Home For My Soul

27|Fake Friends

After I thought about it, what do I need to worry about if these three naughty girls know about me? All of their secrets are in my hands, it would be fair if I were to reveal one of my secrets to them. When they told everyone, they would only be considered insane.

I'm sure they don't want to ruin their own family's reputation by doing that. I won't lose anything, but they will lose everything. After all, I'm tired of playing cat-and-mouse with them.

“I will let you go, but promise me we will talk well without any violence,” I whispered to him. He immediately nodded quickly. As soon as I let go of her neck, she immediately ran and stood behind Rahma's body.

“You all right, Chika?” ask them both, worried about her situation.

The girl coughed as she took a deep breath. Rahma and Nisa help by wiping her back and giving her a bottle of water. I just kept quiet, waiting until the situation was conducive enough to start a conversation.

“Can we talk now?” ask me while crossing my arms in front of my chest.

“Heh, it's not you who determines when we talk!” hardik Rahma, without fear. “You want me to clear? The rhino doesn't know himself! If I report your actions today to the lecturer, you can be expelled from this campus.”

Chika touched her hand and shook her head. “What do you mean, Chika? You don't have to be afraid of him. There's me and Nisa who will help you,” Rahma said.

“Dia Kat,” said Chika in a hoarse voice.

“What?” asked the two of them, not believing their hearing.

Chika let out a long breath before speaking again. “He is not Amaryllis, but Kat.” The poor girl tried to explain.

I simply called him by the name he hated the most, then he knew this was me right away. Chika hates being called Chik. Westerners have a good meaning for this call. Chick is aimed at attractive young girls. Still he doesn't like it.

Rahma and Nisa freeze. They do not move or talk for a while. When they turned their heads towards me, their faces were already deathly pale. Their eyes moved wildly a sign they were trying to digest what had happened.

“How did you guys sleep after working together to get rid of me?” my question, without further ado.

“Kat,” says Nisa. I glanced at him. “Ah, I mean, Amaryllis. Ka-we don't cooperate un-to get rid of you.”

“Oh, yes? Then why are you nervous?” my challenge.

The three of them exchanged looks. I knew them for three years, but never expected the friendship of the three of them to be full of falsehoods. They both had to be my friends. If so better we never made friends at all.

“You know what hurts the most in the world? Your soul is alive, but everyone thinks you are dead,” I said softly. “Then do you know the most beneficial of my circumstances? I know who is sincere and who pretends to be nice to me.”

“Amarilis, you misunderstood,” said Rahma, trying to give an explanation.

“I want us to take our own path,” I continued, not caring about his words. “It's enough we hurt each other. Katelia's dead, let her go for good. Everything you remember about him was on Amarilis, pretending to be blind. You guys had to be friends with me, so you guys I set free.”

I looked at them one by one. “It is not too late for you to change. Don't copy me. Everything I did in school was so bad, look at the consequences. I was in the body of the person I hurt the most and could not go back to being me again.

“I lost my life, my family, my identity, my body, this is worse than hell. I who never make money myself must work until my hand calluses.” I showed my palms to them. “Do not until the same thing happens to you.

“I know this information is very surprising to you. Believe me, I still can't believe this is happening to me. If you have any questions, I'm ready to answer. Then after this, I want us to live each of our lives,”, I seriously asked.

They were too shaken and it took me time to digest the information I had just conveyed. So, we parted ways and I waited for the next news from them. My weight lifted off both of my shoulders finished talking to them. I can even calmly be myself.

I cannot deny my identity forever. This is Amaryllis' body, but my soul is Katelia. Why would I pretend to be him so confused myself? I better be myself and pursue my ideals in a new body. I'm tired of pretending.

After the three of them left me, then I also walked towards my lecture hall. Just about to turn, someone hugged me tightly. Recognizing the smell of the colony, I smiled. Brother Jericho. I returned his embrace and let his affection warm my heart.

