SOULMATES

Muhammad Alka Adiyansyah

Mom was brought to my house so I wouldn't worry, if my own mother was home, I bothered to and fro. Going out in my house until it was completely healed.

His condition was still very weak, probably due to the effects of the medicine as well. My sister also came with her children.

"Chira nginep yes at home. "

"No."

"Eat aja yu. "

"Yu" while grinning him.

Dad bought fried chicken, lalapan and sambal from a place to eat near the house.

"Let's eat together."

My family and I ate together.

I laughed and said to them.

"Now eat together at home. The iddah time graduation celebration. Ga rich first, home graduation Bachelor from Anton building eat together in Alam Sunda. "

"Sadly, graduation is now in the ICU, not the Anton building. Hopefully after graduation you can be a great person later. " My brother said that.

"Hopefully some tea. "

One by one my first istikharah hints become real. But upside down from the 3rd dream then to the second dream clue.

Istikharah hints to two, I walk home graduation on foot to the mother's house, with a happy heart without burden, even though the other friends wear a vehicle. But I heard a whisper, "It's okay for you to be like this right now, they also just pretend to look like that, unlike you who are. "

the fact is now true, my iddah period ended when my mother was in the Hospital, in a state I had nothing. Even to eat, I borrowed my sister's Chira bracelet. My shop is empty too. My car also I intend to take it off. Because I can no longer afford to pay next month's installments. I have tried my best, all the efforts I have tried, but if in the end I have to let go of me sincerely, there will be no regrets because I have fought rough until the point of blood loss.

I also remembered the words a Rangga to me, you have to choose between a shop and a car. He was no longer included in that choice. Because there must be one that is sacrificed. I finally decided to let go of the car. Because A Rangga also said, starting from zero back no problem, shuttle jarel can use public transportation, shopping can be transferred. If the mother controls the hospital home malem there is an online taxi.

I have to make a decision, for the future of Jarel and my mother and my father, hopefully I can get the capital back, because I want to see when I wait for the uncertain things to go on. I remembered the words of A Rangga as well, Until when to expect help from others, it will not be forever they can help, happiness is self-created, not sought. Even living alone without a partner will be happy. And I finally thought about what I would marry if there were no men who could live with me, mending me myself happy my own family.

I don't know my first clue. The first dream.

A Rangga came home with me from his present shop, and saw an empty building.

"Let's go home, I'm coming. "

I asked.

"What building is it?"

A Rangga replied,

"That's the building we'll fill up later, we fill it together yeah, I'm getting out of here, this is my brother's. I want to move to that place with you. "

Maybe I've been wrong all this time. I guess A Rangga will be my life partner later, and we start a business from scratch together. Turns out we were just friends, only I loved her until this moment I couldn't forget her. Despite the many tests I've been through, no matter how many times he ignores my messages, call me. I don't know how many times I cried because of her. I don't know how many times I begged, I don't know how many times I gave her a chance. Until mom got mad at me, because I had no self-respect. I was like a beggar. It's not like that ma'am, the heart of who can lie. I also try not to like this, but my heart never changes, my feelings remain the same. Only I also do not dare to hope anymore because I already know the answer. Because in A Rangga's heart there are only Roses. I will probably always love her and always love her without wanting to have her. There's nothing wrong with my feelings as long as I don't interfere with her life with the Rose. Because true love is letting our loved one live happily with the person he loves because feelings can never be forced. I chose my path to rebuild my own business starting over again from scratch, maybe I need A Rangga's help too to direct me to rebuild my business, instead of hoping to make her my husband. Not likely. Walk as usual just as he deserves with a friend, as with Adrian first.