Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission

126. What Should I Do?

"I wanted to say this a long time ago, when we first met again, but I realized that you still belong to him" Arga said. His hand he did not let go grasping my hand tightly.

"I know, your mother doesn't like me either, but .. I just want to try to fight you back after I stupidly left with you, Yu." Arga looked me in the eye.

It doesn't feel bad. Chest that beats quickly until it feels like this body is weak.

"I'm sorry, because I couldn't fight for you until we lived happily. If maybe I can fight Papa's wishes, I will definitely try to stay with you, Yu." The look in his eyes did not change at all.

"Sorry, if I might be selfish in saying this by not thinking about your mother, Yu. I was selfish. But here–," Arga pulled one hand, holding his own chest. "–I can't forget you, Yu. Even though I was married and had Gara, but there are still many places with your name engraved in there," said this man in an earnest tone.

I could only open my mouth without being able to make the slightest sound. The words of this man I never imagined before.

"I was trying to hold back this feeling, Yu. I know, it won't be easy to get your mother's blessing against me. Therefore, I try not to care and also to be ordinary with you. Trying for us to just be friends, but in fact, I can't. I can't hold back my feelings for you anymore" Arga said

I think Arga has always been indifferent to me with his attitude all along. However, it turned out to be the reason he had all along!

"Sorry!" arga said, releasing her hand from me.

"I'm khilaf. I shouldn't have touched you." Arga rubbed his face violently. Slightly inched back into place. His face looks red now.

"Sorry, I can't help myself. I ... it ... Em, because keep asking you," he said again. Although I'm sure that's not what he wants to talk about.

I pressed down on the chest that was pounding hard. Being close to Arga makes my heart feel like it is not strong to withstand the burden. A happy heart but also confused because of circumstances. What am I supposed to do?

I don't know what to answer. Confusion engulfs this self. Mother was my thought again. In the past, I thought about sticking with my marriage because of the sick Mother, but now I also have to think about Mom to re-establish a relationship with Arga.

"You, would you not?" ask Arga. He looked back at me.

I lowered my head, avoiding this sharp glare from my ex-boyfriend.

"I won't force you, if you don't like me it's okay. I'll take it. I will also talk to Gara so that he does not have much hope with you" said Arga resigned.

I was still down, playing my finger on the lap.

In the bottom of the heart, although it was once replaced by Mas Hilman, but the taste for Arga evidence is still there today.

"I still can't give you the same answer, Ga." That's all I can say to Arga.

Arga was silent for a moment, then nodded his head while smiling lightly.

"I understand. You need time to convince Mom?" ask Arga. He always seemed to understand my situation. I nodded, dodging was also free. Arga already knows without me saying it.

"alright. Do I have to come to the house to help you talk to Mom?" ask Arga. I shook my head quickly.

"No! Em ... I mean. I'll talk to Mom first. I'd better talk first." Refute to me quickly.