Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission

30. Who's That Woman, Ma'am?

"You were from yesterday why the hell, Yu? How does it seem that you are sad and daydreaming" asked Mom as we were about to have lunch. I woke up and turned my eyes to Mom. Mom looked at me sharply. The food in front of him had eaten a little.

"Well it's okay, ma'am" I said, smiling at him. Sinta from her place glanced at me silently. He continued eating again.

"You really don't have a problem with Hilman, do you" asked the mother again.

I glanced at Sinta. It was inappropriate to talk about this in front of him.

"Nothing, Mom." I'm affirming. "Had you. Mom, why the hell did it go on from yesterday? This Ayou came back here to look at mom, why do you keep asking like that!" answer me with a cry.

"Thank you if there's nothing. If you have a problem, you tell me the same mom. Don't be held alone" said Mother again. I nodded my head and we continued eating.

Lunch was over, Mom went to the room to rest while Sinta and I cleaned the dining table.

"Isn't there really a problem with Mas Hilman?" sinta asked suddenly which made me look at her. The water pouring out of the sink just ran through my hand.

"I went to the house yesterday. There was a pregnant woman at home. He said that he was not home. Looking for a job again. Who is she Mommy?" ask Sinta who surprised me. I was silent. My body stiffened hearing his question.

"He can't be Mas Hilman's brother, can he?" ask Sinta again without looking at me. His hands were busy soaking up the dishes and handing them to me.

My chest thumped hearing him ask like that.

"I'm not a child anymore" he said.

I exhaled my breath violently.

"I'm sorry if I asked you like this. I'm just afraid that one day I'll misspoke or maybe Budhe saw or heard this from someone else. What would I say if Budhe asked me like that?" said Shinta who had questions.

"Why did you go to Ma'am's house?" my many. I'll give you this hand back to clean the dishes and the glasses.

"At that time I had to go there to find Ms Ayu. Budhe's sick, but Ma'am's not home. I don't want to bother Ma'am, so I go home again." Sinta answered. We then fell silent while doing the activity.

"Don't talk about it with my mom" I asked her. "Please don't tell me there's another woman in the house. Mba's afraid I'm gonna be in shock."

"So who is he? Is she really Mas Hilman's wife?" ask Sinta again. "Don't lie to me Ma'am I heard from your neighbor that he was Mas Hilman's wife too" said Sinta.

Finally what I have been hiding all this time, I can not hide anymore. as smart and easy as storing carcasses will definitely smell as well.

"really. She is also Mas Hilman's wife.please Sinta, keep this secret from Mother." I asked her.

"But why keep it a secret, ma'am? it's a big thing, you know. Why should Mba keep this a secret from us" he asked.

I rinsed the last plate. "You know for yourself that you're sick. What would happen if you knew Ma'am in two?" I asked by looking at him.

"For what? Why did Mas Hilman get married again" asked Sinta again.

I looked at him and hugged him tightly. Not talking at all about what happened. Just hugging her and spilling my sadness all this time.

Shinta just gently stroked my back and patted it a few times.

It made me cry so much. I don't want to burden him with my problems. He knows enough without me talking to him. Hopefully in the future he will not be traumatized to see me like this.

"I'm so sad, Ma'am. Strong mother yes," he said. I just nodded while wiping my tears.

"thank you" I said to him. This heart feels so relieved. All this time I had only harbored my feelings alone, but this time there was someone who understood about my life. I feel happy and sad at the same time.

Sinta looked at me with pity. He gave his best smile.

"Remove the tears. Usually Budhe will not sleep long during the day," he said to commemorate me. I just nodded and washed my face.

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"Yeah, can I talk to you for a second?" ask Mom when we're having dinner.

"Speak what, Mom?" I asked back.

"That's ... I want to ask you about your late father's garden soil" said the mother who made me look at him.

"Which garden is the land?" many confused. I don't know about garden soil. If the rice fields belong to my father I know from a long time ago. It is not extensive, but it is enough to produce the grain of each harvest. We almost never buy rice. The rice field is managed by the younger brother of the father, –pamanku–. paid by using the harvest.divided in half with the landowner.

"Your father used to buy a garden in the village, I was going to give it to you later. Who knows you'd like to have a house in the village, but I'm sorry. I will ask your sincerity to sell the garden. The money will be used for the operation. You don't mind, do you? You still have this house and also the rice fields. I have asked Mamang you to offer the garden land to others" said Mother slowly. His face was sad when he said that.

I looked at my mother and nodded my head quickly. Didn't expect that we still had others to be able to earn money. A few days ago I thought about selling rice fields, but I haven't talked to Mom yet. I'm also afraid that Mom refused because it's a relic of my father other than this house.

"It's okay, Mom. It's okay Mom sold it. Ayu also has a home. It is better to use it for the health of the mother, if it is still less rice fields are also nothing to offer. Ayu also have a little savings if it is still lacking!" answer me quickly.

Mother looked at me with wet eyes.she took my hand and stroked the back of this hand gently.

"Thank you" Mother said to me. I shook my head. I should have thanked Mom.

"Don't thank Ayu. Ayu can't even please mom."

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