Home For My Soul

71|The Dream Place

“Someday, I want to work here.”

We were standing in front of a beautiful tall building. I was lucky to have entered, even in her beautiful flower garden on her roof. Twice. Of all the companies I've observed, this company is the best. His heir should be the target of many people.

“This food company is very cool and their motto to produce instant food that still keeps the nutritional value and calories touches me very much. The restaurant is also very hygienic. They stick with all those qualities even though the price of their products is not cheap.”

“Lo not teasing me, ‘kan?” ask Theo suspiciously.

I'm laughing a little. “No. Unfortunately, you ruined my dream.”

“Once I occupy the position of main director, you are my assistant.” He's grabbing my shoulder.

“Serious?” I just don't believe it.

“Serious. Who else can I trust in this world if not my own wife?” mutilate.

I smiled faintly hearing the confident tone in his voice. “Theo, we will never get married,” I said, reminding him.

“Lo is very pessimistic, anyway? Kayak is not just Katelia.” He took my hand. “Come. I'm hungry.”

After sharing our dream place, we spent the rest of the day relaxed. We had lunch, had tea and coffee at a cafe, then went on to watch one of the action movies. We both don't like romantic movies. In the evening, he took me to a park.

We sometimes talk about random things, but we don't fight. What a strange day. Usually we always fuss over the trivial. He was still more silent and touched me often. Whether it's holding hands, hugging bodies, or kissing my head.

Our relationship feels real. She's not just a secret boyfriend anymore, but a real husband-to-be. I saw people staring at us a few times and whispering to each other. They must have known who Theo and the girl he was supposed to be with were. I'm sure they labeled me as his mistress.

Even though I'm not Katelia, I'm back in the limelight. It feels so good. I don't care about the bad news they're spreading about me. Since Theo and Chika are officially engaged, social media and online are definitely full of news. I don't want to be distracted so never find out what people are saying about me.

“Thank you for today,” said Theo when we arrived in front of my residence.

“Sama-sama.” I smiled at him.

“Can I ask for one more thing?” tanyakanya.

Understanding what he was going to ask, I shook my head. “You have stolen a kiss several times without asking for permission, no longer.”

“Once you answer the same birthday person? That's why I never asked permission. You must not love.” He put on a sad face, making me feel bad.

“Ya, already. Aye, yes. You can kiss me,” I said, giving in.

He smiled happily. When he held my hand, I did not refuse. He put one of his hands around my waist, then brought my body closer to him. His eyes did not come off my lips. My heart was pounding so fast because of that slow motion.

Why didn't he kiss as he normally would? Just makes me nervous. I was so worried that he could feel the beating of my heart. Because only clothes give us distance between our bodies. My lips felt like they had to wait for so long.

“What have you done to me, Amarylis?” whispered when our faces were near.

“Ha?” muttered confused.

“Why can't I get you out of my head?” He caressed my cheek, making me unable to think clearly.

My ears could be deaf hearing this loud heartbeat. Can he hear it at this close distance? But all those thoughts were gone when her lips touched mine. This time he did not cover me as usual, but took longer.

At first, I didn't know what to do, just quietly let him kiss for the sake of kissing. I felt something like electricity coming from the part of my face that was being transmitted all over my body. A foreign sensation that makes me afraid and curious.

I ventured to avenge his love. I'm just copying what he's doing. The electricity was so intense that my legs were squeezing. If it wasn't for her hands hugging me, I might have embarrassed myself by falling unconscious.

“Goodnight,” he said as I was still trying to calm my heartbeat.

“Ma-night,” reply me, stammered.

“Come in, I wait.”

I nodded and nearly tripped when I turned around. Stupid jerk. Why am I behaving this way? Unlocking the lock that is usually easy suddenly difficult for me to do. How humiliating. As soon as the lock opened, I rushed in and locked it back in.

