Home For My Soul

90|Big Decision

~Altheo~

I hate the anger that I feel churning in my chest every time I find out he is close to another man. The feeling just came without me planning. I didn't like it, so I cut off my relationship with Amarylis.

Ending the invisible bond between us doesn't make things any better. But I can be a little more calm to accompany Papa and prepare my application to the new campus. December was approaching and I had to enroll to continue my studies.

Instead of understanding my busyness, Chika was unceasingly present in the wrong place. He also did not stop trying to touch me and take pictures. I don't know why he showed off the cold relationship between us. Did he not realize, all his followers began to suspect seeing me never smile or return his touch on each of those photos?

The report I received from his personal bodyguard did not put it to my heart. He can meet any man he wants. Being with Norman or another man no longer bothered my head. It was hard to deny my feelings, but I succeeded.

Her, Mama still comes to him. Indeed, I did not tell anyone about our relationship that had broken up, I also deliberately did not change my profile picture, all because I did not want both Mama and Chika to feel they won.

“You need to end the war between you and your mama, Theo,” Papa said as we were in the elevator. We were alone with no one else in the executive elevator.

“My marriage is my responsibility, then I am entitled to choose my future wife.” I don't get tired of calling my reasons against their choice.

“True. Choose something better than Jessica.”

“Amarilis deficiency is only one. He comes from an ordinary family, but it becomes a big problem for you. Chika who has so much ugliness, you guys even close your eyes.” I'm laughing a little. “Gue curious. Did the Winara Family threaten you with a secret?”

“Cautiously accuse us, Theo.”

“Gue does not accuse that it is in accordance with the facts, Pa. You are good and honorable people, but only this time you decided something rashly. Don't sacrifice my happiness for your reputation. My grandmother understood me better than my parents. That, ‘kan, the reason Grandma did not give her ring to Mama, but me?”

The elevator door opened, Papa came out, not answering my question. The way he always does every time he doesn't want to talk honestly. That attitude made me even more convinced that there was something wrong with their agreement to marry me to Chika.

The time of the stooges once they hook up with me? Do they not care if someone knows the bad nature of school? What if friends open their mouths when she and I are married? Our family's good name will come along.

When I got home, I saw a car I knew in our front yard. Not wanting to meet them, I went straight to my room and missed dinner. As a good waiter, one of the workers in our house delivered food for me.

The door was knocked, I knew who was coming. “Tumben,” said Matt who came in and sat by my side. “Lo has started to oppose our order?” He's laughing a little.

“Lo thinks this is funny, huh?”

“Happy. Because of women, you are far from our parents. Then because of the actions of others, you are threatened not to be a substitute for Papa.” He plucked crackers from above my plate.

“They're home?”

“Where do I know. I also eat with them.” The door to my room was knocked, I understood. The waiter came again to bring my sister's food. “Thank you. Let's eat!”

“You shouldn't follow me. This problem is my problem, you do not interfere.”

“Lo think that if he becomes my brother-in-law, only you suffer? I also,” said, do not want to lose.

“He won't be lo's sister-in-law. Trust me.”

“Lo alone can not believe the same girlfriend lo. Don't talk about trust with me.”

“Amarilis complains to lo?”

He kept his mouth shut, not answering my question. I love his closeness to his private teacher. So, when I'm not around, he'll take care of her. I don't know why I don't feel jealous the slightest bit seeing them close. Only with other men.

My sister was also quick to get along with a lot of people, but only a few were able to be intimate with her. Amarylis is a great man who can win Matt's heart. Actually, Mama loves him too. Were it not for the poison that Chika spread, Mama would not have hated her.

We gathered for breakfast together in the morning and Mama put on an unpleasant face to look at. Ever since the video of my kiss with Amarilis spread, she never smiled at me again. As if I did it intentionally. Though my target is Norman, instead of recording our friendly activities and then made public consumption.

Even though I don't mind that. I'm glad everyone knows that my heart belongs only to Amaryllis, never to turn to Chika. Let them insult us physically incompatible, our degrees unequal, and other nonsense. I'm not marrying Chika.

“What you did to Chika was not right,” said Mama, start again with her old advice. “She is your fiancee. You will go abroad to continue your studies, you should take advantage of the time left to get to know each other.

“Like it or not, you will get married once you return to Indonesia. The sooner you accept that reality will be better for all of us. Amaryllis will not be accepted into our family, Theo.”

“Mama will not do this if they only offer some money or property. Did Aunt Winara threaten Mama about something? Does this have anything to do with the mistakes of the two of you in the past?” I just can't take it anymore.

I still believe both my parents were good people. They won't do this either because they have to. Although they smile and are happy every time we are with the family, I cannot be fooled. Something is strange here.

“Theo,” reprimand Papa.

“Stephanie doesn't threaten me. We were both friends, so we agreed to strengthen the relationship between us. Moreover, they have no successor. Don't you want to lead a big hotel like theirs? It will all be yours,” Mama said.

Mama's not friends with Aunt Winara. I know who the people near him are. Mama got to know the woman because of Aunt Wibowo. I'm sure that Richo and Chika's relationship is also being strained because of my engagement. So, my mom lied.

“Errors in the past?” ask Matt. He looked at the three of us. “What did I not know about Papa and Mama in the past?”

“We are ordinary humans.” Papa held Mama's hand on the table. “Of course we also made a lot of mistakes, but no one threatened us.”

“So, is this how the girl poisoned your mind? He accuses us and you believe just like that?” ask Mama growled. “Chika comes from a good family, that's the only reason I agree with Stephanie's proposal to marry you.”

“Mama needs to ask others outside her family to know she's a good girl or not. Which mother would not praise her daughter excessively and cover up her mistakes?” many rhetorics. “I pamit. There's a meeting I need to keep an eye on this morning.”

“The girl is composing the thesis,” Mama said in a serious tone. “Do you think I can't make him an immortal student?”