Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission

130. Surrender

I did not expect, it turned out that Arga was waiting for me in front of the office as I got out of my room. Desi and Nina were quick to tell that Arga or what they knew as Eka was waiting by leaning against the pillar.

"We're talking, we haven't finished talking, have we?" arga said that is not a question, but an order. Suddenly I was scared.

I just thought about it when he took me to his car. She said she wanted to talk to me for a minute while having coffee at the cafe next door. All my bikes were also taken by the driver as usual, and were waiting for us at the cafe we were going to.

Arga was silent, I lowered my head to play my finger under the table. My feeling is that the man in front of me is watching me.

"So? How's it?" ask Arga to me.

"Can't I be close to you?" ask again.

I'm still down. Baffled. Should I tell him this or not.

Coffee drinks that have been tested a little lost smoke thin, not too visible as before.

"Am I that bad in your mother's eyes, Yu?" ask Arga again makes me feel bad. I haven't said anything about our conversation last night.

"I'm .. I'm confused about what to say to you, Ga. Mother ... just be afraid," I replied with stammering. Duh, why do I have to talk this honestly?

"Fearful? Is it because I'm an ex-user?"

My reflexes turned towards him. How did he know what Mom and I were talking about last night and this morning?

I just kept quiet. Arga looked at me sharply from across the table. He heard her slightly rough breathing.

"I'm a former wearer, but I'm clean now. Never touch that illicit stuff again" Arga said.

"I know, Ga. I trust you. But different from Mom. I don't know what else to talk to Mom about." I looked down again, avoiding his sharp gaze from her.

"I'm sorry. It's just .. It looks like I'll just do what Mom said, Ga. Not that I don't trust you, but only Mom that I have right now." I spoke slowly to Arga. Arga's hand was seen approaching and holding my hand tightly, stroking the back of my hand with her thumb.

"Mom's all I have. I've lied a lot all along. Not while being the same you, even when I was still trying to forgive Mas Hilman also I lied a lot. and it .. make Mother hurt because I cheated Mom," I told her.

We were silent, but then Arga gave a small laugh, leaving me confused by this attitude of hers. I raised my head to look at her who was laughing without caring about the few people who were staring at us in a daze.

"Yes, if you have such thoughts, I cannot force you either. Let Gara be my business later," said Arga. There is a pain I feel in this heart hearing him speak like that. But how else, anyway? I can't do much either. A child's paradise is on the soles of Mother's feet.

After we talked at the cafe, Arga drove me home. I just kept quiet on the way until he finally stopped his car in front of the house.

"Don't think too much, Yu. Our conversation was .. consider it just ordinary talk," said Arga with a smile. I just nodded slowly.

"I went inside first, yeah." Pamitku has Arga. The man sitting beside me replied with a nod of his head as well.

"Be careful" he said.

"Yes. You also carefully go home."

Arga got out of the car until I got into the fence. The driver who brought me my bike is now in Arga's car, replacing the one who was driving me home.

"Delivered Arga again?" ask the mother who is now in the doorway. His gaze sharply stared at the smiling Arga while nodding his head from where he was still standing.

"Yes, Mom. Just chill. Ayu already said that she doesn't need to get close to Ayu anymore. Ayu will obey Mom," I said in a lethargic tone, not excited at all.

Mother did not answer, only to close the door of the house quite hard to the size of a meek Mother.

"Go to the room first, ma'am." I said.

I walked into the room, didn't want to make Mom talk a lot about my relationship or anything about Arga. It hurts so much when I hear about that guy that I don't like.