Home For My Soul

115|Make Sure Know

I opened my eyes slowly and met two dark-colored round eyeballs. At first I thought, I will see a face that is no stranger to me. I am still Amarilis. Idiotically. There's no way I could ever go back to being Katelia. My body is rotting in the ground.

But Theo was right. It was only natural that he was easily jealous. The acne scars that originally adorned my face began to fade, my hair looked healthy and radiant, my teeth also began to neatly arranged. The most surprising thing was my body shape.

Katelia had a chest and a hull that formed, but not as big as Amarylis. Maybe he was used to being fat, so the two parts of his body naturally looked big. When his weight dropped drastically like this, the two parts did not decrease much.

“Can you imagine how difficult it is for me to hold my anger when you jog in Indonesia?” Theo was already standing behind me, coming to see my shadow. “People in this city are more polite, but still there are some who shamelessly stare at your body hungry.”

“Ooo.” I crossed both hands in front of my chest, but she immediately turned her face away. “Why are you still doing that?”

“Kat, I don't know why you think you're ugly. In my eyes, you are beautiful. I don't like this thin lo, because the eyes of men are getting brazen. Chest and bukong lo attract their attention.” He still doesn't want to see me. “Gue doesn't like that. Moreover, you are now getting more beautiful.”

Hearing that, I was moved. Ja. Amaryllis changes greatly just by taking care of your hair, face, fixing your teeth, and achieving your ideal weight. I was wrong to compare this body with Katelya's. Naturally I will never be that beautiful.

Father and Mother who bequeath their advantages to Katelia. Papa and Mama were emulated by Amarylis. We come from different parents. Each has its own beauty. When viewed carefully, Amarylis was beautiful as well.

“Thank you, Theo.” I turned around and hugged him. Sensing he was just standing stiff and not returning my embrace, I turned my head.

“It seems, it is time we discuss this,” he said slowly. He held my hand and invited me to sit on the edge of the bed. “Honey, you have to be careful when you are alone with me.” He was silent for a moment, just staring at me. Then he sighed softly. “Gue wants lo.”

I frowned hearing that sentence. “Already? That all?” I was confused to see him not continuing his sentence.

“Lo don't understand?” he said that being confused made me even more clueless. “Gue wants lo, Kat. I want to sleep with you right now.”

I immediately pulled my hand from her and closed my chest. “Don't be crazy. Remember your promise.”

“Just because I kept my promise, I looked away. See lo with the chest .. I mean, ng, I ..” He had trouble saying words I understood.

“You came,” connected me.

He sighed in relief while nodding. “Do not misunderstand. I will not cross the line. I was also surprised that I felt it so often. Therefore, I want to marry you as soon as possible.”

“O, so.” I pretended to be offended. “You want to marry me just to sleep together?”

“Lo what's up?” He frowned. “That's one proof I love you the same. If I don't feel that, why am I wasting my time dating you? We are married just to hold hands. Yes, no.”

I laughed a little at it. “Good. Next time, I'll be careful.”

“So don't be offended if I turn my head later. I was holding back a hsrat that suddenly appeared because of the area. I promise, I will never force my will. Persuading you to sleep together before we get married is also not.”

“Iya, darling. I trust.” I held her hand. “I love you.”

“Gue also.”

I hugged her body tightly, believing she would not break her promise. At first, he did not return my embrace. I held back a laugh imagining she was trying to hold back. I'm evil, I know. But I want to tease him sometimes.

I didn't see any father, but I didn't ask. I know many families are incomplete in this country. I can't imagine what it's like to grow up in an incomplete family. My family and Katelya are awake.

“Dad and my mother divorced when I was ten,” Nora said as we washed the dishes. He told me without asking. “She cheated with good friend Mom. They married, but divorced shortly afterwards. I tried to reconcile, Mother refused. She is more comfortable living alone, raising us.”

“I'm sorry,” I said slowly.

“Not your fault,” candles. “If I consider their decision selfish, I want my mother to be happy. She is happy to live alone, there is no need to worry about a husband who rarely comes home.”

Secretly, I'm grateful to have a sharp-mouthed girlfriend like Theo. He's not a basket eye either. He looked coldly at everyone, including me. So, I was often confused whether he was angry or not at me. Only his declaration unfortunately made me believe I was in his heart.

The much more beautiful and attractive Chika of Amarilis was unable to shake her stance. Especially when I was fat and just started a weight loss program. His taste is strange. He prefers big body girls over slender ones.

I should have been very jealous in our relationship. Surprisingly, he who is physically perfect is the most jealous if there is a man close to me. Which guy wants to be close to this ugly girl?

“So, you and Theo?” the tanyanya is half seductive.

“Iya, me and Theo.”

“If I may know, since when are you guys together?” He gave me the last glass.

“Since I was second semester on campus.” I dried the glass with a towel. “But we broke up. We just got back together when I came here.”

“Ah, your family definitely does not approve of your relationship.” He gave me a glass of warm chocolate after washing the dishes. “He went to college at his own expense, while you were on a scholarship. He's got a successful restaurant in the capital, and you're just a regular guy.”

“You are indeed an accomplished observer,” my praise. I followed him sitting on one of the chairs near the dining table. “It is fitting that you can be a pleasant discussion friend in our group.”

“I'm amazed by you. You are very brave. I wouldn't want to have such a complicated relationship. No, I'm not even interested in having a romance.”

“You're traumatized by your parents' marriage.”

He nodded slowly. “I can't forget the wound I saw in my mother's eyes.”

I listened to him tell me about himself, his past, and his plans for the future. But I didn't allow myself to get carried away so as not to be too open with him. I still have to be careful when it comes to making friends. My deepest secret no one else can know.

“Girls, it's time for you to give this place to the experts,” exclaimed mother Nora who entered the kitchen with Theo. “Me and my assistant will start cooking our main menu for tomorrow.”

“What does Mother mean?” nora asked confusedly. “Theo can cook?”

“Do you think all children are lazy like you and your brother?” taunt the woman. Nora laughed when she heard it. “Come, sana. We need this area for us only.”

Nora pulled my hand to follow him out of the dining room. Theo took the time to wipe my hair as I passed by. I saw her pulled Nora's mother to check the fridge. I looked at my friend and saw him looking at his mother.

That's what I was thinking, until I followed the direction of his eyes and made sure once again. He was not looking at his mother, but Theo. Not the gaze of a person to his acquaintance, but of a woman who admires the opposite sex.