Home For My Soul

155|Know Me

~Altheo~

I won't be able to forget the panic attack I had when I realized I couldn't remember anything. The faces I see every day are the ones I can't name and relate to.

Papa, Mama, and Matt are my real family, but there is not the slightest memory of them in my mind. I asked for hard evidence that we had a blood relationship. All the official documents they had, they showed me, to the DNA test.

For months I felt like a useless person for not being able to do anything. I just had physiotherapy, counseling with psychologists, and the rest I used to study. I graduated from a master's degree abroad, it's a shame I can't go back to work.

Matt taught her everything I asked her. Papa and Mama discussed more of my duties and responsibilities as their heirs. I don't know what my name is, but they've been talking about such a heavy thing.

Being able to escape for a moment abroad was the escape I was looking for. My goal is to just get married. As soon as my marriage certificate was legalized, then we went home and I continued my recovery. The function of my hands and feet is normal, so I do not need a wheelchair, nor do I have pain when walking. The right time to travel far.

Even though I didn't know Antonio, I trusted my instincts. My phone my family was looking for was well kept by my personal bodyguard. He said it was on my orders. Theo crazy was very organized and detailed. He makes alarms and reminders for a lot of things. I couldn't live quietly because there was something I had to do every day.

Until the girl's name came up. Amaryllis. My bodyguard showed me she was the woman I was taking pictures with me on my social media profile picture. Thanks to his help, I was able to open all my personal accounts and emails. But I'm only interested in finding out about that woman.

I am handsome and liked by many of these women choose that ugly woman to be my wife. Looks like this accident deserves me to have my brain back to normal. She was so fat, that I was sure she must have been short, had acne, dull hair, and her teeth, my goodness. Has my brain ever been electrocuted?

“Treat him well or I beat you to a pulp. I don't care if you're in a coma anymore. Amarylis is my best sister,” threatened Matt for the umpteenth time before he went to the airport.

Little brother is noisy, but his attitude is what makes me believe and like him. He was not like his father and mother who only thought of themselves. He cares about me in his own way and supports my every decision, even the ridiculous ones.

I felt like I was being punched hard in my face when the girl finally appeared before me. That fucking Matt I'll kick it up later. He didn't say she wasn't the same as in the photo. Justjust wonderful. How can his weight be much reduced, his face shines without acne scars, his hair is well groomed, and his teeth are neat even though he is still wearing wire?

She's not pretty and she's way below my standards about women. But the part of my body that I thought was not functioning reacted. Maddened. So, this is why I chose her to be my future wife? I didn't expect that the way I chose that old wife.

“Lo sure he's healthy?” I asked after dropping off the slick Amarylis to the room at the back of the plane. “Why does he look so weak?”

“What do you not know he just went for a walk with his family? Let him rest. Not bad, gather energy to serve lo later.” Matt laughed a little.

“There are people who don't understand your language here,” Antonio scolds.

Matt said it right. The woman named Amaryllis was healthy, as well as strong. I deliberately want to get married quickly, without a procession that wastes time to sleep with him. Even though his mouth refused, he was ready whenever I needed him. His body did not disappoint me.

An age where people don't care about the first night, I'm glad he's looking after himself just for me. I don't have to worry that he'll compare me to other men. I also have nothing to fear there is another man she thinks of in her head while with me.

“Lo can't keep him in the room, Theo. He also needs to stay away for a moment from lo,” Matt said as we had breakfast together at the counter.

“If we're not in Las Vegas, we're still on our honeymoon.” I sipped water in my bottle. “If you already feel it, you will understand.”

“So, you don't protest anymore with his physical condition that is far from the standard lo?” taunted. “‘What's your sister in no mood anymore, Matt? He chose this ugly, fat, slovenly woman to be his wife?’” He purposely repeated my protest sentence first.

“Diam lo. Do you think it's good to forget everything? After all, making love is not determined from the face. As long as you find someone who can make you want it, then he is the one.”

He's laughing a little. “Love? So, you've been in love with my sister?” He looked at me meaningfully.

He patted my shoulder. “Lo will recover soon, Theo. Just be patient.”

“What if I can never remember anything?”

“Not a problem. Lo smart. You can catch up with you in a few months. I'm sure you're back so yourself a few more months.” He glanced at my bedroom door. “Kak Amarilis can help you learn to lead the company again. You guys went to the same college.”

Just reading the daily reports of our family restaurant in town, my head ached. I'm not sure I can handle this problem if I don't stop feeling pain. I hate relying on pain medication. The medicine made me sleepy and I got tired of just sleeping all day.

She woke up when I went back to the room. He quickly covered his body with a blanket. At least, he remained seated without escaping to the bathroom again. What an interesting woman. He was afraid, and liked me. I treated him well when we made love.

“Lo must be hungry.” I put the tray with food and drinks for him on the nightstand.

“Thank you.” He took a glass of water from me.

Seeing her eat, I refrained from fucking her now. He needs to clean himself up and the bed needs to be tidied up. After she finished eating, I let her take a bath, then changed the sheets and pillowcases. I called my bodyguard to take him with our dirty clothes to the laundry on the ground floor.

Since he was still in the bathroom and the room was tidy again, a better idea flashed through my head. Also true. There are more practical ways that I don't need to change our bedding and pillows too often. I took off my clothes and followed her into the bathroom.

I want my business with my parents done. Amaryllis will get pregnant soon. I can focus on my other business and the mama who takes care of our son. I know Amaryllis has a lot of plans. She only needs to sacrifice a year during pregnancy and recovery after giving birth.

Then we don't have to think about having any more children and being able to focus on our activities while in the room. I'll free him to do whatever he wants just until the afternoon. Night and dawn he should give it to me.

I don't know what's on him, but I don't like the emotion I felt when he touched Antonio. I can always control myself and my feelings well. But everything that has to do with this woman has put me out of control.

“‘Theo.’” I could not see the face of the woman who called my name, but I recognized her voice. He couldn't finish his sentence, because I had his lips.

It's never enough. I don't know why I can't stop touching this woman. I don't know how long the honeymoon phase will last, I'm not complaining. Some time in the future, I will only be at home, so it's a profitable pastime for me.

“‘Theo, stop. Many people are looking at us,’” he lamented again.

We're in a room, where are there a lot of people? Is he hallucinating? She rebelled wanting to get away from me, but I tightened my embrace. Why does my chest feel tight as if I'm going to lose this woman? We're married, she won't be able to get away from me.

“‘Theo,’” he said again, after so many times managed to get away from me.

“‘Gue loves lo, Kat,’” I said, making me confused myself. Kat's? Who's Kat?

“‘I love you too, but you have to go.’” He pushed me away from him.

Gone off? Go where? I tried to grab her body, but she disappeared without a trace. What the hell's going on? His voice, his body that I already knew, even his lips were Amarylis. Then why do I call her Kat? Did I marry the wrong woman?

An incredible headache suddenly strikes. I opened my eyes and the situation around me was dark. Is that a dream? But the headache is real. I sat down and touched my head. No. gabe. I don't want to take any more medicine. This pain will be gone soon, I can endure it.

Suddenly scene after scene played out quickly in my head. Whatisthis? I bit my lips to hold the cirrh that almost came out of my mouth. Amaryllis was sleeping near me, lest she wake up. I curled my head on the surface of the mattress, between my knees, but the pain grew. What the hell happened to me?