Home For My Soul

91|It's Not Time

My parents always taught us to be honest and fair to anyone. As children of the rich and respected, they remind us never to abuse what is in us. Did I not hear wrong? You threatened to ruin the Amarylis study?

“If Mama behaves like this, even to death, I will not marry Chika. Because she made Mama a bad person. Where is my mama who always values others and upholds the value of truth?” I said offended.

“Mama doesn't spend a dime on her tuition fees, so don't touch her. Everything he achieved was the result of his own hard work, unlike me and Chika who relaxed just paid for high school as we wanted by parents.”

“I did it so that you do not continue to bring our family into ruin,” Mama said firmly. “Are you satisfied after your video and he's in bed so viral?”

“What if Mama or Chika confess? You guys, ‘kan, who made the video go viral? I'm still Papa's shadow, the news about me is more excited than the main director? Anyway, I'm not gonna touch my future wife over the line before we get married.

“So, please advise Chika as well so as not to tease or seduce me again.” I looked towards Papa. “Gue departs, Pa. Sorry, if I'm a little late. Papa already knows the reason.”

“Theo,” call Mama, but I don't rub it anymore.

Mama threatened to block Amarylis from graduating this semester. I'm not gonna let that happen. He has suffered enough by working to raise money, as well as studying in order to maintain his academic achievements. My mother did not have to add to her life's troubles anymore.

I was wrong. Amaryllis's right. I shouldn't be in his life right now. The selfish me forced him into a relationship secretly, then into a serious bond. I am also the one who cannot resist jealousy.

This is better. Amaryllis was able to work on her script quietly and I prepared my master studies smoothly. So, I can't let my own mama ruin her plan. She was my mother, but could forget how to win my heart.

On my way home from work, I received a message from Daisy, Amarylis' personal bodyguard. He was suspicious of Amarilis's attitude, who had just returned from the home of his supervising lecturer. But he had no other information, because he could not enter the house without being discovered by the owner.

When they followed him to the hotel in the evening, I was surprised. What else is he doing in Norman's other hotel? I tried to calm myself down so as not to burn jealous. We've broken up, so I don't deserve this kind of emotion.

Just knowing she was following her lecturer to the elevator after dinner, I couldn't take it anymore. Fucking old man! What is he thinking!? Does he want to harass my future wife!? I finally arrived at the hotel, but someone held my hand, holding my steps.

“Don't spoil your own plan, Sir. Let our colleagues take care of him,” said one of the men who became my personal bodyguard.

“Keep him? They failed to do so when he was at his lecturer's house. How can you guarantee they will help him in time!?” amucku. I took my hand from him.

“What did you forget? Mbak Amarylis can protect himself,” said the man, reminding me.

That word can awaken me. Also true. Amaryllis is not a helpless woman who will not be able to take care of herself. What was I just about to do? I cannot be here and be seen by others, especially Amaryllis. My plan could fall apart.

Long enough to wait, I saw Amarylis coming out of the lobby with Matt and his college friends. She looks fine. I would love to be by her side, helping her calm down. This incident must have shaken him. He had to experience it because of me.

“Who's been seeing that lecturer lately?” ask my bodyguard.

I stopped not far from my house long enough before coming home. My emotions are really high and I don't want to kill anyone as an outlet. The Winara family again had dinner at our house, so I rushed to the room.

I'm going to take an English proficiency exam this weekend, so I need to focus and stay out of trouble. Another file is in order, only one important document is left. Once the registration opens, I can calmly apply for my application.

My bedroom door opened while I was changing clothes in the wardrobe room. I knew right away who did it. The waiter came to deliver the food while I was in the shower. They always knock on the door. Only one brash person and he is not the resident of this house.

“Theo? Oho! I'm sorry.” He was standing in the doorway, while I was wearing a T-shirt.

I passed him when I got out of that place and the lights went out automatically. I approached the sofa and ate my dinner which was still warm. Shamelessly, she sat by my side making my appetite almost disappear.

“My script is done, so I'll just have a trial. You're coming, huh? Om has given permission for you not to work on that day,” he said, half persuaded.

I just kept quiet. Papa can give me permission not to work for a year, if he wants. But I decided what activities I chose that day. After what he did today, I can no longer be nice to him.

“Theo, I need you. If you were there, I would dare to face that great test. I beg. You're coming, huh?” her door. His hand is on my thigh.

“Lo for me no appetite.” I stared hard at his hand.

“I'm being polite to you, not like he's giving himself to get you. But you act like I'm doing more than touching your feet,” the protest. “What does he have that I don't have? Do I have to give up my body too so you can choose me?”

He opened the small knitted jacket he was wearing. “Please. We're getting married, I don't mind you opening your first night gift now.”

“Gue loves him, therefore I want him. You want to be naked in front of me though, I'm not interested. I don't have any feelings for you,” I said seriously. “Moreover after your deeds tonight. Don't think I don't know lo's dirty plan.”

“A-what? Which man would not touch the woman who gave herself to him? Hypocritical you. After a while together, you will cheat just like other men. You can't possibly not get bored with Amaryllis.” He snorted loudly.

“Regarding your accusation, I have no dirty plans tonight. I take good care of myself, because I know what reputation means in our family,” he said, without feeling guilty already daring to lie to me.

But I didn't show you the photos and recordings that corroborated my words earlier. I will not accuse without evidence. Not time. Once the time comes, I will make him and his family sorry for making me and Amarylis so difficult.

He finally left when the waiter came to deliver a message from his parents. I ignored him by re-studying the example of the exam I was about to face. Although he continued to speak out in protest because I was silent, I covered my ears from the sound of his bells.

My bedroom door was knocked, I sighed in annoyance. Will these people never leave me alone with my business? Someone came in before I could say it and immediately sat down on the edge of my bed. Hearing him cluck, I immediately recognized his voice.

“Gue can't stand it. The woman could not come to this house again. You have to tell me the same story,” he said in an urgent tone. “What secrets did our parents have in the past? Did they make a fatal mistake that ruined our family's good name?”