Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission

45. Not a Dutiful Child

I immediately searched Sinta's number. Want to know if you've seen this video yet? She doesn't play social media, but someone else can tell her about the video.

"Love. Have you seen or heard about the video?" ask Sinta when she just picked up my call.

"What video?" ask Sinta from across there.

"So you don't know about the videos?" I asked Sinta.

"Yet, Ma'am. What video is there, huh?" ask Sinta in a confused-sounding tone.

"Ehm, that ... actually ...."

I breathe heavily. "That's a video of Mbak and Mas Hilman" I explained to Sinta.

"Huh? What video?! About what until Ma'am and Mas Hilman are in medsos?!" sinta asked me with a cry, but soon she lowered her tone of voice, "What video, Ma'am?" he half whispered.

"The story is long, Ma'am can not explain on the phone, but you can prohibit Mother to not mingle often with other neighbors?" my door to him

"Bak was afraid that I would hear from others and Mom was shocked" I asked once again.

"Yes, Mother. I'll try to keep Budhe busy inside the house" Sinta said from across the street. I breathed with relief. At least I have high hopes for Sinta so that Mother does not know what happened.

Mas Hilman had just come out of the bathroom when I reached the kitchen with a towel draped over my shoulder. He looked lethargic at me and was silent, giving me no way to pass.

"Yu. Can we talk?" ask Mas Hilman to me.

"Later on, I'm gonna take a shower." I'm avoiding him. Remember the pain he made me, whether it was the heartache or the physical pain he made me last night. I crashed into his body, forcing myself through to clean up. There was a heavy sigh coming from him as I was about to close the door.

After that night Mas Hilman was no longer out of the room. Where did he say he wanted to talk to me? She stayed in her room with Hana.

***

Mamang called me back, if the land we sold was sold. He also gave Mamang cash in a large envelope, he said. I thank you for the ease we have now.

I smiled happily as I exited the building. What I saw in my hand made me feel like I could breathe with relief. The series of numbers on a small book that I hold, enough for Mom's operating costs and also care and other unexpected costs. Hopefully not less with the savings plus money and also the money that Diana lent me.

I went to Mom's house with this good news. I'd be happy to hear it.

As I thought, I'm certainly happy with the news I brought for her. Mom gets disgusted when I show the numbers in the little book, but she is also sad to have used what should have been my right.

"Alhamdulillah. The land in the village is already sold?" ask me Mom doesn't believe me. I nodded in agreement. Sinta also thanked me for the good things I brought to Mom.

"I'm sorry, Yu. I'm sorry, Mom." Mother's cry broke as she tightly hugged me.

"I'm sorry that Mom's been bothering you all this time. I'm sorry you had to lose what you had." Mom sniffled hard enough.

"Mom, don't talk like that. If it's land, Ayu doesn't mind, it's important you're healthy." I hugged Mom tightly back. I don't think about the land that just left in my hands. I just want you to heal, that's all. Although I also have to sell everything I have I don't care. I just want Mom to heal!

We were wrapped up in a haru atmosphere, happy and also sad.

I intentionally stayed here tonight. I still want to be with Mom, business to the doctor later I will call by phone.

"Yu, you often stay here Hilman is okay, anyway?" ask Mom to me. I just shook my head.

"It's okay, Mom. Mas Hilman has also allowed kok," my lie to Mother. Mom just nodded her head. He stroked my head with great love. Very soft I feel.

"Mother yesterday's dream, Yu. Hilman holds a daughter, very beautiful, but not similar to you also Hilman," said Mother slowly. His tone sounded a little astonished.

I was silent to Mother's words just now. In my heart I muttered, 'yes indeed Mas Hilman will have a child, but not from me, Mom'. I want to say that, but when Mom's done the operation, I'll tell you all the truth.

"Mom was confused" said Mother again.

"Why are you confused? It was just a dream, Mom. Just sleeping flowers. Why is it so hard to think about" I said to Mom.

"Yes yes, Nduk. It's just a dream, but it's like it's real and it keeps me thinking. In the dream I also saw there was another woman in your house."

I was shocked by what Mom said. Does this feel like a mother? Very strong feeling.

"Who, Ma? Is that maybe the babysitter, huh? Maybe after I have a kid I'll get a babysitter too?" I asked with a small laugh, trying to give a joke to Mom.

"You have a child, don't take care of anyone else. Asperse yourself. When your child grows up you're closer to another woman, piye?" ask Mom in a firm tone.

"Yes, Mom. Ayu also won't take the nanny, anyway. I'll take care of Ayu myself." I approached Mom and hugged her tightly.

"Tomorrow Ayu will ask the doctor when surgery can be done for Mom. You're ready, right, if the doctor says the surgery's close?" I asked her, looking at Mom's face from under her chin.

"Yes, I'll be ready whenever the operation is done. But you will definitely bother going back and forth to the hospital to take care of Mom," he said in a sad tone.

"What is this mother talking about? Ayu from a small inconvenience Mother continues, take care of Ayu continues, emang what's wrong if Ayu replacean who take care of Mother? Ayu has been living with Sinta's mother all along. Ayu's not a filial child with Mom." At once I felt a sense of haru in this self. Remember how the struggle of mothers who make a living after the departure of the father. Financing college by trading small roving in and out of the alleys of the housing complex. It is reflected in what he did in the hot sun and also the flood of sweat. After I work, I forbid Mom to sell again especially after Mom has mild heart disease.

"You are a filial son. Don't always say it like that. You're Mother's happiness, Yu. Mom loves you very much. You are the happiness of Mother. I'll take care of you until the end of your life to protect you and love you." My voice shakes when I say that. I heard her slow crying in my ear.