Home For My Soul

168|Gagal for Learning

~Altheo~

She's not pregnant. The news was like a hard blow to my heart. I tried well, did everything the doctor suggested, why could I fail? There has not been a single day without her since we were married.

Aren't women normal to masturbate every month? Almost a month went by, but I did not find a single used sanitary pad in our bathroom. Is it possible that in a moment he will come months, because that test result is negative?

I really hope that this time she will get pregnant, so I can focus on accompanying her and our future baby. If I had gone back to work, I wouldn't always be by his side. Work will definitely drain my attention and time.

But I learned to accept my failure. During this one year it seemed like I was indeed taught to learn from every single one of my broken plans. I had an accident, had to focus on recuperating, and couldn't do my job smoothly.

Therefore, I accepted Father and Nolan's invitation to accompany them at work. I can take my mind off every failure, while honing my skills again. I have not been close to them, but they have been very kind to me.

I wasn't always with them, there was a time I had discussions with Matt online. He patiently answered my questions and let me deduce the results of the daily reports of our restaurants in America and the divisions he was responsible for.

“By the way, you can't get any more money from Papa since marriage, how can you buy your needs and Kak Amarylis?” ask after we finish the discussion.

“Lo and him are the same. Don't worry. I'll take good care of my household.” I looked towards the door and window of the meeting room where I was, making sure no one would hear our conversation.

“I mean, let me transfer parts of lo—”

“No, Matt,” I said, interrupting. “Lo don't fuck around. I don't need pity from lo.”

“Lo can consider this a loan. If you have money, give it back to me. Maybe you can hold on for a few more weeks. What if Amarylis gets pregnant? You're gonna need a lot of money, Theo. I do not want my brother and future nephew to be malnourished because of your self-esteem that is not in that place,” reply.

“Gue wouldn't marry her if I wasn't ready, Matt. Take it easy,”.

Matt eventually shut up, not continuing his insistence. His worries were reasoned, but that was because he did not know. If only he had known all the sources of my funds, he would not have doubted that I would be able to meet every need of our lives. It's just, I have to keep it a secret.

I think too much, I feel my head hurt. I put away all the gadgets and looked out the window. I haven't dreamed or remembered anything about my past. The last thing I remember was the campus, but it was just a scene-by-scene cut. Had my memory been intact, I would not have been tormented like this.

Nolan knocked on the door and opened it. He took me to lunch with them. It was a good time because I was starting to feel hungry. We didn't meet with anyone, so I could calmly eat with him and Dad. We also chatted casually.

In the morning, Amarilis refused to jog with me. Maybe he's tired of doing activities with his mother, so I'm not forcing. But it was near breakfast time, he still did not want to wake up. Even though this is his home, I don't want him to do as he pleases.

As soon as I saw him sitting and stunned for a moment, I saw his face paled very quickly. Moreover, his mouth let out a sound of vomiting. I immediately checked his condition. His forehead is not hot. Did he have lunch anywhere yesterday?

Without waiting for her answer, I helped her into the bathroom. He was completely limp until he sat on the floor and faced the toilet. But no matter how many times he was nauseous, nothing came out of his mouth. It made me panic. I never take care of sick people.

“What's up?” ask the Mother who was standing in front of the door when I opened it.

“Amarilis seems to hurt,” I replied.

“Sayang?” Mother immediately entered as I opened the door wide. He approached his daughter and checked her forehead. “Wait a minute. I'll get you some warm water.” He walked back towards me. “Help his head massage. He said he was dizzy. I'll be right back.”

“Do we not need to go to hospital?” manyworry.

“I'll call our family doctor.” I was relieved to hear it.

I followed his words by helping to massage Amaryllis' forehead and accompany her until her mother returned. The woman forced him to drink the water he was carrying. I moved him to bed, and his mother asked him to drink colored water and bread to fill his stomach.

As soon as their doctor arrived, the man checked his condition. We waited with anxious expectation. Hopefully, Amaryllis does not need to be hospitalized. We have to go back to Jakarta soon. We couldn't stay too long at her parents' house.

“Nothing to worry about,” said the doctor with a happy face. “There is precisely happy news for all families.”

“My wife is so pale, what is happy, Doctor?” manyu, offended.

He's laughing a little. “You must be her husband. Your wife is pregnant. Congratulations, yes.”

I couldn't believe the words he said. Getting pregnant? Amaryllis used a test kit and the results were negative. Then what doctor just drank until he was drunk can not distinguish between the symptoms of pregnancy with stomach pain?

“Doctor joking, ‘kan?” my many. “My wife just ate wrong.”

“Iya, Doc. Is it not wrong?” Mother asked. “We have checked her pregnancy with a test kit, but the result is negative.”

“Mother use how many test tools?”

“Only one. It takes more than one, huh?”

The doctor smiled. “It could be that the tool is damaged or the way it is used is wrong. Things that usually often occur, the results are only seen after passing from the time stated in the instructions for use. My advice, check the condition of your child to the obstetrician immediately.”

I didn't wait until the doctor finished talking and carried Amarylis. He no longer complained of dizziness, so I did not want to wait any longer. I need to know for sure. She's pregnant or not. Which can help check the actual condition is only a gynecologist.

We went five, but so seven when we got to the hospital. Mother called Mama to be able to listen to the results of the doctor's examination. Fortunately, the hospital that the doctor suggested was close to home. Because not all hospitals open their specialist clinics in the morning.

No matter if there was a queue or if we needed to register, I took him into the practice room, then sat him in an empty seat. Fortunately, there was no one in the room but the doctor who was getting ready. I'm not interrupting anyone's turn.

“I'm sorry, Doc,” said the Sister who followed us with a panicked face. “This father goes directly in I can not prevent.”

The man laughed a little. “It's okay.” He opened his eyes to all of us. “Ng, there shouldn't be many people in this room, but well.”

The doctor asked Amarylis a lot of things which she answered after thinking seriously. The nurse helped him to lie down on a couch and prepare a device for the doctor to use. The answer to our question was also given by showing the part on the screen all black with a small biji that said our baby.

Is he insulting my son? Let's just say he called it Biji. The one growing up in my wife's womb is our son. But I didn't have time to protest because everyone noisily wanted to see the baby closer.

“Oh, Kat! I'm so happy!” exclaim Mother while stroking the cheeks of Amarylis. Kat's? “You will be a mother and I will be a grandmother.”

Why did he call Amaryllis by the name of Kat? Who's Kat? His name was Amarilis Josepha. Seeing Mama also approaching and saying her name correctly, I got even more confused. What do I not understand here?

I wanted to ask, but a tremendous headache suddenly struck. I hate it every time this pain comes. My world turned so I sat on the floor. I didn't know what I was holding, because there was the sound of a loud object falling on the floor, deafening my ears.

“Theo? Hey, what's up, kid?” I heard Dad's voice. It was the last thing I heard before my surroundings were pitch black.

[As the character is booby, the author also took a break. So, bob with Theo, deh. 🤭 Welcome prepare for work or study tomorrow, friends. I love Monday! Don't forget who still has a free red ticket, tap Vote at the end of the chapter, yes. It will be scorched tonight.]