Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission

47. Sorry, I'll Try to Be Fair to You.

"I want to talk to you."

"Speak what?" ask her. I put the bag I was wearing to the hanger behind the door.

"I was fired" he said languidly. I reflexed my head with my hand still holding the bag.

"Fired? How can?" ask me confused. Mas Hilman, an exemplary employee who never had a red streak in his rapot, is now in a very chaotic state in his life. The big company he worked for, which he was always proud of, which his family always glorified, so the ingredients praise people because it was difficult to get into there, now his status is only a former employee.

I immediately hung this bag in its place and approached him who was sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Because of the videos that are spread on social media. The company followed up by firing me from the office dishonorably. I've only been given three months' salary, Yu." His voice sounded uninspired. His eyes were now staring blankly at the floor.

I feel sorry for him, but wait! What am I sorry for? Isn't this worth getting?! This is a reply because he was wrong with me yesterday.

"Continue?" my question made him turn his head with a confused look on his face.

"I'm fired, Yu," she said once again in a sad-sounding tone.

"Yes, I heard. So why if you get fired. Find another job, you."

Mas Hilman stared at me with a look of disbelief. "Why are you that? Where is your sympathy with me, Yu?" protest with his unreliable look.

I laughed a little at him. "Cympathy? I feel enough sympathy for myself. You also have no sympathy with me, right? Why should I now feel like it's the same way you do?" ask her. Mas Hilman increasingly looked at me with a strange look, like confused, but also an angry look that was held in him.

"You're outrageous, Yu. Don't you feel sorry for your husband because I'm unemployed now?" ask Mas Hilman to me.

I just shrugged both my shoulders. Pity for what? All of this happened because of his mistake as well, if only that day he had not done that to me, I would definitely not have been angry with him. In addition to his unfair attitude, he lied to me. He did not enter the kentor to accompany his shopping mistress clothes less material.

"You're too much, Ayu!" snapped it. Now the tall sturdy body was standing with a face that looked very wrathful.

"I don't think that you've changed so much now, Yu. You're not my old Ayu!" His chest looked up and down as if he had just completed a marathon run. His breath was rudely heard.

"He's not a toy! She's my wife too!" bantak Mas Hilman to me, so close that I could feel his warm breath coming down my nose and also see a glint of anger in his eyes because I said that.

My tears now flowed as he said that. His previous words were indeed a lie. I never should have trusted this guy's mouth. I shouldn't have believed his words!

"Yes, she's your wife, too. But can't you be fair to us? From the treatment, from the risk, from time, you run out more for him. You don't know what I've been feeling all this time?" I asked by looking hard at him. I let these tears flow until they fall. Let him see myself as fragile after seeing my pretenses that he knows or not.

"You should also be more attentive to me, as a person who must endure the pain when her husband remarries without my permission, Mas! I'm the one you should be entertaining. I'm the one you should be asking for so I can accept the relationship between you two!" yell again. Whether anyone can hear us or not out there, I don't care!

"I tried it, Yu. Don't you know that I'm trying to be fair?" ask Mas Hilman.

"What is fair? You were never fair to me from the beginning. You lean on her, especially now that she is pregnant with your child. Are you going to keep asking me to give up with all of them? Make me this as his bab? What do you think of when I always do what you ask? Have you ever understood my feelings when I did that? I had to, Mas! I was forced because you asked!"

"You never understand how I feel? I need your attention, too, Mom!" I screamed loudly.

The tightness in the chest is increasingly felt until it feels like it wants to explode because of the heat and also the emotions that overflow inside.

"Did you never understand my feelings? You always ask me to understand him, with what he wants, but you don't care about me, Mas!" scream again.

"I'm sick, Mom!" I said while hitting this chest that is getting crowded. Hoping that with what I did this all of those very unpleasant tastes would come out and go away.

"Even when I am sad about Mother's situation .. you .. you are not there to accompany me ..." I cried with a sobbing.

"I lost you, Mom. You exist, but I don't feel you are there for me. He's all you notice, he's all you see. Is it because I can't give you a child?" I wiped the tears that were still flowing with the back of my hand.

Mas Hilman now lowered his head. His shoulders slumped down.

"sorry. I'm sorry, Ayu. I'll try to change. Give me a chance to be fair with you and Hana" he said slowly. He began to take one step toward me. Immediately I took two steps to make him stop putting his foot forward.

"No need, Mom. You better do Hana and your son. I can't take it anymore. I'm just gonna give up!"