There was the sound of Theo's motorcycle engine moving away. Oh, dearGod. What the hell happened to me? I've never been this big when I was with him. Plus I was acting really stupid when I opened the lock. I just want to disappear from this world.

I'm stupid too. Why would I reply if I didn't want to feel this shame? My cheeks are getting hotter. Is this what it feels like? What if we do something further? Does it feel more exciting?

The next week, I had my birthday. Theo asked for the same thing, one day just for him. Since I have no activities whatsoever, I agree to the invitation. When he asked me where I was going, I didn't know where to go. I never take a walk.

“Ke bookstore, yuk,” his proposal.

A brilliant idea, because we both need college books. As soon as he entered the store, the scent of the new book was very tempting. We went down the same corridor and checked every book available. Truly a paradise for nerds like us.

When Theo let me choose whichever book I wanted, I refused. I'd rather borrow the book as usual. He had a habit of marking books that helped me learn a lot. Unlike the book Kak Jericho smooth no scribbles.

“Alright, I will bring everything tomorrow to you learn,” he said.

“Tomorrow? Don't you need it anymore to do the thesis?” many wonder.

“Gue can come to your room under the pretext of repeating the previous course,” godanya.

I laughed hearing that. “Smart also you.”

He grabbed my shoulder, then kissed my temple. “Home. I won't cross the line.”

My heart was pounding quickly at his promise. Or because of the kiss? I don't know. To be sure, I've been more nervous than calm when I've been with her lately. Do all people who are dating experience the same thing?

Being engrossed in lunch, the song that the restaurant played happened to be a birthday song. I'm laughing a little. Maybe there's a staff that's getting older, just like me today. That's what I was thinking. Therefore, I was surprised to see the waiter come carrying a tart with a candle burning on it, and then placed in front of me.

“Happy birthday, dear,” said Theo.

“Thank you.” I felt my eyes heat up.

My birthday has not been celebrated for a long time. Today is not my actual date of birth, but Amarylis's parents do not remember it. Just Theo. Therefore, I don't think too much about birthdays anymore. Level up, increase age. That's all I made a benchmark for.

So I was so excited to hear that song addressed to me. Happy birthday, Amarylis. Ah, naw. Today is both our birthdays. Most importantly, he called me darling.

My phone on the table shook, drawing our attention. I haven't had time to check, Theo picked up and answered the call. I know why Matt did it. There was one important announcement that she would definitely like to tell me.

“Gue already said, don't disturb Amaryllis today,” scold Theo. “Gue doesn't care. Call him tomorrow.” He disconnected the phone, then deactivated the phone without permission.

“What do you do?” my protest.

“Gue doesn't want to be interrupted by anyone today,” he replied while returning my phone.

“She'll want to tell you the results of the SBMPTN announcement. You are so nosy with your sister.”

“He passed the first choice, let alone who you want to hear?” he said indifferently.

“Where did you know?”

He gave me his phone. “Lo his teacher, you don't know how to check?”

I received the gadget while cursing annoyed without a sound. Annoying guy. The screen of his phone contained numbers, names, and, ah, yes! Matt graduated in the majors and college he wanted. So. It turns out that she was busy on her own with her phone looking for her sister's name.

“Why didn't you tell me you saw the announcement?”

“Lo has a sophisticated phone from Matt is there no quota? I sent you a pulse, have you never used it?” He looked at my phone full of probes.

“We're dating, so I didn't see her. Don't you not like me sharing my attention with other men while with you?”

“Smart girl.” He rubbed my hair.

My heart almost stopped beating feeling his touch. Things that happen over and over again. What's wrong with me? Like someone who is watching a horror movie. Sleep unsettled every time he remembers his kiss. Then my heart was pounding as he touched me outside of his habit. Do I have a certain disease?

“Is there anything you really want right now? Object, someone, go somewhere, anything you want,” ask after paying our food bill.

I looked at him for a moment. “You want to give me a gift?” my question, understand the point. He nodded slowly. “I can ask for anything I want?”