SOULMATES

Water at the end of my eyes

"Zara's. "

"Yes. "

There's a message coming in from my friend Ana.

"I want to forget my heartache Zara. How difficult is it? "

"Absolicited to God yet? "

"Udah. "

"Keep asking, God willing, you can too. Otherwise, we can come to terms with everything and remember it all with a smile."

"So my ex-husband has dared to upload a photo with his new woman now. "

"It's nothing, it's Ana's right. Because you are divorced too. Ditto is the same. Photos of the streets continue to be the same ex-loyal he is now. "

"His brother told me. I don't know it myself. "

"Yes me too, my friend who always sends Ditto photos to me, without me asking, without me finding out anyway. "

"But his face is covered in emot. "

"Yes exactly the same, Ditto's photo is also always closed emot, if Si Lidya is not. It doesn't have to be covered, it's free."

"Maybe they're embarrassed. "

"Why cheat if you still have shame. Dare to cheat means dare to bear all the risks. Continue to have shame why it should be uploaded in sosmed. The digital footprint of today's age is incredible."

"Zara you're friends with my ex-husband. "

"Friends, often see my story as well. "

"It would have erased her friendship. "

"Please see try, definitely update. "

"Still want some kepo? Dare to bear the consequences? "

"Curious, want to know what his taste is like. The woman now. "

"Ha.ha. .Not in shock but yes. "

"Awhile yeah. "

I opened Ana's ex-husband's facebook. Turns out I didn't find any pictures of other women besides Ana and her son just yet.

"There's a new woman's photo. "

"Well, try screenshoot. "

"In privacy maybe. "

"I don't have any. "

"Yes, the big brother's photo. "

"Your brother tells you what his picture is? "

"No, just by the way, Mom knows too. Uploading just another birthday he said."

"Ga is there but I'm not happy, yes it's just so. May they be happy with their new partner. "

"It's hard, I can't be like you Zara. "

"He. he's.. I also yesterday continued to send photos of Ditto with Lidya and also Lidya's children again vacation at Villa, swimming pool, at Cafe. All photos of Ditto his closed emot. Umbar is half-and-half. I saw her smile. Lots more photos. "

"Wahh nyampe that much yes. Means your friends know it. "

"Maybe, let me just tell him. You like being their stalker, don't you. Lots of photos every movement of them how you know. Want until when continue like that, you can benefit from them. It won't affect anything to me now, it won't change things anyway. It won't hurt me, either. Because my heart is filled with love now. Whatever, whoever's gonna hurt me now. I will not allow it and I will never. Ditto's business what it is now, it's none of my business anymore. Because Ditto is just my past. Diem in bales is like me he is. Never sent a picture of Ditto again. "

"Waaww. "

"He. he's... I don't care what Ditto does now bodo very, because my heart is also filled with Rangga, although Rangga also can't I have because his heart belongs to someone else. I'm not anything I'm happy about. "

"Dine, I pray you'll always be happy zara. "

"Amen."

I sent a screenshot of my cashier program to a Rangga, thankfully it works again well. No data is missing.

"Alhamdulilah is not a re-input. "

ha. ha. it's commonplace like that.

I also sent a screenshot of my cashier program to Ditto.

"Pure. "

"Thank God, error why he said. " Ditto retaliated.

Wonderful as Rangga, Kok a Rangga can not say yes, bales pake emot aja. Though Ditto can also speak after me and Ditto through a very powerful tornado storm. Maybe everyone is different in character.

"Ga knows, didn't tell her koko either. Jarel took it too."

"What's okay? "

"Nice angkot dong."

Mamah here aa pinjem WA father yes. "

"May I give my phone to Jarel.

"Father's angkot. "

"Jarel ga cape tah? "

"No, exclaiming. First walk to the post office, new to the computer store, keep going home shopping. "

"Oh yeah."

"Dad wants to take a shower first. "

"It's a drug."

"Drug, have you taken a shower yet? "

Ditto did not reply. After finishing the shower Jarel immediately sent his own selfie photo.

"Don't take a picture of her. " Ditto laughs at Jarel's selfie.

Jarel sent me another better selfie.

"Udah magrib, let's pray first. "

"Yes. "

Thank God that there Ditto has improved himself for the better. Just like I am now always trying to get closer to God. Because then we can find peace of heart. Whatever we face, everything feels good.

After this test I came to my senses and returned to God. For only God can help his servant under any circumstances. Another case when I was in Junior High when I got my life feels heavy I think to always end my life. Many times I tried to end my life but I always failed. When SMK also fit dad got into trouble and had to go to jail I felt my life was hard, I tried to take medicine so I could die, but God was always good to me. I'm not allowed to die with such a ridiculous thing.

Even after I worked, I became an admin. I have to finish my difficult job because taking care of thousands of employees is not easy. I thought I wanted to resign but when I returned home I was always reminded of my mother. If I stop working what mom eats. I always vent it all by crying hysterically and damaging the things that are near me. And do not even hesitate to hurt myself or lock myself in the bathroom.

Until my boss personally called me to help me consult. He's a graduate of Psychologist, he understands very well with my circumstances he says I've experienced trauma and his trauma feelings have not healed. He saw me at work I didn't hesitate to throw documents at my desk, even locking myself in the toilet office. When I crumbled and was unable to control my emotions at that time. I was not even aware of that kind of thing.

But after I was able to stabilize my emotions, I worked well, according to procedure. The department I held that was initially messy was the best department in terms of administration and production targets as well. The results of my hard work with my father Manager and also the team leaders, Group Leaders all. We work together solidly to prove to them all that our department is capable of being the best.

What I got from my leader. Not what I and the team expected especially for myself personally.

"What does the admin work? it doesn't really matter. Just sitting quietly in front of the computer, continue to walk the production line, a waste of salary. Must be all his paperwork was also manipulation. There will be no admin who can do this. If you follow the rules of the company. "

"Waaawww. Thank you very much for your appreciation to me for these 7 years. "

I finally handed in my resignation letter. Because my mother was sick at the time. For 1 month my resignation letter was not signed by him. Until a week later the deadline for my date to resign. I met the leader at the time.

"My father wants to resign in a week, which is the new guy who wants to replace me. Mr. asked? "

"Ah at least later you change your mind. not so resigned. "

Even if I have decided something. It was the end result that could not be changed.

"Yes, whatever your father. "

Finally in 2 days I resign again there is a new person who replaces me. How would I teach him if it was only two days.

After I'm home. My surrogate always called me on his complicated job. I'm just smiling.

"It's not that my job is easy. So you enjoy it. I'm calm at home now. "

If we are never valued somewhere for what we continue to endure, leave it alone. There's still good things out there. I finally built my business from scratch. Although it is not easy because it has to fall awake fighting alone but at least we are the boss in our own place. Not the one who stays on the face of people.

Finally my boss called me many times to go back to work there. I don't want to go into the same circle and get stuck with a situation full of such manipulation.