Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission

253. Hilman's Story

Hilman

I am happy to have met and spoken to him again. Not expecting the woman I had hurt, whom I had physically hurt, she had no grudge against me at all. I even forgave you for a long time. That's the Ayu I know, never arrogant and also forgiving.

He could have pretended not to recognize me, or gone without saying anything. But he can't be like that. Even when I hurt her heart when I got married again, she thought more about her mother's heart than her own. I really am a stupid man. If only maybe I had rejected mother's proposal, or maybe what she said I could have been fair to both, maybe I wouldn't have lost it this way. This is my karma.

The sky was getting darker, as I looked at the streets that were now increasingly crowded. The car that Ayu was driving was also not seen. I rushed back to my workplace, set out the bike that was about to put it here.

"Where are you going for long?" ask Dani, the young man who invited me to work here.

"Ah no, had accidentally met a friend there," I said lying.

"Oh, where did I think I was. You're not pa-pa, are you, Mas? How does her face look red?" ask the young man again.

I shook my head quickly while rubbing my face with a hand that was no longer smooth. "It's nothing, it's just like the dust." I lied again. No need for him to know who I met.

"I ate first, hungry. Is it okay to go first?" ask again.

"It's okay, it's free to want anyone." I put out a hand asking for a parking number to him, who knows there are visitors to this mall who will take the motorbike.

While waiting quietly, I returned to look at Ayu's face. She is a true ayu, a real beauty. Her name reflects her good personality and is also beautiful.

She looked even more charming, let alone her adorable chubby cheeks.

I am a less fortunate man. Lying by his own wife. The woman I loved more betrayed me.

Almost eleven o'clock at night I just arrived home, the situation was quiet lights have also been turned off a lot. Also in the tv room. The TV is on with the mother sleeping on the bed. Vita still opened her eyes, she sucked a bottle of milk that was no longer there. Her hand grabbed the clothes mother pulled, as if she were asking to make milk, but she had fallen asleep deep into her dreams difficult to wake up.

"Vita!" Call me after you turn on the lights. The boy closed his eyes with both hands, seemingly glare at the light. Unfortunately for him, his eyes can be damaged by watching TV without lights.

How long did my daughter take the bottle off and crawl down from the bed. His big smile quickly went towards me. I crouched down to grab it.

"Dad's son hasn't slept?" I asked, despite knowing he wouldn't answer, but he smiled as he patted my cheek.

"Ohhhh!" His voice sounded distinctive, slightly shouting in excitement.

"Vita hungry? Want milk?" ask her.

"Cu ..." he said briefly. I took her to the kitchen not forgetting the bottle on the bed. Make him not too much milk, because the stock of milk still I have not bought. The milk in the can stayed a little longer, maybe still can until the day after tomorrow. I wish I had the sustenance to give him formula.

Vita I'm lying on the bed. Pat her thighs gently so she goes back to sleep. Tired of this body, it feels crumpled. Tired after a day of work, night also had to take care of Vita, if only maybe I had a wife of course I would not be hassles like this. But who wants to be with me? I am just an unworthy person. Not like I used to when I was successful.

"Ma!" vita exclaimed suddenly, taking off the bottle that was in his mouth. I was stunned to hear it. Again he spoke, "Ma." And repeated it many times. Sometimes I hear him call it twice to be the word 'mama'. It was so clear to me that I felt sad about her situation.

"yeah. Ma!" He spoke again. This time with a laugh, her hand touched my cheek piercing her with her tiny finger.

"What?" I ask him even though in this heart it feels painful.

"Ma!" said again.

Is what I think the same as what he meant? Does she want her mother?

"Ma who?" my many. Vita did not reply, only laughing while hitting my cheek a little hard.

"Sleep yuk daddy's tired. Beautiful boy, sleep huh?" doors to him. I closed my eyes. Usually if I do that Vita will follow close her eyes.

Surely not until ten minutes he had fallen asleep. The bottle in his hand almost fell. I picked it up and kept it on the table.

I wipe his sweaty forehead, the air in this house does feel hot, I am still not able to buy a fan to be a little cool in this room.

Vita, how sorry is he. A child has lost the love of his mother. Hana left and never came back. Though I still wish he had come to accompany me and take care of Vita. I don't care what he ever did to us. Even though she had cheated me out raw, at least she came back because she remembered her daughter.

Yes, Vita is Hana's son, but not my flesh and blood. I only found out when he was two months old, had a pretty serious illness, had a congenital kidney disease from birth. The doctor had already checked, it seemed like this was a hereditary factor. I don't know if Hana or maybe Vita's father brought this disease down. Only then did I find out when the doctor asked about Vita's disease. The doctor needed my blood, but when I did the blood tests I didn't match him at all. And so is my other family's blood. Hannah is not the same blood. In whose child?

At first, Hannah did not want to confess. However, after I urged him and also threatened him he spoke up. Behind me he was playing with another man. He said guiltlessly dislike of me for whom he was an old man. Our age is indeed much different, he was also reunited with his ex-girlfriend in this city.

I thought he was sincerely accepting our marriage back then, it turned out that he just wanted to live a decent life. Everything I gave him and his family didn't make him really love me. I was fooled by his face, I was fooled by his innocence, he was a poisonous snake.

After acknowledging the truth about Vita, silent silence went away. I don't know where he is now. And if he comes back and takes care of Vita, I won't mind what he did to me. I will try to sincerely accept her, it is also impossible for me to let her live alone together with her baby. But, another with his thoughts. I didn't know what her heart was made of so she left a two-month-old baby to me.

I love Vita sincerely. He loved her very much and never thought of her as someone else's child. Only she could make me smile happily, even though it was very painful at first to see her face that was not at all similar to mine or to Hana. It was as if God was rebuking me and giving me a reward for the sins I have committed so far.

Again, if I was like this all I remember is Ayu. If it is possible Ayu is not my soul mate, but I always pray in the afterlife later I can mate again with him. Aamiins.

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Who wants to tell Hilman where it is. Othor did it. Don't bother anymore. Not very strong, 😭😭