Home For My Soul

30|Backstreet Only

I took out a tissue to dry my lips and chin, then cleaned the water that soaked the front of my shirt and pants. That opportunity I used to think about my answer to his sudden question.

“Ah, yes. I forget. Where there may be a guy who wants to be the same fat and ugly girl,” he said, piercing my heart. So obnoxious. Similar to her brother.

“Heh. Think before you speak. Ugly like this, there must be a guy who secretly likes me,” my protest, do not accept being insulted so.

If only she knew me and her brother were in a secret relationship, she would not believe it. Not only him, everyone would also not be able to accept that reality. Theo, who comes from a well-known and handsome family, may be attracted to fat and ugly girls.

Not to mention that her mother found out. I'm not sure Aunt Ruth would still be nice and nice to me, if she knew me and her son were dating. I'm not the ideal son-in-law in their eyes. My physical appearance was concerning, let alone my social status.

He looked at me for a moment. “No mental illness, huh? One time, her best brother asked for mercy, was polite, sweet, and patient. Other times, Brother speaks loudly like this.” He rubbed his chin. “What do-not, Big Brother double personality?”

“This is a teacher. Must know when the right time to be firm and patient, let alone have students like you,” I replied smoothly.

That was the most appropriate reason I could think of in such a short period of time. Evidently, he laughed amusedly at hearing that. I managed to get rid of her suspicions towards my fickle attitude. Theo already knew who I was, so I no longer needed to pretend to be Amaryllis. It is more comfortable and free to be yourself.

“Quick finish your task. Our study time is running out.” I glanced at my watch.

“Gue is done.” He sat by my side, then gave me his job to check.

After checking it out, I told him where the error lay on some of the less precise answers. When he repeated solving the same problem with a different case and no longer made a mistake, then I was satisfied.

“There's a girl I like,” she said, surprising me. He looked serious, so I refrained from reprimanding him who liked to suddenly change the topic. “Just like Theo, she already has a future husband, betrothed to her parents. So, she rejected my love.”

“Then what are your next plans?” ask me after he just shut up.

“Try again, dong. New period one time rejected directly give up.” He spoke with confidence. “If need we backstreet until I managed to melt the hearts of his parents.”

Brother and sister are the same. They like unimportant challenges. But he is saneer than his brother. At least, the woman he was after was equal to him. Both of their parents would not lose anything if the two were united.

Me and Theo had absolutely no hope. What can I give them if they get married? There aren't. I'm not a great person, not even an artist or a model. Even if I were a celebrity, I would have to be scandal-free in order to be in their family.

But I admire Matt's perseverance, not giving up even though he was rejected. I would humble myself so. If anyone refuses, I better find someone else. Like no one else is cooler. Ugly like this, I still have my pride.

“Gue can't have lunch with you for the next three days, so, watch out, don't mess around. Avoid Richo and any men. You can only eat with your girlfriends,” Theo said as I returned his helmet.

“Are you not bored of saying that every Monday?” many wonder.

“Better bored than see lo cheating,” he said arrogantly.

“Heh. I'm not that kind of woman! Your brain is nothing positive, yes. Everything you think about me is always bad,” my protest is upset.

“Lo bully people during our SMU, is it not enough to think bad things about lo?” He raised his chin, challenging me.

I can't answer, because he's right. I close my lips, unable to respond to that annoying sentence. So I turned around and went into the house upset. Already know I'm a bad guy, then why is he dating me? Time just out of curiosity?

Fortunately, I didn't need to meet or interact with him for the next three days. I can focus on doing the work with Sonata. She's a brilliant girl with fresh ideas. Fun to be discussed. What makes us uncomfortable, Rahma is always where we are.

Since Sonata only has a laptop, I don't have the files I keep. Just a note from each of our discussions. I think I need that thing. If I get one of the scholarships I applied for, it's the one I'm going to buy first.

“What is definitely not in a place that suits your class,” I replied indifferently.

“I'm coming. Better to eat alone than alone.” She aligned her steps with me, not listening to any dislike of my tone earlier.

“Rahma,” I stop, can't stand it anymore with his attitude, “what do you want?” I looked into his eyes seriously.

“What do you mean?” tanyanya's confused. If it wasn't because I knew her very well, I would have been fooled by her innocent face.

“We agreed to live each other's lives. What are you doing by approaching me?” my question does not understand.

“I just want to be friends with you.”

“That's not in our deal. I have refused to befriend you,” I said again, recalling our last conversation when he came to me. I was hoping he would say the words I was waiting for. It just seems to want to stay friends.

“Kat, ah, I mean, Amaryllis .. I'm not the same person anymore. I want to be friends with you. Really am. I don't want to get close to bad people anymore, so I'm not with Chika and Nisa. They've had a bad influence on me.”

“I have also had a bad influence on you, Rahma. Please, don't follow me again.” I raised my hand to see that she was intending to step with me. Seeing him stop, I then continued my goal of returning to my residence.

After one week of not meeting, I was happy to see Brother standing at the campus gate. I immediately ran over and hugged her tightly. Care deeply about Theo and his silly warnings. He can't possibly have eyes here that can see my every move.

“Kakak from anywhere?” my protest. “Why long time no visible?”

“Let's just talk. I'm hungry.” He took me to his motorcycle.

It turns out that she was preparing to audition to become a rising star of male perfume commercials. It was only fitting that he immediately ran away to hear Theo's threat. Big Brother has no self-respect. His career was more important than his own brother's.

Just sec. What did I just think? Brother Jericho and I are not sisters anymore. We are not from the same content, our DNA is clearly different, even all my identity is not in the name of Katelia, but Amarylis. I'm not his sister anymore.

Although my soul is Katelia, Theo is right. Me and Brother Jericho could have had more relationships and no one could have banned us. Want to be examined from any side, we are not siblings. Hiii, scary. I don't want to have a relationship with my brother.

“What are you thinking?” ask Brother Jericho full of probes.

“Ah, no, Brother.” I put a spoonful of rice in my mouth. “Hm. The food is good, huh?” He could be angry if he knew what I was thinking. I didn't want to lose our friendship just because Theo suspected my brother's feelings for me would turn romantic.

“You're close to Theo, yes?” ask again. “You better be careful. Papa doesn't like Husada Family. Even if you are betrothed to their son, Papa will not let your marriage happen.

“Therefore, Papa did not tell you who your husband would be, nor did he ever announce your relationship as other businessmen usually do. If you don't like them, there's a reason. One of them, they are bad guys,” he said.

I was stunned to hear that information I had never thought of before. Also true. Mom and Dad just told me I had a fiance. But they never told me his name or introduced me to him and his family.

That weirdness never bothered me, because I believe my parents only thought about what was best for us, their children. If Papa really doesn't like Husada Family, then why am I betrothed to their son? Is it possible that Om Azarya threatened Papa and forced him to betroth me to Theo?

Not likely. The family is very good. Om and Aunt were very friendly to me, nor did they ever look me one eye at the difference in our status. Theo was annoying, but his heart was kind. Matt likes fun, but he's a fun guy.

Then what's the reason Papa won't announce my engagement to Theo and hide my future husband's identity from me?