Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission

251. Hilman's Confession

Pov Hilman's

In a hurry I walked out of the mall, I was asked by someone to buy food from the field stall opposite this mall. I walked over counting the money I had in my hand, the change of some people who refused to take it and gave it to me. Thank God, extra for the Vita snack tomorrow.

As a result of walking without looking, I accidentally hit a small child. The thing he was holding fell on the floor.

"Sorry, sorry. Om not intentionally," I said as I took the item, a tiny yellow shoe. I gave it back to him, but I was surprised to see who the boy I just hit was. I'm familiar with this kid's face, the face I noticed last time along with ... Ayy!

"It's okay, Om," said the boy, hugging the baby's shoes tightly. I'm stunned, baby shoes. Is ....

Looking at me looking to the side, a woman with a big hijab looks fixated on me. I saw something strange about her, especially her body. She looks beautiful and very charming, her cheeks look very chuby now, her face is different from when she was with me, looks more radiant even though I'm sure she doesn't wear makeup on her face at all.

I turned my gaze a little down. Behind the strap of the bag she was wearing, her stomach looked big. I'm sure it's not just a fat person, obviously I took care of 'that woman' during her pregnancy and I'm sure Ayu got the same thing this time.

Is Ayu being ....

"Hilman," call someone. I turned my head and found a man who had just got out of the car and approached Ayu. His big hands were around my ex-wife's waist.

"What are you doing?" the man looked at us in turn.

"So this Om accidentally hit Brother, Pa!" a boy who looks so much like him.

"Oh, are you okay?" ask again.

"What's wrong, Pa. This is Papa save, afraid of being damaged, make baby dedek later," he said while giving up the object that had fallen because of my actions.

The deg! It was strange, this pain in the heart heard this boy mention the word 'baby grandpa'. The remark explained that Ayu is currently pregnant. Alhamdulillahot.

Without feeling my eyes begin to warm. I am happy with Ayu's current situation.

"Ah, yes. Im sorry. I accidentally bumped earlier," I said unpleasantly. I looked down, ashamed of my current state. We see too much difference between us. She's in nice clothes, but look at me, from the clothes I'm wearing people know who I am. I take one step back, I better leave and stay away.

"Pa, may I ask permission?" ayu asked the man just as I was about to speak to the two. He nodded and smiled, took his son's hand and slightly retreated from us. It was nice of him to give us time to talk. Doesn't he feel jealous of his wife talking to a former ex?

"Mas" said Ayu, smiling at me. That voice, that smile, was so soothing. It feels like there is in a barren desert that is very dry, now getting soothing water.

"Can we talk for a minute?" askinya. I'm reluctant, but don't know why this head nodded.

"That's it, Mas. There are many passing by here" he said. Again I nodded and followed his footsteps a little walk a few steps to the right.

"How are you, Mas Hilman?" ask her while smiling kindly.

"good. I'm good, Yu. You?" my many. I lowered my eyes from him. I was ashamed of what I had done to her. Shame because I had bad intentions towards him.

"I'm good, as you can see," he said in a casual tone. Don't know what I'm like now? My feelings are mixed because of his attitude. Why isn't he angry at my last treatment? He should've slapped me, he should've hit me. I'd be happier if he did that.

"sorry. I'm sorry for what I've done so far with you, let alone the last time. I ... sorry. You're hurt because of me. I'm sorry, even though I don't deserve you to forgive me for the bad things I've done to you" I said in a stifled voice in my throat.

The heat in my eyes is now replaced with warm water that flows, I will never feel ashamed even though many people who pass by look at us in wonder.

Arga has taken good care of him. I should have realized that, I should have given up that time. However, the sense of inadmissibility and insincereness made me always make myself a very sad person.

"Thank you, you are indeed a good woman, Yu. I don't deserve you to forgive. There are too many sins that I have committed with you" I said regretfully.

Ayu lifted her head and smiled at me. "That's the past, Mom. The most important thing now is that you want to change. It's not like before" he said.

"Yes, I'm trying to change, Yu. All that happens to me is karma because I ignore a wife who is very loyal and righteous. I ... am taking my punishment now."

"Don't be sorry, Mas. I may not be your soul mate. But I once felt happy living with you," he said again which made me even more unable to hold back the pace of my tears. His words mean so much to me right now.

Throw my body in front of him, kneel down to ask for forgiveness. The man who became her husband is now seen approaching with a worried face. Ayu was surprised to see me kneeling before her. He took one step back.

"I'm sorry, Yu. I'm really sorry! I'm mistaken. I deserve this punishment!" I cried, crying over my now messy life. No longer as happy as before.

Ayu's husband has now been behind Ayu, as well as her son.

"I'm sorry. It's karma for me, Yu. I'm sorry!" I couldn't stand it, limp this body until now almost prostrated on the floor, quickly Ayu came and pulled both my arms, asking me to stand up.

"I don't deserve you to forgive." My tears are still breaking. Some passersby stopped and looked at us.

"Mas, don't talk like that. You can't talk like that, Mom. I've already forgiven you. God can forgive me, why can't I?" said it.

"Wake up, please. Don't kneel like that, Mommy." His face looked sad, still trying to get me up from the floor.

"There is all cause and effect, all predestined by destiny. You can't be like this."

I could no longer say, only tears could I let out as soul emotions due to my regret.

Ayu crouched down, rubbing my shoulder gently.

"That's it, Mas. You better increase your worship, pray and ask for forgiveness from God. Allah will lift you up again. Will make you come back like you used to, live better."

Truly she was a noble woman, there was no angry tone in her speech, no grudge implied in her sentence. It makes me even sadder that I was too stupid to leave him.

"I'm sorry for your mother's treatment, Yu. Mother was wrong all this time, you're a normal woman. You can contain. I'm the one with the problem" I said without shame.

"Huh? What's that supposed?" tanya Ayu sounded confused.

"I am unable to have children, Yu. Ii'm sorry. I've wasted you."

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