Sharing Love: My Husband Married Without My Permission

138. Arga. Second Heart Pain

Pov Arga's

"Mother ... Mom told me that you were waiting for someone to come and whip me."

I was surprised when Ayu said that. His head bowed, his voice sounding softly not excited at all. His fingers moved around each other. The voices of people and vehicles that were clearly heard, now there was nothing in my ear. My focus is now on the woman with the sky blue veil in front of me. Where is this woman who once throttled hearts and minds. Let alone now that I was alone, even when I was married .. ah, I think I'm crazy! I can't stop this head from thinking about him.

I'm sorry Haifa, I've been with you for as long as we're married. Although I never mentioned Ayu's name in front of Haifa, but my attitude towards her all this time was ordinary, never excessive. Cannot give you complete love. Let alone to make fun, just talk us just as necessary, and unfortunately when we do that.

I'm brengs*k's man!

I stared at Ayu who was still lowered, not expecting and could not say anything other than just clenching a finger on the palm of the hand. I tried to restrain myself, if I were still the old Arga, of course I would have kidnapped Ayu and made her unable to escape from me. Let it be, let her mother be forced to allow us to be together. However, I can still think well and sanely. I don't want the taste that's there for Ayu to make her hate this self.

Ayu was still speechless, we did not speak a word. The sounds of people passing by near us are back.

What I heard this should not be strange and surprising actually, considering that Ayu had officially been alone from a few months ago and her mother would have wanted Ayu to have a companion who could take care of her. I don't know what made her mother not approve of me wanting to be close to her. But his words just now ....

Ah, crap! My Heart ....

Like a flower that has lost its petals. Bees that lost their honey, and ranchers who lost their cows. Arggh! What's wrong with me? Isn't it obvious that with his mother's refusal, it should have made me turn off my hopes and aspirations for this woman?

Yeah, God! I just want to live quietly. Why did you present him if you had to make me get hurt again?

"Then be safe. I'm very happy with the news" I said, extending my hand to her.

Ayu lifted her head, she looked at my hand and turned to me, her gaze looked different than usual, her eyes were teary.

"You ... I'm sorry" he said again, bowing his head without any intention of welcoming my hand. I took this hand and looked at him sharply. There was a sense of sadness and also did not accept he would be together with the others.

Yeah, God! I was heartbroken once, but this time it hurt so much to know Ayu would be with the others for the second time. I tried to neutralize this feeling in my heart even though it was very difficult.

"It's okay. You deserve your happiness" I replied.

For a moment I was silent. You idiot! Why did I say that word? Of course if she's betrothed to another Ayu is unhappy, isn't she?

We went back to silence.

"I will try, even if it feels very difficult, Yu. Don't worry, I'm a man. Heartache is okay, it's important you're okay" I replied.

Ayu looked at me, her gaze soft and tender.

"So you'd be willing if I were with the others? You're not gonna try again?" ask Ayu again.

I'm rattled. If I keep going forward, how does his mother respond? Wouldn't he be hurt if his daughter didn't obey?

"I ... If your mother has made up her mind, what can I do, Yu? I don't want to make Mom sad anymore. You better follow through with Mom's words. After all, a mother's blessing is the best thing in the world."

Ayu smiled at my words. A smile that I might not see in a moment if Ayu no longer works in the office. The thing that I had once imagined together with Gara about Ayu should be completely buried at the bottom so that it would not surface again.

"Then I wait for you at home."

I was shocked to hear his words. Not understanding what he meant. Did she invite me to her wedding? Is he going to leave this fast?

I looked down, overcame the thumping heart, wanting to scream and slam something on the ground. Or... Can I just come by later and ruin their party?

For a second I closed my eyes, trying to calm my heart back. Don't want to be seen in her eyes if I'm angry and emotional.

"I'm waiting for you to come, Ga. Don't forget to bring your parents along, too" he said.

I turned my gaze. This wound in his heart widened even more, his smile as he invited me earlier showed that he was happy too. Has he met and matched the man? Is he a good man? How handsome is he? Will he love Ayu and her mother? Will he accept Ayu's lack of offspring? What if Ayu gets complicated by her family later?

Oh, geez! Why do I think like this? I should have prayed something good for him.

"I can't promise. But I will try to come" I said. It hurts! I'm heartbroken back!

"So you don't want to come? Then you'll miss the chance to get my mother's blessing?"

"W-what?"