Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission

22. Requesting Justice

Am I wrong with what I did? my inner. Because of this incident that afternoon I became lazy to do all the things. Just pleasing my mind with the way I write. I also forgot to fill my stomach.

Mas Hilman returned to the room after almost an hour, tumben once. Normally if he had been out of this room he wouldn't have come back here until the morning.

He finished opening his shoes and then got up to the closet.

"Tonight I slept in Hana's room. She had a stomachache from eating instant noodles. Why are you so outrageous, Hana now can't eat carelessly!" Mas Hilman spoke, his tone sounding annoyed.

I looked at him. Not at all know what Hana ate, I'm sure in the kitchen there are still leftover vegetables during the day, fish with red seasoning that I cooked this morning. There is no vegetable at all as Mas Hilman said earlier. Mas Hilman's habit is that I have to cook again if the vegetables look a little for dinner, just in case Mas Hilman wants to have dinner.

"Why doesn't he eat vegetables? I think the vegetables are still there. Why should I eat instant noodles?" my many. "I'm lazy to cook, doesn't mean there's nothing you can't eat! Just look in the closet. Food is there." I said with a sewot staring at him.

"Hana don't want fish, she's nauseous with the smell."

I was getting angry at her words.

"Yu, please. Please take care of Hana and the baby. Just prepare the food he wants, nothing more. Mas can not every time there to take care of him, to provide what food he wants. Only you can help me, Yu. Who would you like to ask if it wasn't you?" asked Mas Hilman with a sharp look at me.

"I know, Mas. You know this morning before I left for work I was cooking, I also saw the vegetables had been reduced. So he doesn't have a problem with what I do? And again, I just got home this afternoon. I'm tired! Vegetable sellers are also nearby. Fill the refrigerator is also a lot of food stock if indeed he wants to cook again. Why do I have to provide all of Hana's food?" ask me again. What's wrong with this Hilman? Just because of the food alone he got angry like this.

"Can you not always make me like a lackey in this house? I'm your wife too, Mom. There are times when I'm tired! All I do, about the food I have to provide. And again, you. Where do you care as much as I used to, Mas?" my protest was long.

"I'm tired of Mas. She came here and you know what she said? I thought I was just playing outside. Though obviously Hana saw me out to look for a job, but she didn't tell mom that I was out for it to the point that mom thought I was playing when you weren't home and Hana was doing all the chores I was doing before leaving. I thought I was doing nothing and I was with him who was pregnant. I'm tired of Mas! I'm tired of being accused like that and I continue to be the same mom. If you want Hana to be guaranteed food, you better call someone to prepare everything she wants, everything she needs!" Unaware of my words bouncing everywhere. Inside this chest it feels very hot.

Mas Hilman was silent about what I was talking about. He breathed heavily. His head bowed to the floor and looked at me with a sad look.

"You know I can't afford that, Yu. Even I've only held money for gasoline all this time. I'm confused, Yu." Mas Hilman said in a low tone he did not dare to look at me. I rubbed my forehead violently, wanting to be angry but angry with whom. I think this head is beating violently.

"Mas know that? You have not been fair all this time. You always think of him, and you always worry about him ...."

"Yes, of course, not fair, Mas. have you not felt all this time that you spend more time with him? Don't you feel like he's always interrupting both of us? And you always come to Hana and never come back here until morning. Don't you think that's unfair?" ask me with annoyance.

"I'm sorry. I always panic when Hana calls me, especially if she always feels pain in her stomach or waist," replied Mas Hilman.

"Don't you feel like he's trying to separate us? Keep us away?" ask him. His head turned to look at me.

"You don't think bad like that dong, Yu. Hana couldn't have done that to us."

I was upset to hear Mas Hilman's answer, he might not know, but my feeling was that Hana was doing that to us.

"Why are you getting to be bouncy, Yu! You weren't like this before!" Mas Hilman said furiously. He snapped at me. Now he said more often with such tone emphasis.

"You should be thanking Hana, because she's about to conceive my son!"

I don't know why Mas Hilman said that. He didn't seem to accept what I said until now he stood up and threw his tie on the bed.

Without saying anything, he walked out of this room.

A**pa I was wrong? I'm just saying what I feel.

I don't want to think about anything else.I'd rather just sleep than think about unnecessary things. It hurts my heart so much. Hilman is no longer what he used to be. It seems like he has changed a lot, especially with Hana and also the child in the womb. It is also undeniable that this heart feels pain. It hurts from mother's speech, it hurts from her lack of attention, and it also hurts because she doesn't believe my words.

If only I could, I'd love to go. But I can't do that yet. At this time can only be patient, whether my patience is likely to produce results or vice versa. Will kill!

Nah! I have to be strong. This is because of mom!