. He turned his face towards the front. The car is running very slowly.
"What?" I asked Doctor Wira.
"Nothing!" answer it quickly.
"Em .. I, just want to say that I like Mbak Ayu, of course Mbak Ayu also already know because I have said before?" said slowly.
The atmosphere here is getting uncomfortable for me.
"Emh, yes. I remember," I answered.
"I just want to know how Ma'am Ayu feels about me right now?" said again. This time I was silent. What do I have to answer? There is no special feeling for this doctor.
"I don't know" I replied. I turn this face the other way.
"It's not easy for me to go through all this, Doctor. I just had a broken heart because of my separation. The wounds in the heart are still not dry and all covered. Still looks flawed and does not know when it will be normal again ...."
"I know, therefore I want to be a remedy for the wounds of Mbak Ayu," he said cut my conversation. My reflexes turned towards him. This doctor is very persistent.
"I have asked permission from my Mom and Dad about this. Don't worry about them. They accept Mbak Ayu as he is," he said again increasingly make themselves do not believe.
"Why? Why do doctors do this? I am just an imperfect woman. I don't deserve a doctor either. The doctor deserves to be happy with the perfect woman. Not a handicapped woman like me" I said. I wanted to feel like I was crying because of my own words, because what happened to me all this time, my inability to have children who made happiness with Mas Hilman was destroyed.
I felt the car getting slower, then stopped on the lonely side of the road.
I couldn't hold myself back until a single point of warm water escaped the corner of my eye. Not wanting to be discovered if I shrank my face, I turned this away in another direction.
"So that's according to the good Mom Ayu? What if I don't feel good about any of them?"
