Home For My Soul

164|We Know

~Amarily~

“That's not true,” I said quietly, not believing the information that Mother conveyed.

“You always complain of pain when it comes to the moon. So, we used our family health screening schedule to check your uterus. The doctor found a problem that will cause you difficult to have children,” continued Mother.

“That result we heard after your father agreed to match you with Theo. We should have been straight to them, but we don't want you to get hurt. So, we kept that a secret while looking for a way to recover you.

“We do not announce your engagement, only done on paper between two parents so that your separation does not become a scandal. You will never marry a man among us if your reputation is destroyed. Your two brothers will also find it difficult to find a wife from a good family because of your scandal.

“So, son, Amarylis is your helper angel. I know your situation is hard for all of us, but look, two families are united and you have hope of becoming a mother. You even married the same man who has become your soul mate.”

I have a problem in my womb so I can't have children. The information was like a hard blow to my face. Theo craves successors to escape his great responsibility to his parents. That way, he can focus on preparing himself as a replacement for Om Azarya.

But I'm not in Katelia's body, I'm in Amarylis's. Although he was also troubled when the moon came, but Theo said, the results of the health examination stated I was fine. I can give him a child. Is this the reason the accident happened?

“This is also the reason we do not prohibit you from troublemaking in school,” said Mother, surprising me. He looked at Mama, then held her hand. “I secretly sent Nolan to help with the school fees of all the children who were your victims, including Amarylis.”

“Already, no need to discuss anymore. We have forgiven Katelia and accepted Amarylis as she is now. You will only open old wounds by talking about this,” Mama's wounds.

“My daughter needs to know. We are not proud of what we do behind it.”

“Mother knows I bully friends at school?” I just don't believe it.

He's nodding. “We don't forbid because we feel guilty as parents. You have health problems because of us. We also do not have the heart to scold you, so we help them to reduce their burden due to your actions.”

My chest felt pierced with a sharp object. It turns out my family knew all my evil deeds. I don't like the guilt that now fills my heart. If I knew this, I would never hurt anyone. Oh, dearGod. What have I done?

“I'm sorry. I've made everyone difficult.”

Both of my sisters were acting very irritating when they came and joined us. Dad and Papa were not angry anymore, but they kept nagging Theo who married me secretly. They knew we loved each other for a long time. They don't forbid it means they don't mind if we get married without notice.

The next day, Mama and I took her to the salon. As soon as she found out that Chika had also invited me to attend her wedding, Mommy wanted us all to attend. I was so moved to be able to feel the care of the whole body in that expensive place.

Mama who is shy because she is not used to being massaged by unknown people. He always runs wind oil if his body aches. Sometimes it's Papa's help, not strangers. My mother and I were in the same room as her.

Falling asleep during the massage, we woke up with a fresh face. Our whole body from hair to feet got his attention. Mama did not want to be separated from the mirror to see her clean and shiny face.

“We eat first, just hunt for items we will need,” said Mother when we arrived in front of a mall.

“What do we need, Mommy?” many wonder.

“Later also you know,” replied Mother and Mama simultaneously. They looked at each other, then laughed together.

It turns out that the items they mean are dresses, shoes, bags, and trinkets that we will wear when attending a wedding invitation. I couldn't even speak of the color of the dress of their choice. What is their purpose as I thought?

“Ah, yes. She wears it when she gets married in church alone,” suggested Mama. “The design of kebaya today is amazing. Our daughter will look beautiful. Theo will fall in love again with him.”

“Huh, I can't believe that ice wall doesn't have any feelings for our daughter. He must have lied. Where can anyone not love sleep together? I'm sure they didn't just do it one time.” Mother looked at me carefully.

“Mother!” I rebuked him with a stifled voice. I look around us. “I told you, I do not want to discuss it with Mother and Mama.”

“Hm. You're all grown up. Why is it still shy?” Mother squinted her eyes. “Did he not satisfy you? Do I need to talk to your father about this? Let him give you tips and tricks so that your first child is a boy.”

“Already, Mother!” I protested again, feeling my face getting hotter. “Enough!” They both giggled.

On the day, Mother and Mama are really serious about their intentions. Not only makeup artists, they also call photographers to photograph our family. One corner near the pool is decorated with balloons and flowers, like a photo spot at a wedding reception.

Although their plan was strange, I was happy to see a smile and laughter on my family's face. What I fear does not happen. They were all happy with the man I chose. Had Theo been poor, could their response have been the same?

Getting the attention of many people does make my day more colorful. The old man walked first into the church, me and Theo followed them. Although I did not wear a dress with a skirt that covered up to the ankles, the color was very striking.

The invitation that was already present looked at me and Theo in awe, some even taking pictures of us or recording as we walked towards the seat. Aunt Winara and Wiryawan greeted Mother, while Theo invited me to sit down.

I smiled with satisfaction as Chika rounded her eyes looking at my and Theo's appearance. He almost tripped on his own feet while walking with his papa towards the altar. He even stuttered when he said his oath of loyalty. It turned out that retaliating for her actions could also be this way.

Even in the hotel hall, she was the first bride I had ever seen unhappy sitting in the hall. He was so happy to taunt me at the airport. He also did not hesitate to wrestle spoiled in the arms of Mr. Norman. Bizarrely.

“Eat properly.” I was surprised to feel the corner of my lips wiped. “Spice rendang to stick from earlier, lo do not realize.”

“Ah, thank you.” I took the napkin that was on my lap and wiped my lips.

“If we were in the room, I would rather lick it,” he said indifferently.

My face was heating up, let alone Brother Jericho who was sitting by his side until he coughed. “What are you talking about? There are people near us,” scold me with a stifled voice.

“Richo, you mean? She's lo's sister, not a stranger.” He slashed the meat on his plate casually, then stuffed it into his mouth. Signal he won't discuss this anymore.

After eating, the Mother who sat by my side invited us to say goodbye to the bride. Dad and Papa asked for time to go to the bathroom, so I did the same thing. I'm not sure I can hold him home. Theo refused when I asked him.

Fortunately the queue was not long, so I just waited for one person in front of me, and then my turn came. I knew some of them as my schoolmates and seniors on campus, but they didn't recognize me by my new appearance. Am I that pretty until they don't know I'm Amarylis?

“Do not make me ashamed!” The scream caught my attention as I walked out of the toilet. “I can't believe you'll put on a sad face on your own wedding day!”

I turned my head and saw Aunt Winara pulling Chika's arm into a room. I looked around me. No one was looking, so I approached the room. It was fortunate that the door was not completely closed, so I could hear a voice from inside.

“No but-but,” scolding Aunt Winara. “Nancy to the point of being offended seeing you continue to frown while looking at Theo. Have you gone crazy? You said you loved Norman, then why have you been this way since seeing Theo?”

“Mama thought I was like this because of Theo?” Chika laughed softly. “Mama misunderstood. Yes, I admit I still love him, but it's not him who makes me sad.”