Home For My Soul

68|It's Enough

Persist. Amarylis and I are not much different. We both grew up in a wealthy family. My sister doesn't know there's Katelia in her teacher's body. So, he was just like my parents who thought that Amaryllis would not be able to blend into our world.

They did not pay attention to his attitude and his way of carrying himself every time I took him to our family's big and small events. Had they only seen the way he ate, greeted and talked to others, they would have realized he was similar to us.

Anyway, I love him. That's enough. I have no interest in other women and have promised myself I will not betray her. If for those who have been married for a long time consider that reason not enough, what can I do?

During the course, Chika always took a seat next to me. At first, he liked to talk non-stop. Over time, he just kept quiet, because I never responded. I'm not worried about hurting him with my attitude. He wanted this.

He knew I was close to Amarilis before our parents set us up. So, I don't feel guilty for rejecting him over and over again. I don't care if she seriously loves me, because love has to go both ways. It only happened between me and Amaryllis.

“How is your proposal progressing? Is there anything I can help you with?” ask Chika when the last course is over. He still can't understand me.

“Even semester is coming to an end. You better be prepared to think about the title of your proposal. Don't think about anyone else.” I stood up and walked towards the door.

Amaryllis always waits for her lecturer to come out of the room before tidying up her stationery. So, I arrived at the door while he was still tidying up his bag. Her best friend whose name I don't remember always teases her about our relationship.

Several times I said dearly to Amaryllis, but even once she did not say the same. Only from his attitude did I dare to conclude he also felt the same way. I hope my conclusion is correct.

“Theo, enough,” reject it.

I deliberately ordered two servings of food for him so that his weight did not continue to fall. I don't like to see people start staring at him, especially the opposite sex. Amaryllis has a nice body when she's not fat.

Even though I don't follow the trend, I can see it from the way men look at their bodies. Moreover, he has a big chest and butt. The more weight he lost, the more his two body parts stood out. That can't happen.

I don't like how I feel every time another man notices his body. I know I'm jealous, but my emotions are too much. So, it's better that he's fat again and people are indifferent to him, than lean and my blood is always boiling.

“Theo,” protested, as I spooned the rice into his mouth. The thing I do every time he doesn't want to touch the food I ordered. Usually, he would eat it to the end if I bribe. It seems like he is really full.

Then I finished the fried rice myself. He shook his head to look at me. “Gue don't like to see your current body,” I.

“I know. But this is my body and you have no right to damage it,” he said sharply. She's mistaken. His body will also be mine, but I'm not discussing that right now.

“Gue dear lo, why do I damage your body?” insulted.

“How many times do I have to say, fat is unhealthy?” He closed the book he had read. Looks like we'll talk seriously. “I don't want to die suddenly from asphyxiation. Moreover, I am still young and I have many dreams, Theo.”

“Lo dream is only one, so my wife,” my knot.

He snorted loudly. “In your dreams. Of all the plans I've put together, you're not on the list. You're the one who forced us backstreet, then now make up.”

“So, you were forced to go with me?” I frowned, not liking his reaction. “Lo don't like me?”

She closed her lips before replying, “Suka.”

“Lo don't love me?” Seeing an open opportunity, I took advantage of it. I've wanted to know how she feels about me for a long time.

“Honey,” I got without hesitation.

“Lo don't love me?” cecarku further.

“I won't be the first to say love, Theo.” He crossed both hands on the table. “I won't get stuck on your question it's.”

I smiled happily. Hearing him confess his love to me was enough. I don't know if I feel love for him either. Living this relationship with her was still foreign to me, somehow later when we got married.

She was the only thing I chose myself, without my parents' interference. My residence, school, college, work, even my fiancee were Papa and Mama's choices. But Amaryllis was my own decision. Therefore, I love him very much.

“Then, don't tell me I'm not on your list of dreams, plans, or anything else you've compiled. Lo talk so as if I have no meaning,” scold me.

“We will never marry, Theo. Do I still need to say that to you?”

He was stunned for a moment. Then a sweet smile fell on her lips. “I remember, how long have you told them to stalk me?”

“Gue asked,” I said, reminding.

He moved his lips saying something, but no sound was heard. He must be cursing me by saying I'm annoying, arrogant, and so on. That's if I read his lips correctly.

“Tante asked me to stay away from you. He won't let us get married,” he admitted. “So, Theo, you will never be a part of my life.”

“What do you challenge me?” I brought my body to the table.

“I don't mind marrying you. Only a foolish woman who refused and cried was forced to marry a rich man like you. Moreover, you are the main heir of your family. You are handsome, intelligent, and not flirtatious to other girls is a bonus.” She smiled sweetly.

“So, no, Theo. It's not me who challenges you, but your mama,”.

“Let me take care of. Because you want to be with me because I'm rich, then rejecting inheritance is not an option. I'll find another way for them to bless our relationship, my God”. She laughs.

His phone on the table vibrated. We both kept quiet and she answered. Seeing from the way he spoke and heard the words he chose, the caller must be older than him. He looked nervous before his eyes finally glazed over.

“What's up?” I was impatient as soon as he put his phone back on the table.

“You won't believe hearing this.” He was sobbing, making me worry. Then I understood why he was acting that way. “I got that scholarship.”

I smiled at hearing it. In the end, he did not need to work hard anymore. He can focus on his studies until the end. I deliberately chose a company that provides full scholarships that cover the cost of research until graduation.

Although I am proud of him for trying to raise his own money for his living and college expenses, I don't like that. He did not want to be helped and I did not want to drop his high self-esteem by persuading, so I relented. Scholarships are the best solution.

“Congratulations, Amarylis. I know you will definitely get it.” I rubbed his head. “Other times, double check the address and phone number you filled in the form.”

“Can't you just say congratulations without the frills of the ledge?” She's pouting.

“Lo want ice cream?” I took the menu book from the corner of the table. “Gue buy your favorite ice, yes.”

He held my hand so he could not open the book. “I'm full, Theo.”

“Lo too skinny.” I don't like to see his size now.

Matt finally takes the big test he's been waiting for. We support him by providing a quiet environment at home. The test question was not discussed at all, unless he started it. Those days were the best days, because the Chika family was not invited to eat.

He took advantage of the opportunity by inviting Amarilis to study with him at home. I just smiled to see that Mama didn't forbid or say anything. He had the waiter deliver snacks, as well as prepare dinner for them to eat in the study room.

Even though I wanted to be in the library room with them, I held back. Amarilis wasn't my future wife when she was with my sister. He is Matt's private tutor, so his time is entirely for his student.

If my sister is busy with national exams, then I focus on proposals and seminars that are waiting in front of my eyes. Although I looked calm from the outside, I was very nervous inside. I have prepared everything well, also guided by a very dedicated lecturer, but I cannot deny that I am afraid of making mistakes.

“You're nervous style is unique, yes,” amaryllis goda.

“Stop, Amarylis,” I said for the umpteenth time.

“You don't sweat or tremble, but your breath hunts.” He's laughing a little.

“What you can't be quiet for a minute?” I said, half threatening.

“Altheo Gunawan Husada,” call a woman from the doorway.

I took a long breath. Finally, my turn came. Amarylis smiled as she patted my shoulder excitedly. I stole one kiss from her as soon as she let her guard down. I don't care about the many eyes that can see us, because I need them. Seeing her eyes rounded and her cheeks met red, I was slightly amused.

Convinced I was ready to perform, I stood up and walked into the room. All the eyes that were originally bowed, lifted up and looked at me seriously. My heart is beating fast. I-i can. I can definitely get through this well.