“What are you doing!?” Suddenly my body was kept away from my brother. I turned my head and saw Theo standing between the two of us.

“Can't you see? I hugged Riris,” said Big Brother in a dislike tone. He tried to pull me closer, but Theo got in the way.

“It is better to keep your hand away from him,” Theo said firmly.

“Gue will contact the company you are looking for so they do not give you the opportunity to audition,” reply seriously.

Brother was stunned for a moment. His originally angry eyes slowly turned soft. “Oh. I was just kidding.” He laughed amusedly. “You are serious. Alright. See you later, Ris.” He waved his hand at me and immediately took a thousand steps.

I opened my mouth, not believing what had just happened. My stupid brother just left because of one threat? So, the audition was more important to him than defending his sister from this arrogant guy? Really stupid Brother!

“Do you forget you can't be close to another guy?” said me.

“Kak Jericho is my friend. Can I just be close to you?” pissed me.

He was silent, looking at me with slightly enlarged eyes. Then a smile fell on his lips. “Lo should choose to be one, Amarylis. You can't change nature like this. Yesterday you became Amarylis, then today became—”

Now I round my eyes to hear that word. I know he deliberately hung up his last sentence. He wants to say Katelya's name. How does everyone know I'm not Amarylis? Is our nature the difference?

“Lo surprised I know who lo?” He grinned wide. “Lo did not act at all while in the hospital. Other people are blind, not understanding your strange behavior. But I know you're not Amarylis when you're shaken by the death of Katelia.”

I nodded in understanding. What he said is true. It was the clearest time I acted as Katelia. “I should be relieved because the person who has made me hard is finally gone for good.”

“Please lo.” He brought his face closer, so I stayed away. “How does it feel to be this person you hate the most?”

I close my lips to hear it. My whole body trembled withholding anger, as I knew he was deliberately asking those rhetorical questions. “You won't want to know. And I'm sure, you won't be able to live as poor and ugly as this,” my challenge.

“Oh, don't let that happen. I don't want to lose this face and body,” he said arrogantly. “Because of that, I don't want to be mean to anyone. I've advised you, stop bothering him. Lo is still reckless. If you follow me, maybe this will never happen.”

“You really like Amaryllis, huh?” my question is full of search.

“So, you really don't know who I am?” He asked again, bringing himself closer.

I went back until my back met the wall. “What do you mean? Of course I know. You are the most annoying Altheo Gunawan, who feels the most handsome in the world, hypocritical, smartass, and always pisses me off!” I answered in one breath.

He smiled meaningfully, placed his hand on the wall, then lowered his head towards me. “Lo forgot to mention my full name, Altheo Gunawan Husada.”

“I know your full name. Teachers every day call it every time we check our presence in class,” I said offended. “I just save energy so don't mention Husada.” Oh, geez. “Oh. You are Husada.”

The grin is getting wider. “Good, if you already understand.”

How could I not have realized that? He came from Jakarta, far away continued SMU in Medan. I don't think of it as an oddity knowing his surname on his last name. Husada is a common name, not a name used only by certain families. So, she's Kat's mysterious fiancee?

Three years of school in the same place, studying in the same class, and I didn't know this young man who argued with me often was my own fiancee? I can't believe I'm that stupid. It's only fitting that he knows Kak Jericho's cell phone number, also looks relaxed talking to him. They don't look awkward at all.

“I'm not Katelia. You are engaged to her, not me,” I said, reminding.

“Who said we're fiancee?” He grinned widely, mocking me.

“Then why are we dating? You know it's impossible to be together, Theo. Your parents will never bless our relationship.”

“Who said we were getting married?” the error again, irritated me.

“So, we're dating for what?” kataku.

“To protect lo,” he concluded without a doubt.

I snorted loudly, no matter if he judged my response to be disrespectful. “I can protect myself. I don't need anyone's help.”

“Not from anyone else, Amarylis,” said, suddenly serious. I gulped heavily looking at his emotionless gaze. “Gue protect you from yourself.”