Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission

78. The Persistent Doctor

"Allow me to be close to Ma'am Ayu."

"I'm sorry if I've been presumptuous, but honestly I can't forget Mbak Ayu since then. In fact, I have been sassy to dream of Mbak Ayu who is still happy together with her husband. I'm sorry, Madam Ayu. I'm very sorry for being so presumptuous" he said in a trembling tone. He did not dare to look at me, just lowered his head and sat down uneasily.

I took my eyes off her. I now prefer to look at the floor under my feet. It seemed like my eyes were getting sharper and more focused on the group of ants that were there.

Silence shackled between us. The sound of the wheels again sounded outside there along with the sound of footsteps that sounded increasingly distant.

The more powerful what you said at that time, if Doctor Wira turns out to like me. And now this is the real thing that I heard from his mouth plainly.

I breathe slowly. Throwing a breath that feels a little bad in the throat.

"Is that why Doker helped me find a lawyer?" I asked Doctor Wira. Bad thoughts immediately greeted me about the kindness this man gave me. Isn't there a shrimp behind the rock?

"Yes. If Mbak Ayu thinks I took this opportunity to get close to Mbak Ayu, maybe it is true. The attention and help I gave it can indeed be said solely because I want to get closer to Mbak Ayu without anyone interfering. But behind that I also do not want to see Mbak Ayu constantly sad with the situation. Ayu's mother deserves to be happy. Although ... suppose not with me though,"' he said in a soft tone at the end of the sentence.

I was silent to hear his words. He is good because he wants to. A little disappointed, but how else? Feelings cannot be forced.

"Doctors know that I'm not officially divorced?"

"Yes, I know. And I'm sorry for that. I just want Mbak Ayu to consider what I said."

Again, I breathed heavily. Still makes a little tightness in the chest.

"Doctor, I .. apologize to Doker. It's not that I don't appreciate the help the Doctor gave me, but I don't think it's appropriate for the Doctor to talk about it at this point. My status is still a wife."

"That means that if Mbak Ayu has officially separated from her husband, will Mbak Ayu weigh up my request earlier?" asked the Hero Doctor, sounding hopeful.

"I don't know, but please don't expect more from me, because I'm tired of relationships. I want to be alone first" I told Doctor Wira. The doctor's breath sounded heavy.

"Sorry, Doctor. I apologize to the Doctor. I ... emm ...." I fell silent to feel bad for this doctor let alone look at his eyes that look at me expectantly, but to establish a relationship back for me it was difficult after being betrayed by a Hilman Prayoga.

"I just hope after our talks Ayu did not keep a distance from me. Allow me to wait for the readiness of the heart of Mbak Ayu to be able to accept the presence of foreigners in the life of Mbak and also Mother Diah." The Hero Doctor stared at me shamelessly again, right piercing in the depths of these eyes, making me misbehave.

***

The mother had regained consciousness from her post-operative anaesthetic in the morning, after the doctor stated that her condition had improved, she was taken to the hospital room.

My conversation with Doctor Wira last night came to a halt when Yu Tarni woke up and was stunned to see Doctor Wira who was near us. We decided to stop this conversation. It was fortunate that Yu Tarni woke up and I was able to get out of my discomfort in that atmosphere.

"Mom's doing it?" ask slowly to Mother, the oxygen hose now helps the breathing of the mother who is still weak. An infusion hose was also attached to his other hand.

She just smiled and blinked her eyes in response. Yu Tarni is still here. I told her to go home, but Yu Tarni refused because she was worried about Mom's condition. Yu Tarni said it would be noon or afternoon after being sure that Mom was okay she was going home.

I'm glad you're sober and able to respond to what I'm asking, even if you answer with a smile and a blink of an eye. Mother's hair at the surgery site was shaved a few centi and now there is a bandage there.

Honestly I'm sad, but also happy because Mom won't feel any pain in her head anymore.

In the afternoon, Mother has now fallen asleep again due to the drugs given by the doctor.

Yu Tarni also came home because she had to take care of her son and husband at home, not to forget I said a lot of thanks to Yu Tarni for all her help and care for us.

"Mbak Ayu has eaten?" The voice of the Hero Doctor sounded after the door of this room closed.

I who was playing hp now turned towards him. Doctor Wira approached and gave the black plastic package that was in his hand.

"Create, Ms. Ayu. I am worried that Mbak Ayu is sick because he does not eat" he said with embarrassment.

"thank you. But the doctor don't bother yourself with bringing this food for me" I said unkindly.

"It's okay. I don't mind. It is better to eat first after that break. Let Mother Diah I will monitor while Mbak Ayu eat and bathe," he said. He went to Mom's bed to check her blood pressure.